>be me 18m
>depressed and anxious as fuck
>meet a girl online, she's super sweet, also very anxious
>we talk everyday and help eachother with our issues
>i fall in love with her very quickly even though i dont know what she looks like
>things are messed up between us because of mental health issues and her going through a lot
>we stay together and get closer, she looks a lot like picrel
>want to visit her but shes too anxious, eventually have to break up because i couldnt handle online anymore
>still friends, shes still the person id confide everything and honestly i was still in love with her
>ffw a year and i ask if shed ever want to meet up, even just as friends
>she says no
>i have to cut things off at this point, hurts so much but i need to move on with my life and focus on the real world
that was a couple weeks ago. i miss my best friend so bad. i wanted to marry her but i dont think ill ever even hear from her again.

I'm sorry to hear that anon ):
You're young though things will get better.