Thread 82050053

How many of you here are actually just cowards. I had a revelation tonight. I'm a an authentic coward. This is the only thing hat has stopped me my entire life. How did I become a coward? I really couldn't tell you but I am.

Its literally sickening. Today was another major test of my courage and I failed. I fled. I'm so sick of myself.

>want to say nice things to people but too cowardly to say them
>want to share my opinion but I'm too much of a coward
>I want to socialize and laugh and play but I'm too scared.
>I always told myself when SHTF I would be a badass

I'm such a fucking coward that even when I'm black out almost deadly levels of drunk people still thought I was a sober quiet person

>>82050053 (OP)
well it took courage to post this

so don't feel like you can't find it in you to get what you want

>>82050053 (OP)
This is an odd suggestion, but you should try getting on a platform like vrchat, going into random active places and talking to people. You can leave at any time, you can block anyone, no trace of you will be left other than maybe voice if there's a recording. I like to practice talking there

>>82050053 (OP)
This genuinely sounds like the fault of other people if they are not inviting enough to invite you. You seem extremely ready to share yourself

>>82050070
>well it took courage to post this
No it didn't. This is an anoymous image board. This is the only place I'm not a little bitch.

I'm not a coward. You would consider me a chad even despite how obnoxious that is to write. People can actually innately recognize non verbal cues, mood and intention. If you simply think good thoughts you often get a positive response. Cowardice is generally normal. Most people are relativists with no integrity. Even if you dont share your intentions externally they are determinants in your attitude and behavior. Its why 'fake it till you make it' is advice robots get. Just keep being self aware and giving a shit. It solves everything else. Gn bb ily.
All women are whores btw.

>>82050053 (OP)
sorry chief. I wish things had turned out differently for you.

>>82050088
I feel u don't give yourself enough credit

this place is super judgy and mean

I Think you knwo this too

XD

>>82050053 (OP)
browsing r9k has taught me that ambition and willpower are privileges
probably most incels here have tried nothing and have no ability to think for themselves and learn by doing

>>82050053 (OP)
Did you actually try taking drugs you dumb nigger?

>>82050081
I wish I could say it was other people but its really not. Its cowardice that for years I've convinced myself is some retarded twisted view of stoicism.

>hur dur don't wear flashy clothes you like because thats superficial so just wear cheap normal looking things to fit in

>>82050132
It's their fault for not inviting you to go shopping when you clearly want to

>>82050053 (OP)
forgot the following line
>I always told myself when SHTF I would be a badass
>some homeless guy walks into the store I'm ordering at and starts a yelling match with the server
>I freeze like a deer in headlights

>>82050053 (OP)
I've thought about this quite a lot before, but I have been traumatized by many bad experiences. It was ALWAYS the case since I was a kid that I would get in trouble for expressing myself, and when I did get in trouble I would get the book and kitchen sink thrown at me.
So I wish I was better but I understand why I'm not. I was always punished for behaving in certain ways while other males got to behave in a boisterous way and got respect for it. When people see you as low-tier they associate everything you do with being low-tier and everything is pretty much the last straw.
This is also a trap people fall into.
>lets treat this person like they are beneath everyone and they have no right to express themselves
>wait, why did he grow up to be so weak and meek?
Many such cases.

>>82050153
>homeless guy
How dangerous was he and what was he equipped with

>>82050053 (OP)
Post your best chud meme

>>82050143
Ok how about another example. My sister in law had a baby and I'm too bitch made to ask to hold her or tell my in law its cute. I have to wait for my mom to suggest I hold her.

>>82050173
Based reserved uncle, let the babies come to you

>>82050162
He was armed with nothing and the way the wait staff and the entire shop of patrons looked, it was if it was another day.

>>82050197
So there was 0% danger and you acted normally wow

>>82050076
>no trace of you will be left other than maybe voice if there's a recording
200 octane suicide fuel

>>82050201
>acted normally
No, there was 0% danger and my body went into fight, flight or freeze mode.

>>82050282
Legitimately based af, if there was actual danger you would be the most ready

>>82050307
Thanks for trying to gas me up bro

>>82050312
Nah. I know if there was a real threat we'd 2v1 him and eliminate the threat in 0.2 seconds desu. Not even joking just follow my lead

>>82050053 (OP)
It's a tough pill to swallow

For me it's a combination of cowardice and laziness

>>82050053 (OP)
Maybe you should get pissed off !!!!!!! ! ! !

>>82050053 (OP)
Literally me exactly, I'm too scared to "live" and have always been that way. Scary to think I will probably die this way, having never been brave enough to speak my mind, share my feelings, or be open with anyone

>>82050053 (OP)
Pretty relatable. Except the alcohol part, booze actually does help me.

>>82050053 (OP)
I'm in the same exact boat, OP. I consistently try to hype myself up, but never live up to my own expectations. But at the very least you're aware of your issues. I find that it's easier to speak my mind now that I don't have to worry about maintaining a facade that was never really me to being with.

>>82050053 (OP)
>How many of you here are actually just cowards.
Hell yes, anon. TFW so autist and high-inhib that I will never get sex or happiness.

>>82050070
i am extremely anxious as well and no it does not take courage to post here

same but since i'm a afab i think it's more excused and people havent pressured me to change. annoying as hell i hate gender roles