>>82069083 (OP)I went from being bullied for my looks (ages 6-17) to being a signed model. My mental health is getting better but I'm not sure I'll ever truly escape being an ugly kid. I still worry that the people who are nice to me are just tricking me for a joke, I still worry that my girlfriend is just settling for me because I'm nice and safe, I still can't shake the feeling that the people who look at me in public are gawking at me because I'm a freak.
Life is better but you don't feel better if that makes sense. I'd still rather not be who I was before but I'd give anything to have the confidence and assurance of someone who grew up normal.