Have you ever gone super saiyan (adrenaline levels so high they are only obtainable through mental illness) in real life?

>>81970226 (OP)
Yes. Many times. I dissociated and got sent to the psych ward for it several times. I hate myself. I wanna kill myself. I hate being a BPD retard from a family of traumatized soldiers and police officers. I wanna kill myself.

>>81970262
>BPD
Damn, that's the gayest mental illness. Are you a twink perchance?

>>81970277
Kinda but not really 21 BMI built pretty stable but my manifestation is not really feminine at all gays hit on me all the time though I don't really like it

>>81970226 (OP)
yea when i did graffiti and got chased by cops
miss those times

>>81970505
So life has gifted you all the gay sex you could want and you refuse it? I mean, a mouth is a mouth.
>>81970559
Do you realize how hard good people have to work to clean that graffiti? You should be in prison.

>>81970596
>So life has gifted you all the gay sex you could want and you refuse it? I mean, a mouth is a mouth.
Yes because I would rather have heterosexual sex. I am a virgin so 'cel' but not an 'incel' girls IRL have expressed interest in me again and again I'm too mentally ill and only pick the needy BPD girls though (inb4 fakecel gtfo reee)

>>81970646
Well from one mentally ill person to another, sex is extremely overrated and will only lead to problems for people like us. It makes sense to want to be alone and not pass on your shit genes to an innocent. But just remember that guys can't get pregnant, so....

>>81970667
Yes, I am aware. I am in no rush to lose my virginity to some random girl that isn't a LTR and no chance of marriage. I'm saving myself for true love (tm)... :)

Although unfortunately I jack off a lot otherwise I get ED and blue balls I hope they are okay with that

>>81970226 (OP)
One Saturday I trimmed the backs of 20 houses in 2 hours because I was having a mental illness moment. Estimated twenty 8-14 foot holly trees and forty rows of walters around ac units and some generators, 4ish feet long on 6 sides, 4-5 feet tall and 1 and a half feet wide.
There were 3 guys doing the fronts of the houses, okay amount of plant material but they should have been on my ass the entire time. Taking a 15 min water break in the shade drenched in sweat with my shirt wrapped around my head, I wondered what it would be like if I could put that energy into something I cared about consistently.

>>81971178
>wondered what it would be like if I could put that energy into something I cared about consistently
You would be CEO of a company and probably a millionaire, but the stress would cause you to die at age 53.