I'm just tired, bros. I can't help being resentful whenever there is an opportunity, in particular I noticed it with the gender stuff recently. but sometimes there doesn't even need to be an opportunity to be resentful. e.g.
>get along with coworker
>can't help but envy his family life (which was completely unrelated to the situation) and wish he would just fuck off
I can't help thinking that everyone has it better than me, neither can I feel any gratitude for the few things I have. Usually when trying to sleep, I try to calm down, as I would otherwise not be able to sleep, and I just feel a huge mental exhaustion from being resentful almost all the time as well as guilt for some of the stuff I post online, only to act the same way on the next day. I wish it would just stop and that I could be more happy.

>>81971338 (OP)
mario got friendzoned, what chance do you have toad?

>>81971338 (OP)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Vo7c9gvVL0

>>81971373
even if I have no chance, I should still be able to be happy. there are people in similiar or worse positions who still enjoy their life, I think. maybe I'm just buying too much into normie gaslighting, I'm not sure.

>>81971493
if you're tring to tell me that religion would help me, I can't get into them. simply due to "if god real, why bad thing happen?"

>>81971338 (OP)
Actually 4chan deradicalized me.
After years here I know that just everyone in modern society is miserable. Even the alphas, even the rich. It's bad for all people, and it's going to be worse. Somehow that made me chilled and forgiving.

>>81971595
Because God sent us to stop bad thing and you're not helping

>>81971338 (OP)
Being hateful requires effort

I've been very isolated all my life between the dirt road rural, fundamentalist religious upbringing, and homeschooled until college.
It's easy to wonder if by some strange possibility, other people are right. But you have to shut such silly thoughts down. They can't survive even a cursory glance. Average person is stupid, hateful, and full of spite.
After acknowledging it all you can do is seize control of what lies within your power. The ability to detect evil is a rare trait I and only a few others possess. The world is beyond saving. However, comfy little pockets can be established if a lot of difficult criteria are met. I'm talking about creating new eden on a nano scale. You are what you eat they say. I would like to change my diet to exclusively plants, animals, and fungi I cultivated and harvested. I believe this is a crucial part of developing this oasis of good in a desert of evil. You can't just reject part of the world. It's an all or nothing gambit.

>>81971338 (OP)
Unironically the only way is through faith in God. Hate is just downstream from fear and the opposite of fear is faith.
>b-but babies get cancer
idk man

>>81971693
if god is almighty, why does he not do it himself? why did he create a problem to begin with?

>>81971678
I don't think everyone is miserable. the one friend I have irl seems completely fine. so do many of my coworkers. and I do not think that they are all just so great at hiding it. these are regular people who are happy, not the rich or whatever. many of my coworkers are parents who are satisfied as they are more or less "done" with life. meaning they found love, married, raise(d) their children, etc.

>>81971861
>if god is almighty, why does he not do it himself?
He's planning to at Armageddon
>why did he create a problem to begin with?
The "problematic" things are designed to be in your service.

>>81971338 (OP)
Stop comparing yourself to other people and focus on your life and the things you are passionate about and enjoy. This will lead you down the path of self-love which makes dealing with life a lot easier.

Also learn how to be happy for other people. If a woman you like finds a partner, be happy for them and share their happiness.

>>81971704
yes, it can be exhausting. and I wish I would redirect that effort elsewhere.

>>81971746
sorry, but that's a bit confusing for me. you mean I should isolate myself?

>>81971773
>>81971916
religious texts are written by man, some atheists redditors might say they exist to control people. but I can see some sense in those texts: to bring a then barbaric society on the tright track. "love thy neighbor" so people in the community actually work together instead of stealing from one another and so on.
for me they are like a guide on how society should work, without the need of a complicated judicial process that was not feasible back then. the virtues they teach are still true today, but the "fantastical elements" simply do not ring with me.

>>81971989
nothing exists in a vacuum, so is it not natural to compare yourself? consider looks, the concept of beauty only makes sense when there is ugliness to compare it to. loving yourself baselessly just seems like lying to yourself. you don't just love other people for no reason either.
why should I be happy for others? you become happy when there is a reason to do so, and when none of the reason to be happy is shared with you, then why would you share that happiness. (although I do remember sometimes being happy for others, e.g. in sports, but that just happens spontaneously.)

>>81972035
>they are like a guide on how society should work
Maybe that's what you glom on to because society is so broken, but how does "love this invisible entity" guide society? If anything, people who really believe it are absolute wildcards.

>>81972035
Maybe not pure isolation. If you find someone with a light inside you would probably benefit from having them in your life. But be cautious of the will-o'-the-wisps. It could be false light. Trust is a precious and fragile thing. Others will not likely value it as much as you do.
I guess I could elaborate by calling it finding contentment and purpose. Nature seems to be inherently good which contrasts starkly with human society. So I'd rather focus on ecosystems than navigating social waters.

>>81972200
I can relate, lately even when I read posts from someone saying he's the most useless loser I get intensely jealous of any replies trying to boost his self esteem.

>>81972498
>but how does "love this invisible entity" guide society?
I think there is something calming in having a parental figure you can rely on. deities in many cultures are often mothers or fathers. so you can tell the peasants to work the field and that everything will be alright, since god takes care of you in the afterlife.
but the guidance aspect was more prominent back when majority of people could not read and your government was not as strong as it is now. you had no police or education like today, but you still wanted everyone to behave, so religion was the pragmatic and successfull solution to that. it very much guided society to where it is now, but in my personal struggles I see no use for it.

>>81972635
what do you mean by someone with a light inside?

>>81972831
same, especially towards female OPs. but despite it being so pointless to get envious over that I can't help it.

>>81971338 (OP)
I just learn to love the hate, sure I got a shitty start at life and I'm now a faggot tranny; but I accepted that I'm a piece of shit by now, and the thing is people love me for it, it's quite frankly disturbing even to me that someone like me can even get with someone, just cause I'm a mentally ill fuck with a shit ton of personality means that I'm somehow more desirable than someone who would love and care for you a thousand times better than I ever could, I don't just hate everyone, I'm disgusted by everyone

>>81972959
>god takes care of you in the afterlife.
That's not really completely in line with Christianity though, where God serves mankind in life as a _show_ of leadership. This is backwards from how things are supposed to be, humans serving God, but the reversal happens to reverse the curse on humanity.

You could try devil's lettuce to help let go and relax. It is very difficult. I have trouble letting go many times so try to avoid discussing at times. Sometimes arguing gave a mix of euphoric but also awful feeling. Didn't know if I like it or not. Don't want to do it at least anymore

>>81972959
It's an ineffable quality. Gut instinct, you feel amicably towards someone or sense a kinship. Like being a weary traveler in a foreign land but then you hear your native tongue and accent.

>>81973147
devil's lettuce?

>>81973234
sounds very vague, but I suppose it would be nice to find someone like that

>>81973345
Weed. Think Flanders in Simpsons called it that