I never asked to be born yet I'm here and forced to suffer. There's no meaning to it so I'm forced to "find my own meaning". So basically, do what makes me happy right? But then I happened to be born into circumstances which makes getting things that "normally" make people happy extremely difficult. So I can't even distract myself with those things. So what's left are vices like entertainment and drugs but if I spend my life on those I'm supposedly not allowed to complain because I'm not trying hard enough to "improve"? So I'm just supposed to keep improving for something I might not ever get or know would make me happy even if I did? And if did end up not even enjoying "normal things" I'm judged for not being able to "find my own meaning" even though I never asked for that task to begin with. What's even the point here?

>>82077529 (OP)
>What's even the point here?
enjoying the pattern of entropy only you can spread subjectively . if it's trash, anything else is even more of trash

>>82077529 (OP)
>So I'm just supposed to keep improving for something I might not ever get or know would make me happy even if I did?
Yeah, pretty much. It really sucks lol but there really isn't an alternative unless you're fine with dealing with the life you currently live.
>What's even the point here?
I don't think there is a point. Your parents wanted a kid and then you happened to be that child and that was it.

Life really is some bullshit but the only alternative to living is dying so there isn't much you can do about it if you don't want to die. There's some fun things to do while alive though so just try to be as comfortable as possible while you wait for death.

>>82077782
>There's some fun things to do while alive though
[citation needed]

>>82077795
Listening to music and drawing is pretty fun.

>>82077814
years of doing this tell me: not really, no

>>82077823
Then what about reading stories?

>>82077529 (OP)
You're right, anon! Life sucks, so it's time to kill yourself!
I'm sure you can find a knife in the vicinity. Just remember: across the road, not down the street!

>>82077849
i hate that shit despite stuffing myself with much fiction
reality is just that. not objective. you had fun - good for you

>>82077886
you're terrified of his implications so you triple down on the kind of straw manning that shuts down discussions. this is not good faith engaged and I will curse you with rape

>>82077908
What? No I just think that whiners should either kill themselves or shut the fuck up,

>>82077915
okay, I see. get raped.

>>82077933
Can't rape the willing, dummy.

>>82077889
>reality is just that. not objective. you had fun - good for you
Well yeah, but I'm just saying those things as examples. If there is absolutely nothing that you like or the things that you like are completely and totally out of your reach then that's just too bad.

I really don't have an actual answer to the question because it's basically asking me what the meaning to life. I think that you either come up with your own (like you said), adopt the beliefs of others (like religion), or you just have nothing. When you have no beliefs you either just live because you feel like it and if you want to die then just die. Not really sure what to tell you brother. You could always partake in those vices that people will judge you for and just not care about the judgement if you want.

>>82078031
I'm not OP btw
I'm more into ??? than vices. nobody likes the ??? or they feel it's performative when done, so ??? doesn't get much traction or definition. vices just get you back to ??? anyway. I don't feel like living or dying but the ??? feel is there anyway, same as when I was dying or close to death

>>82078098
>I'm not OP btw
Damn, did OP leave the thread after posting then?

Not sure what you mean by ??? :<

>>82077938
Faggot ass nigga
Somebody come look at this
Nigga said he wants a dick in his ass and to get pregnant
Faggot

>>82078213
>Not sure what you mean by ??? :<
if it's not felt then forget it

>>82078237
>Nigga said he wants a dick in his ass and to get pregnant
I'll take any form of affection at this point

>>82077915
I think they should whine all they like.

>>82078256
Sure, but do it somewhere else. Like maybe /b/ or /trash/.

>>82077782
>parents wanted him
Get out!

>>82078283
>Get out!
You can't make me leave brother :]

>>82077782
I wouldn't say I'm fine with it, but any kind of "improved" version doesn't seem desirable either. It's more like I just keep trying not to make it worse which feels like delaying the inevitable anyway.
>>82077886
>it's your fault for being born
Absolute retard

>>82078577
>>it's your fault for being born
Well yes! You're omnipotent! You selfish little omnipotent prick

Why not kill yourself? Seriously life fucking sucls

>>82078709
Having a survival instinct + still hoping there is something

>>82077529 (OP)
To find a girlfriend on week 1. Jesus on week 2. And a somewhat dumb skater on week 3 obviously.

>>82077529 (OP)
Really it's to make your existence more bearable.