can a schizoid robot find and understand love?

>>82157966 (OP)
All it takes is one step forward in good faith of the other.

>>82157966 (OP)

I wish women like that existed. Instead all a brooding man can do is hatredmaxx instead of filling up depressed alt-foid pussy. They say semen is an antidepressant so it would actually cure foid depression.

>>82157966 (OP)
Schizoids tend to do ok with BPD women. I usually like BPDs anyway.

>>82157984
Which is a problem in its own right... magnetism can have disastrous effects.

>>82157991
I think the theory is that schizoids extinguish emotional energy while BPDs provide it. Some shrink wrote an essay about it. I'm fine with the instability and not knowing whether they'll stay or go, I think that's where most people get wrecked when it comes to borderlines.

>>82158008
But I'm also not going to be a fire extinguisher for a woman. If I have to emotionally regulate myself they should to. I don't like how BPD girls will attach to you and then rely on you and then dip on you when they don't get their fix.

>>82157966 (OP)
isn't it just a feeling or something?

>>82158031
You're getting energy from her, she's getting a place to dump energy. It's not being a fire extinguisher so much as being a vampire of sorts. Schizoids don't really emotionally regulate anyway, it's just grey all the time there's nothing to regulate.
>I don't like how BPD girls will attach to you and then rely on you and then dip
Dipping is the best part. I get annoyed with having people around pretty fast. My ideal relationship would be a girl that leaves every couple of weeks and comes back a few months later. I can't deal with much more interaction than that. Love doesn't have to look like a storybook, I mean, there are non-traditional forms of it and being a cluster A I think deviating from tradition is usually less painful of an existence.

>>82158063
Then maybe I'm not zoid but adjacent. Regardless I have had this dynamic and while the high is nice the end result isn't worth it. BPDs are a ticking time bomb and I'm a fuse, or a match. I don't know, whatever, you get it.
I'm the opposite. I was just saying in another thread how I want the lifelong connection that will last forever. But if that doesn't happen when you're young (even though I dated) it doesn't continue into adulthood.

>>82158063
you kinda sound like a cuck

>>82157966 (OP)
that image is too deep fr

>>82157984
>Schizoids tend to do ok with BPD women

why is this true
i'm a diagnosed schizoid and almost every chick who's ever been into me has been severe BPD

it'd be ok other than the fact that they eventually fuck off

>>82158092
It's kind of a spectrum, but autism and avoidant can look like schizoid at times too. What do you mean by being a fuse or match though? Like, you set them off? I've always had the opposite effect on BPDs. I really don't know if schizoids typically want a lifelong connection, none of the ones I've spoken with have expressed that desire and I don't think I have it either.

>>82158120
>I really don't know if schizoids typically want a lifelong connection,
that's all i want actually. my only real objective or ambition in life is to find a girl who's like me and spend the rest of my life with her. all forms of socialization are kind of a roundabout way of getting there

>>82158036
I've never felt it before even thought people have told me that they love me. I sit there perplexed trying to make sense of the situation and it often leads to me pretending I understand their feelings and telling them every little thing that wanted to hear from me.
I don't feel human.

>>82158128
Interesting, my sample size is just too small I guess. I don't think I'd be against that kind of thing, but I need so much time alone that I don't see how it could feasible. It's not really something I want, just something I could tolerate under the right conditions.
>>82158110
I think they admire how self contained and self controlled the schizoid is while the schizoid can admire how expressive and spontaneous the borderline is. If the two were combined into a single being, it would just be a normal person I imagine.

>>82157984
yeah a bpd man will die alone and a schizoid woman will be repulsed by him. "natural selection for thee but not for me" -foids

>>82157966 (OP)
>>82157984
>>82158110
Schizoid here, I really really miss this BPD girl I was in an online relationship with. We were a couple for like 3 or 4 months and even talked about getting married and moving states together.

I don't think I handled her BPD properly and it caused her to give up on me and say "I don't think we should talk for a while." I think she said "for a few months."

It's been two years. I still have her number written on a notepad++ new text document autosave thing that I have never had the guts to remove.

I know more about BPD now and what a favorite person is and how it explains both the positive and negative behavior with me, and I fucking didn't know enough to know it at the time that that was how she will always be, as long as I'm still there. As long as she knew I would be there. But I stupidly waited for her to text when the couple months was over. I should have texted within a week. I should have let her know I was still thinking of her, that she was my favorite person too, and that I have never felt differently about that.

She never texted. It's been two years. Should I just fucking text her? Or should I live with the consequences of my actions? Would it be good to text her or would it be bad?

I'm spiraling right now I miss her so much I hate this fucking life I just want to save her and for her to save me. Can it be done? Anons please help me. Tell me what to do because I've spent two years debating what to do and am getting nowhere fast. PLEASE

>>82158233
i miss this BPD chick i was friends with
really fun person to talk to. shame they're all the same and sabotage all of their friendships

>>82158233
Yeah just text her, what's the worst case scenario for you? She says no? That just puts you back where you are now. Best case she finds it romantic and you can get back together.

>>82158120
I've been "officially" diagnosed with all sorts of things and given medication for different things but none of it ever really worked, just made things worse in the long run, and accelerated my progression. Some made me agitable, some numb, others just made me dehydrated, sometimes I would hallucinate on them too.
In a way I can empathize with anyone on the schizo range because I've experienced nearly the full spectrum of its effects.
I don't like having to deal with BPDs. They are the opposite as you describe in my mind.

>>82158239
What should I say in the first text? Is "hey _it's _, I miss you" okay or is that bad?

>>82158312
I don't think it matters much, might be better to ask a question though like "how are you?" or something like that. Take this with a grain of salt though, I'm certainly not the best person to give advice here.

>>82158335
Well, I sent it. I said both I miss you and how are you.

I'm so fucking nervous but I can't take it anymore

>>82158351
Good job anon, I hope she messages back soon.

>>82158361
I'm just stuck on what ifs. what if she blocked me and never unblocked me? What if she stopped caring about me? What if she doesn't miss me at all? What if I missed my chance with the woman that was going to be my one and only wife? All because I was too scared to text her after she said let's stop for a while?

>>82158374
There's nothing you can do about the past. The best action you could have taken in the present was texting her to find out, and you did that. Everything else is just noise.

>>82158381
Thank you anon

I'm really sad and angry at myself. She didn't deserve to have to wait so long. She deserved more than that. I want to hold onto her and never let her go again.

But at this point that's just a fantasy. The wait for a reply is deadly but it serves me right for being completely silent for so fucking long. I can afford to have a little patience but I'm just so fucking upset.

>>82158433
These things happen all the time. It's so common for two people to just be in the wrong places at the wrong time and end up missing each other. It's not really your fault or her fault ultimately, it's just life. If you get another chance, do the best you can to make the situation better. All we can do is what we can do, right?

>>82157984
>Schizoids tend to do ok with BPD women. I usually like BPDs anyway.
Where are my schizo fembots who aren't dykes

>>82158447
I mean it technically is my fault because I didn't know enough at the time to know that everything was okay even if she was mad at me. I think I was dumb and or naive. If I could do it all over again I'd never let go of her like I did, even though on the inside my feelings did not change. I just didn't know what to do so I did nothing which to her (rightfully) looked like I didn't love her anymore.

>>82157966 (OP)
delete this now originally

>>82158149
Weird because i felt the exact same way just now and I didn't feel like responding to you. lol

I think maybe with an autistic woman in an internet relationship it would be okay. I don't see it ever working out in person.

>>82158714
i don't get it? originally