I miss my ex because she was my friend.

She hurt me very badly and cut all ties in a way that makes it very hard to get in contact with her again. I could bother her family but that's very pathetic. Thinking back I definitely remember far more bad times than good times, but I still miss the few and far between good times.

I still hold out hope she'll come back again in that way BPD girls do even though I told her to never speak to me ever again. She damaged me really heavily.