I have 0 motivation to improve my life or live well unless I have a crush, even though I'm a KHHV. Anyone else like this?

>I want to feel bad
Okay then.

>>82064323 (OP)
I am, but I'm not a virgin. I keep leaving relationships because they're toxic/bad for me and then ending up way worse because all my motivation to live just vanishes when I'm alone for longer than a month.

>>82064323 (OP)
>Anyone else like this?
sort-of, but I think you got your wires crossed, anon

To me, I have zero (0) motivation to do ANYTHING with my life but I still do it regardless
I still groom myself, I still dress well, I still go to work, and I still enjoy my little pleasures in life

Work on yourself first, mate
The women come after

>>82064323 (OP)
Yeah I don't care enough about myself to do better or be better i just drift to self improvement and nothing will come out of it if I had someone to love or to try for i would do the impossible but I don't and I will just sit and wait for my grave

>>82064323 (OP)
Yep but I'm not a KHHV sorry to say. I've never loved anyone until meeting a certain someone recently, now for the first time in my entire life I'm motivated. Trying to gain weight, learn how to drive, maybe go to uni if not then get a job, earn money etc all because this one person whom I adore has given me the drive to. Even if it goes nowhere I don't even care. This person simply existing gives me a purpose in life. It's honestly rather bizarre. I've never felt this way before. I think I've just always been a codependent person. Obvious why when I consider my upbringing. But I'm also admittedly a bad person and picky as hell, I guess I've never really liked anyone until I met this person. I find it hard to live for myself. I need to live for someone else. They are my purpose in life.

>>82064686
I hope you will never be happy i pray that your special someone is secretly so disgusting that you will never try again i wish that you will never truly appreciate them and break up so you can cry for the rest of your life
Sincerely kys

>>82064892
And they'd still be worth it. They could break my heart and murder me tomorrow and the little bit of understanding, acceptance and happiness they've already given me would make me regret nothing. No matter where it goes I will never be able to regret this.

>>82065066
>and you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt

but nah ur actually pathetic for this, hopefully it turns out all good, but the other guy's prayers work and it turns out she's a whore of epic proportions and strung you along to laugh when she pulls the rug out, I hope you don't rope

>>82064323 (OP)
I would improve my life if I had a girlfriend, but as I am right now, I don't feel the need to do it

>>82065144
I love being pathetic then. If that was the case I'd honestly be surprised at how well they've faked it so far to the point where I'd legitimately encourage them to start a career in acting or something because holy hell. They've told their family about me.
>I hope you don't rope
If I ever do end up roping it'll be a double suicide, romantic in a fucked up way. I can feel it.

>>82065066
YOU fuking fool you are soo deep you can't see the other end without being retard you think you will be a sane human being after a breakup of course not you stupid fuck every smell every laugh everything And anything you shared with them will turn to poison for the rest of your life

>>82064323 (OP)
I'm the same way. The few times I've had a crush were always the best times of my life. They were the only times besides childhood when I was excited to get up every morning. It made it so easy to do the things I was supposed to and avoid the things I wasn't. With my most recent one I easily avoided porn and masturbation for 10 months while it lasted. Prior to that I think I may have gone 1 month once with extreme difficulty. As soon as the crush fell through I immediately fell back again. Life's just better when you have a real thought in your head that things could get better.

>>82064323 (OP)
We have saying in my shithole
>Get this boy a wife so he can start acting like a man and stop being a big baby

>>82065873
Based. Give me my wife FIRST. THEN I'll fix myself up.