The Rain
8/8/2025, 12:41:46 AM No.82111440
What can I do if I've been hate for years?
I've done a lot of mental health work, like journalism, meditating, three months in a row gratitude without wifi over a summer, and yet I still have insane hatred of myself and the people in my life. I don't escape these people who hate me (brother and parents). They have abused me physically and mentally all my life to treat me as the failure of the house and the family.
It is impossible to focus on this nagging hatred and pain. They deserve hell, but I can't help it. I know that being successful is not enough to fill this void and I would rather just harm them. I am full of health problems that they can also give two shits about. (Hypothyroid, vericocele vein, low test, sleep apnea / devoured septum or breathing problems and actually 0 energy and life in me)
I'm so close to solving this, but so close to giving hate and ruining my life even more. It seems so easy to just give in and commit to knives them all.
I just want to take away this self-loathing and hatred of everything in my life. I feel that action against them is the only way to solve this emotion. They deserve it.
the only problem I tell myself is "will be successful and ignore them or ruin their lives by suing them"
I know many of you have all faced these terrible problems because of your looks or inferiority, which just boomerang terrible mental health and life problems.
what can I do in entrepreneurial spirit?
I've done a lot of mental health work, like journalism, meditating, three months in a row gratitude without wifi over a summer, and yet I still have insane hatred of myself and the people in my life. I don't escape these people who hate me (brother and parents). They have abused me physically and mentally all my life to treat me as the failure of the house and the family.
It is impossible to focus on this nagging hatred and pain. They deserve hell, but I can't help it. I know that being successful is not enough to fill this void and I would rather just harm them. I am full of health problems that they can also give two shits about. (Hypothyroid, vericocele vein, low test, sleep apnea / devoured septum or breathing problems and actually 0 energy and life in me)
I'm so close to solving this, but so close to giving hate and ruining my life even more. It seems so easy to just give in and commit to knives them all.
I just want to take away this self-loathing and hatred of everything in my life. I feel that action against them is the only way to solve this emotion. They deserve it.
the only problem I tell myself is "will be successful and ignore them or ruin their lives by suing them"
I know many of you have all faced these terrible problems because of your looks or inferiority, which just boomerang terrible mental health and life problems.
what can I do in entrepreneurial spirit?
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