I don't know if the reason why I have a rape fetish and want to be violated comes from the fact that I've been groped 'playfully' by mostly kids older than me and sometimes adults + getting bullied by girls
feel kinda ashamed and hopeless in those situations, but that's when I'm still young though
Apparently, I'm 19 now and feel very uncomfortable at the topic of sexual stuff, yet my mind is trying to force itself to be innocent, but I'm no different from a whore

>>82094647 (OP)
honestly op you should just find a healthier way to deal with your issue here since forcing yourself to be innocent doesn't seem to work. I think if you had a better relationship with yourself and sex and learned to own it you might become a more rounded individual. like you already know that rape is probably bad, but you can absolutely still have a fetish for it and learn to express it in safer ways that don't put you in compromised situations.

Op, despite whatever people might tell you, that kind of fetish is not something you should accept.There are lots of pervs who would like to take advantage of your mental condition, to do fucked up things to you, so dont listen to them .What you need is a loving bf/gf. If you are a loser like me, you can just fantasize about it.

>>82094647 (OP)
being a whore is normal behavior actually, wanting attention and someone grabbing you spikes your dopamine, you get their dominance and and competence spell, and really makes you feel alive so just do what you want really, you need sex and love or you'll go crazy.