>psychotic breakdown again
>force myself to go to bed
>wake up
>everything feels better again

none of us will escape the terror of death. if you are not afraid, you are not informed.

>>82169141 (OP)
Sleeping doesn't make me feel better :(

>>82169141 (OP)
Mine was also pretty minor in comparison, and my recovery time was 1 day, which is why I say there's hope

>>82169155
I don't care for death, anon
I've experienced the death of friends, family, I read about death beyond the seas, beyond my walls
Death is just a part of Life, and Life is a part of Death

Take hospitals for example
Surgeries go wrong and you die, terminally ill folks die in bed, you dissect bodies for post-mortem
But
Babies are born too, folks are re-born through a life-saving surgery, those who couldn't walk can now walk with the help of physiotherapy/prosthesis

It's all cyclical

>>82169174
I'd rather go full mental or not have them at all
Having these sort of spasms, being on the edge of sanity/insanity fucking hurts

>>82169200
This is the childlike cope to which I referred. You have not exited a child's immature understanding of death, so you do not fear it.

>>82169261
We can talk the talk all we want, anon
Unless it happens IRL and we prove ourselves in the face of death, nothing else matters
>cope
I literally went down their graves and buried my grandad and my dad
I have literal stains of graveyard dirt on one of my pants

>>82169291
same i have their dirt on my pants your dad your grandpa

>>82169141 (OP)
hey i just woke up from some kind of episode too, feeling refreshed. restraining yourself is like a rewarding workout.

>>82169306
I don't remember donating those pants to some brown third-world shithole?
Can you send them back, anon?
I'll pay you in Google Play giftcards

>>82169321
oh you're so angry now lol you know they were terrified as they felt their organs fail and death steal away their breath. gonna have another psychotic breakdown

>oh you're so angry now lol you know they were terrified as they felt their organs fail and death steal away their breath. gonna have another psychotic breakdown
is it still summer over in India?

Very good anon, that's a good action to take. Things really always do seem worse at night