I am ruining my life. And I think I deserve it.
It's a convoluted inner conflict, in which I despise myself and want to make me miserable but at the same time I don't like being miserable.

I see myself and just hate everything, no one could ever love me, I'm disgusting.
I don't know how to change to this.
It's scary. It feels as if the only good thing about myself is this self-hatred, accepting who I am, giving into this being who I hate seems like the most corrupt thing possible. Does that make sense?
I am actively ruining my life, because I want to. And I don't know how to stop.
I am going insane.

>>81970004 (OP)
youre a zoomer you dont know what suffering is, grow up.

My peneneher in your vagineher

>>81970004 (OP)
>I am actively ruining my life, because I want to. And I don't know how to stop.
>I am going insane.
Why stop? If it feels good than keep doing we all die and the whole point of life is too feel as good as possible before you die.

Wanna go to hell with me?

>>81970151
As opposed to what? A fucking millennial? Lmao

>>81970190
You will understand when you're older, sport.