i am not a ticking timebomb
i am
not..

did you explode yet?

>>82168717 (OP)
Then why did you just tick three times

>>82168834
no. i will continue to destroy myself to lessen the blast radius of my inevitable pop.

>>82168848
itchy

>>82168861
Do you think self-destruction spares those around you from grief? From the damage your eventual detonation will cause?

>i'm so vague and pastel and mysterious teehee

>>82168891
yeeeeeeeeeeeees
i just need to bottle it up enough for everyone to run away first

>>82168898
*cuts ur head in half

what's wrong, adorable fembot?

>>82168902
you assume everyone will run away? do you have so little faith in those around you?

>>82168717 (OP)
Fuck you, I'm not getting close to you

>>82168920
well that's easy 'cause there's next to no one around anymore!

>>82168931
that's not true, and you know that

>>82168941
ah yes. after months of isolation, they'll magically return right before i go bang.

>>82168978
I can't convince you of something you simply don't believe in. There are people who will happily listen, sit with you in boiling water, if you'll give them the chance, instead of "destroying yourself" like you say.

>>82169001
if so, then why is my mailbox devoid of new items? what is there to believe in, then?

>>82168918
>implying
>>82169025
Maybe it's devoid of items because you don't allow people to be near you

it's nice to see you're still alive.

>>82169025
there's someone talking to you here though, no? But I guess that's not what you want.

>>82169033
maybe it's devoid of items because my connection to someone so close was severed? someone i let be near to me?

>>82169035
i-i get this a concerning amount lately...

>>82169037
you're right, i want some wan wan. is that so bad? to want something more than the faceless ephemerality as the years grind away?

>>82169062
>maybe it's devoid of items because my connection to someone so close was severed? someone i let be near to me?
Why was it severed?

>>82169067
i'll come back to you on this one when i'm capable of reading minds

>>82169062
>i-i get this a concerning amount lately...
i still think about the ichi go thing. and everyday, i disagree with it a bit more.

>>82169095
i really really despise being recognized!

>>82169092
>i'll come back to you on this one when i'm capable of reading minds
You don't have to read minds, you just have to read the situation. Did they get cold and then leave? Was it sudden? Did you stress them out? Are you difficult to be around? Speculate.

>>82169102
speculating is worthless you can only trust things right from the horses mouth. and horses can't speak! so you need to read minds.

>>82169112
>you can only trust things right from the horses mouth
Most people lie so you shouldn't trust anything from the proverbial horse. What did you like about this person?

>>82169101
you should not be ashamed of the person you are.

>>82169062
My answer to your previous question is that there are others to believe in. It is not wrong to want something more than anonymous voices reaching out from the void. But you don't want something more, you want back what you've lost. I'm trying to listen, help soothe your pain, only if you'll let us.

But I guess your answer will be, nothing can soothe your pain, no?

>>82169126
text box isn't big enough to answer this question. but in short they made me calm and made me smile.

>>82169130
no but i dislike existing in other people's minds a lot, it makes my head itchy, i want to bite my fingers down and claw out the itch

>>82169135
>they made me calm and made me smile
How did they do that?

>>82169134
very close! but there are two things that soothe the pain. the first is blunting my head with drinksdrinksdrinks. the second would be

well that one's obvious!

>>82169143
with a flick of their fingers

>>82169160
>with a flick of their fingers
Not quite fully in touch with reality, are we?

>>82169166
you underestimate the power of having your forehead flicked

>>82169178
Oh was this a real life thing and not some weirdo discord drama?

>>82169160
It's devastating to me, then, that not even this can soothe your pain, even just a bit. I wonder, what's the point of dragging in anons to listen and care, then?

>>82169188
you got it, anon..

>>82169194
i am a mentally ill mess and screaming into the void helps get it out of my head where it otherwise scrambles my peanut brain

>>82169135
>i dislike existing in other people's minds
sadly for you, some never forget others. just like you don't forget your person.

>>82169210
>you got it, anon..
Ok, so, how is it that the connection was severed? What did they say to you when they left?

>>82169210
You're screaming at a void that so happens to scream back. Is it truly the void then?