>consider jumping
>apartment covered in nets and metal bars to stop jumpers
>nearby buildings have a build limit a few meters before being lethal and all of them lock up the stairs to roof
>consider hanging
>apartment (former public housing) is designed to have nowhere high enough and no ceiling fans
>consider gas
>Nitrogen cylinders are tampered with to prevent asphyxiation risk. Not allowed to sell otherwise
>consider gun
>obviously illegal, black market x400 the price even without rounds
>consider sodium nitrite
>Not sold commercially. Need some kind of industrial supplier with full data on you
>consider Hydrogen Sulphide
>Right type of insecticide not sold anywhere
>consider ligature strangulation
>stupid Chud retard can't even tie knots right. Never got the right spot

There is a cosmic force (government) preventing me from killing myself as I please. This is ridiculous
captcha: SKATT

You can get 100% pure argon from any welding supplier for the price of a few big macs

>>82157267 (OP)
Well I do know if you get the right insulation and burn it you can produce hydrogen cyanide gas. The problem is that it's highly toxic and could kill the people that found you. Polyurethane foam I think it's called?

>>82157267 (OP)
I know that feeling, however, there are two ways out: Dehydrating or freezing. If you live in a cold regioin where is goes sub 30 degrees at night you can get naked in the woods, douse yourself with water, and literally freeze in like 3 to 4 hours max. Dehydration can work anywhere anytime but it will take 10 days

charcoal burning. look it up

>>82157267 (OP)
>you WILL NOT die goy
>you WILL generate me revenue goy
Just find a way to detach from the system and live comfy whilenot contributing to them at all

>>82157295
How much does it take to kill you? A hardware store nearby sells very small tanks but idk how dangerous it'd be to run out before being lethal
>>82157333
>Highly toxic
Can I contain it? Hydrogen Sulphide is also toxic but what tools I found mention keeping it in a plastic jar in a confined space
>>82157369
>freezing
I live in Saudi Arabia. Nowhere here is cold enough even in winter
>Dehydration
Saudi Arabia again. My body is accustomed to dehydration. Wouldn't dehydration require some crazy willpower though? The urge to drink water eventually gets very strong. My last attempt lasted about 4 days max
>>82157382
I have to contain it somewhere. Would a tent work? Or would it just melt from the heat? There is a corner in the house to do it but it isn't that hard to reach. My family will definitely notice the smoke. Seems like a safe option though
>>82157390
I have about a month before I move to China. They sell hardcore drugs off shelf there so it might be easier but well it's China. They will probably flag what I'm buying lol

>>82157267 (OP)
walk into the ocean, swim out as far as you possibly can, until you're too exhausted to go any further. Good luck getting back alive ;)

>>82157425
You only need enough to fill whatever space or bag you're occupying with the gas.

>I have to contain it somewhere.
You can do it in any room just stuff up the bottom of doors or any drafts from windows/vents. blankets, excessive duct tape. a tent could catch fire and you'd risk severe burns without death or burning alive which is like the worst way to go

>>82157464
I'm in the middle of barren desert. The closest beach is like 6 hours from here... Goddamn
>>82157477
Will check it out tomorrow. How long does it take to kill? I still live with family and don't want them finding me thrashing around by morning

>>82157425
>Saudi Arabia
nigga you can try going into the desert or something idk, it takes willpower yeah but itll be worth it idk

>>82157425
Isn't Saudi Arabia supposed to be some kind of arab utopia? What has made you so depressed to the point of obsessing about suicide? Last time I checked Saudi Arabia doesn't put suicide nets on their buildings. Also, I thought you said that you lived in an apartment, but now you are saying that you live in a house. Are you larping being suicidal?

>>82157572
Yeah I can go out there probably. I hope police patrol doesn't find me
>>82157575
>Arab utopia
The news make us look too good
>What has made you so depressed
Lot of things. I'm just tired man. I don't enjoy anything anymore
>Doesn't put suicide nets on their buildings
Have you been here? All the new development apartments have this. Mine used to be a public housing area which have these more often because some foreign workers would try jumping. You probably saw that video of a Kuwaiti women yelling at her maid that's trying to jump off a balcony
>apartment now a house
Whatever same thing. In Arabic I just say "al-bait" and don't make the distinction every time. Still need to westernise my mind
>Are you larping being suicidal
Wish I was mate. They just make it really hard here

>>82157633
Have you tried antidepressants?
>Still need to westernise my mind
I am an Egyptoid who moved to USA when I was a kid. Very happy here. Why don't you just leave Saudi Arabia?

