i am tired and i have been writing 2 much

>>82113061 (OP)
take a nap anon

what have u been writing anon

>>82113090
schizophrenia into my journal

>>82113085
but i wont wake upppppp until tomorrow

>>82113176
>schizophrenia into my journal
interesting

>>82113176
>schizophrenia into my journal
have you been chatting with chatgpt

if so, i recommend you stop due to a quicken development of psychosis it brings onto a person

do NOT use ai for anything

for it devolves you as a human

and evloves it (ai) into your superior

>>82113176
>but i wont wake upppppp until tomorrow
what time is it for you anon

>>82113378
no, i am just joking about how much i write... i have not been conversing with chatgpt. i think a lot of people are unaware that it is coded to agree with the user's prompts and is an echo chamber.

>>82113402
10:50p.m..

>>82113406
>10:50p.m..
oh, same here. what about you watch comfy videos until you fall asleep?

>>82113422
i wanna do that with someone and that someone isnt here anymore.. bwehhhh... how is your night going anon

>>82113433
oh, what happened to that person?
im doing alright... i suppose. it's kind of a boring night

>>82113463
um, it's complicated.. but we can't talk or anything anymore. i'm... trying, for their sake. what makes your night so boring?

>>82113493
im sorry anon. i guess i have a person like that too, but they just decided they had enough of me.
my night is boring because... i don't know. i haven't had a fun night in ages. what would you like to be doing right now?

>>82113506
i hadn't had enough of my person.. i got told that i was really bad for them. i still miss them a lot.. what happened in your circumstances anon?

what makes for a fun night for you anon? right now i wanna be... i dunno. watching a movie? or a show?

>>82113538
how come? you were told you were hurting them or something like that? i suppose you struggle with some kind of mental illness... my person was on the opposite end of the stick i think, they were the ones dealing with mental illnesses.
i don't know what makes a night fun for me. i think i have fun when i talk to people.

>>82113587
its really complicated but apparently i was a bad influence... i do struggle with mental things though. i'm really gloomy and.. i really came to depend on them way too much.

i'm sorry to hear about your person.. being pushed away when they're someone struggling must hurt, too. it hurts for everyone involved, i guess. i have fun when i talk to people too. talking is fun. having that kind of connection is really nice. what do you like talking about?

>>82113638
a bad influence... well, you don't sound too bad anon. i hope you can work on yourself, so in a future you can feel ready.
it hurt a lot, because i was manipulated. i was guilt tripped into thinking i was being abusive while asking for closure. i'm still trying to deal with the consequences, thankfully i met a very kind person that is currently keeping me afloat. i really am surprised there are still people like this around these places.
i like talking about anything, i love learning about people!

>>82113717
i really don't think i was that bad.. i think if i got a second chance at things i'd be good for them...

closure is important. i don't have any myself.. and that'sl ike a big, festering wound, really. i can't close it up no matter how many stitches i use. i hope the consequences aren't so harsh on you anon.. how did you meet your kind person? it's nice to know kind people are still around out there...

what do you wanna learn most about people?

>>82113759
but, what kind of person told you "you were bad" for them? like, your person's friends?
closure is very important. if you don't get closure, then you start asking yourself one thousand questions about what you could have done better, and then you'll never be happy with yourself.
i met them on here, a random thread. it's like one of those few lucky moments you get in life. have you ever met anyone like that?
and... i like learning about them in general, i like helping them and caring about them. the problem is, some people start taking me for granted and only talk to me about their problems. that's kind of sad...

>>82113828
my persons friends.. yeah... i think closure is important too, and not having any is kind of making me go crazy. it makes me wanna go pop. i think there was a lot i could've done better but hindsight is always 20/20 right?

i've met a lot of people by random lucky moments... i think i spent all my luck in this life though. i don't think it's gonna strike again. i think it's really warm to know you have someone taking good care of you that came from a place like this. i'm happy for you!!

i feel you about that... i listen to a lot of people about their problems but when i open up, i get growled at sometimes.., i mean my problems are pretty heavy i guess so. what are your problems, anon? what weighs on you?

I do wish you had told me that that was how you were perceiving me. Unfortunately I have difficulty communicating and showing who I am through text. If you can remember me in person you'll remember I'm nothing like what you are describing. All it takes is communication and trust in faith of each other.

2020 hindsight, we are here now and all I can do is believe you remember me for who I truly am.

>>82113921
>i think closure is important too, and not having any is kind of making me go crazy.
do you find yourself reading old conversations, too? and, of course, there are always things you could have done better. but that means you're able to recognize the things you did wrong. it would be way worse if you thought you did everything you could, don't you think so?
> i don't think it's gonna strike again
you never know, OP. do you think you're someone another person could treasure? i don't think i'm anywhere close to being decent, and i still found a person. i don't think it's unlikely. please don't give up.
>when i open up, i get growled at sometimes
haha, this is very relatable. it's either that, or receiving generic advice. my problems? i'd rather not talk about them on r9k, people usually make fun of me... if you want we can talk somewhere else

>>82114051
>do you find yourself reading old conversations, too? and, of course, there are always things you could have done better
ahh, you're reading my mind!!! you're reading my mind!!!!!

> it would be way worse if you thought you did everything you could, don't you think so?
i.. kind of did most things within my capacity. iunnoi.. there's lots to think, but i don't want to think really.

>do you think you're someone another person could treasure?
i think.. i could be treasured by the right person.. but they're gone nyow... i think i'm a good person! i'm a decent person. but, i'm a tired person..

> people usually make fun of me..
i'm sorry to hear. it's not fear to have your problems belittled. what platform do you prefer talking to people?

>>82114110
>you're reading my mind!!!!!
i'm not, it's just that i was there not long ago. well, maybe not in the same exact situation.
if you did everything within your capacity, then at the very least you can say you tried your best, even if you can see flaws in it now. you don't need to think about it too much, i just wanted to point out that you're growing up.
>i think i'm a good person!
this is very good! being nice is not something you get to see everyday. if that's the case, then you can surely be treasured by someone else.
and, i don't know... do you prefer any?

>>82114192
i don't wanna grow up, i wanna regress back to when everyone was happy and friendly again.. bwahhh...

i have no preferences. whatever you are comfortable with, anon.

>>82114221
>i wanna regress back to when everyone was happy and friendly again
i'm sorry, anon. i wish i could say the same, my past wasn't friendly or happy, i guess.
well, if you have no preferences then i'll let you choose whatever you want!

>>82114249
mine was only in small bursts. lets see i have a throwaway disc here. pinterlands