>>82079948 (OP)>What are you waiting for?If you've actually been deeply suicidal in the past then you'd already know the answer. Essentially, things are bad-terrible even, but its a hassle to go and do it.
I know that nobody would be really hurt by my actions since theres nobody really left that has any faith in me. They all expect me to do it and have been anticipating this for years if not even longer. Maybe, I stick around just to post thoughts like this because I've hit such a low bar that even a sloppy shittly written post such as this demonstrates far and apart more lucidity and coherence then what I can usually muster. I feel like I've been in a constant blurred dream state for at least the past 4 years. The only thing that ties me to reality is my nerve pain and gut problems
>what are you waiting for>tldrWe don't even know