When I was a kid I used to wish I was groomed. I still do today desu. But maybe it was the side effects of having busy/absent parents and no real friends speaking. It would've been nice to have an adult or an older teenager to be there for me and honestly idk just spend time with me and do fun stuff

Grooming wasn't talked about much when I was a teen but it's all pervasive now. I have a hard time relating.

>>82134031 (OP)
I hate my own sex sometimes. Can you have some decorum

>>82134052
A hard time relating to what?
>>82134068
Sorry

>>82134031 (OP)
i used to have this as well but where i would shift the dynamics into having the predator be so infatuated with me they'd do anything i said (happy sugar life has a scene that fulfilled this in a way). i was too self conscious and fat to actually believe anyone would be interested in me and also the paranoia

>>82134031 (OP)
Explain how this grooming would have been in your mind?

>>82134031 (OP)
What kind of fun stuff do you have in mind or want to do?

There are plenty of weird old men out there if this is your dream. And it is piss easy to find them.

>>82134090
I never thought there were more people like me it makes me feel less weird
>>82134115
>>82134139
There's nothing much to explain I just wanted someone who would like me and have enough time or care about me enough to spend it with me. I would've been happy to go anywhere and do simple things, even walking around would've been fine because I spent 98% of my childhood indoors because, like I said, my parents were always busy and they also wouldn't let me go outside unless it was something simple like walking around the yard or neighborhood.
>>82134146
I'm not a kid anymore

>>82134277
sounds like you just wanted your parents to be present in your life, p common and makes a lot of kids vulnerable to pervs

>>82134277
This sounds nice. I wish I had someone to just walk around and talk with. I had someone like that once, and now they are gone, due to neither of our fault. Having someone like a little sister would make me happy.

>>82134090
what ended up happening for you

>>82134031 (OP)
>It would've been nice to have an adult or an older teenager to be there for me and honestly idk just spend time with me and do fun stuff
Being "groomed" wasn't just "have an adult to do fun stuff with", it was "people only pretend to have fun with you so they can fuck you".
It would have probably warped your mind and made you a person who believes that you need to do something to earn people's love, and that something would probably be sexual.

>>82134277
>I'm not a kid anymore
That just means that they can do it legally and in the open. The 50 year old gay men would be perfectly willing to spoil a 20 or even 30 year old man.

>>82134322
I mean, I used to kind of "entertain" talking with predators in a NLOG way when I was like 12 or 13 by talking about sexual stuff and saying I wouldn't mind them showing me their penis or masturbating on camera for me (and I felt so smart and unique because I was self aware enough to be like, actually, I don't really give a fuck about this predator's desires and I'm just doing it for fun) but nothing ever came of the instances. It could have been way worse if my attachment style was different (because the dude literally did beg for nudes everyday and told me to get a camera but I would just lie). I don't know why I even entertained it to be honest. I think I just wanted to feel in control and prove that I was worth more than just being reduced down to that and we could've been equals or something. I never gave any of them any photos (although for some reason I DID feel compelled to share random personal identifiers about my identity like my name and stuff). I didn't count any of it as dating because I never actually voicecalled with them and most of it was just talking through text and then me ghosting them. It is actually weird how many predators exist online when you're young and can just tell that you're young. I'm just glad I never actually did anything

>>82134031 (OP)
When i was 15 I met a very, very pretty 20 year old.
>I've told this before in various ways, btw
She was the room mate of my friend's older sister.
I was just fascinated by how funny, nice, pretty, and sexy she was.
I pursued her pretty avidly and was teased for it but didn't care.
My parents had legit reasons to be out of town for my 16th birthday
>we had planned for over a year that my party, etc. would be a little over 2 weeks later and i was fine
and on that day she came over and I lost my virginity to her.
We were lovers for months until she went back to university in another state.
I learned A LOT about me, women, etc.
My mother knew in about 3 weeks, my father that same day when mom told him.
They weren't dancing in the streets, but they thought it would be good for me since she was a kind, loving woman.
It wasn't too long ago she reached out to me
>we are still good friends, even though we're married to other people
as said
>"today I'd be called a groomer and you'd be called a victim"
So I am in an interesting position.
I know for a fact that older people mentally and emotionally manipulate kids into sex to exploit them.
it does happen.
But my relationship with a 20-21 year old female lover when I was 15-16 years old was a very positive experience.
I feel like we've lost nuance.

>>82134288
Yeah probably. My whole childhood was wasted and it wasn't even my fault
>>82134314
Making friends is too hard
>>82134339
I would've been fine with someone just pretending to be nice to me and hanging out with me. I don't thank you understand how lonely and desperate I was as a kid it's embarrassing to think about it now. I was left alone in the house for almost the entire day and on school days I would have to carry the key to my house and open the door myself and be there until my parents came home. Even at school I was lonely. I was frequently bullied up until like my last year of middle school when it calmed down. I had a few close friends, but they were not real friends, something I realized later on, and all of them didn't consider me their "best" friend. And ofc they had other friends, which I did not, who they hung out with more than me, which we never hung out outside of school.

>>82134492
haha lonely ahhh b word get your thread archived nerd

>>82134492
Making friends is hard. Need little sister to dote on.

>>82134277
Well, I hope you get the groomer you're looking for. Sadly, most groomers are kinda abusive and don't even like their victims.

>>82134031 (OP)
>But maybe it was the side effects of having busy/absent parents and no real friends speaking. It would've been nice to have an adult or an older teenager to be there for me and honestly idk just spend time with me and do fun stuff
Why does that happen a lot to anglos??
My childhood was filled with too many people always around, family all over the place in particular, I was never alone and now like I need my space always and almost never want to see anyone.

>>82134031 (OP)
i was groomed online and am not even sure if it counted as grooming because i was just kinda sexual for some reason at 12 ish and online alot i think, and always found myself wanting to talk to guys online and always sent pics and not even sure what was the reason i did but it stuck with me and now i still do it often and only talk to online guys rather than guys irl and it kinda ruined my perception of guys and myself forever, kinda sucks kek

Females should lower their standards and settle for the undesirable incels their age rather than romanticizing about groomer chads. Your standards are too high and you deserve less!