>>82157659
Yeah I was prescribed a few but they only made things worse. Became a total zombie
>Egyptoid
Eh ya ta3miya 5555
>why don't you just leave Saudi Arabia?
I am leaving in a month but it doesn't change anything. My problems aren't tied to my location. If anything I'm excited to leave because I'll have my own place and be able to kill myself faster

>>82157685
>Yeah I was prescribed a few but they only made things worse. Became a total zombie
I would say try shrooms but I doubt there would be any in Saud.

Is there absolutely anything that would make you happy? A hot wife, being wealthy, a good education + career? Muscles? If not, what made you happy before depression?

>>82157773
Drugs in general are hard to find and I wouldn't risk it regardless. Cigarettes suit me enough
>A hot wife
Yeah maybe. But the woman I love lives in another country I can't visit
>Being wealthy
Don't care much for money. I can live off the minimum
>Good education+ career?
Don't care either. Was doing fine as a NEET
>Muscles
Hell no
>What made you happy before?
Vidya and anime. I still have a couple of games downloading on my laptop right now but the switch emulator can't run SMTV properly. Will configure it tomorrow. I just don't enjoy them as much anymore. Even Touhou doesn't hit the spot like it used to. I also used to tinker with reverse engineering making custom Arabic patches for old games. Also tried making some of my own small games here and there but I just don't care anymore. Last anime I saw was Mushishi. That was like 4 months ago

>>82157819
>the switch emulator can't run SMTV properly
you dumb motherfucker
VV is already out on PC

>>82157819
>I wouldn't risk it regardless
You realize that you are about to take your own life, right? You literally have nothing to lose why would you not risk things at this point? Especially if it might work to make you happy again.
>But the woman I love lives in another country I can't visit
Why not? where is she at? Why don't you go there? Like I said, you have nothing to lose. Where are you moving to and why isn't it to your love?
>vidya and anime
You like making games but you just don't care anymore. That is a cool hobby. It sounds like you have lost all interest in things you used to enjoy. Classic serotonin and norepinephrine depletion. Shrooms would be right up your ally.

What games did you make Arabic patches for? My older sister and I would have loved that when we were kids

>>82157864
Didn't find a pirated copy :P
It uses Denuvo and isn't cracked yet apparently. My laptop can barely run it anyway

>>82157882
>You literally have nothing to lose
Death better than jail. Unless I'm guaranteed a death penalty it's better I just not try. I've been to juvie before and it sucked. If prison is anything similar I'm not interested
>Why not?
Money and time. She lives in UAE but I don't have money for the visa/flight because I have to go to China (which is way more expensive) within a month. I start school there and my visa doesn't allow me to travel overseas until I finish a term which is an year long. By then I wouldn't have enough money to travel all the way back to UAE and she will forget about me anyway. She has other people in her life and I'm just a faggot on the phone
>What games did you make Arabic patches for?
PC98 Touhou games. I tried doing a PSX game called Pixygarden but couldn't figure out the compression method. I also marginally worked on a translation for the NES version of Megami Tensei but didn't save it. No heart in me to try again desu

>>82157921
>China
What are you studying in China? I thought you didn't care and preferred to be a NEET. What happened?
>she will forget about me anyway. She has other people in her life and I'm just a faggot on the phone
What makes you say that? If you are just a faggot on the phone, why can't you be just a faggot on the phone in China? Why wouldn't she fund your visit?

>Megami Tensei
Fucking loved this series. One of the first vidya I ever played

>>82157997
>What happened?
Father got sick of me sitting at home doing nothing. Either I go to school or hit the curb. I applied for the first university I saw without thinking about it and got accepted. Now I'm in too deep and can't back out. Shouldn't be too bad though, it's an easy field (software) and I'll be a in a solo dorm. Plenty time to off myself
>faggot on the phone in China?
I confessed to her and she said she liked me as well but did not want anything long distance. She already found someone else and will forget about me eventually. Being a long distance "special friend" doesn't sound too nice
>fund your visit
I'd feel terrible if she did that. I have my own money to save and would never ask her

>>82158044
>she said she liked me as well but did not want anything long distance. She already found someone else and will forget about me eventually.
How do you know she has already found somebody else? Is she not still talking to you on the phone?
>I'd feel terrible if she did that. I have my own money to save and would never ask her
>Either I go to school or hit the curb.
Dude. You have options here.

>Option A:
Go to school in China and commit suicide
>Option B:
Go to school in China, finish school and start a career (likely won't happen due to suicidal)
>Option C (favorable option):
Disappoint your family (you already are anyway whenever you an hero) and go fucking do what you want to do. You are not trapped in a predetermined life. Use your China funds to to the UAE and get your girl, dog. Nobody is stopping you from the crashout route. If I were in your shoes I would make every mistake possible outside of going to jail before killing myself.