Thread 82169436

>grandma dies
nothing
>childhood best friend gets run over by car when I am only 8
nothing
>boyfriend breaks up with me BECAUSE im like this
still nothing

what is it? I've googled it, I've had people look at me, it's not sociopathy because that's a lack of empathy, I lack all emotions, I've gotten good at pretending to care, be happy, be sad, but my first boyfriend could tell something was when we hadn't even been together for 2 months yet, I just don't get it

>>82169436 (OP)
It could be sociopathy, it could be other things. Youd have to ask a licensed professional. You share at least one thing in common with normal women: attention whoring

>>82169446
I've spoken to many licensed professionals, so so many.

it's autism, or sociopathy, psychopathy, whatever, it's not always the same thing they say

>>82169455
Maybe it is sociopathy/psychopathy/ASPD/whateverthefuck. Ive heard they dont feel much emotions in general on top of lacking empathy. Its a really interesting disorder imo

>>82169463
searching up a lack of all emotions doesn't really bring up results that I'm unfamiliar with too

>>82169479
Maybe you can check with other people who have it to see if you relate with them?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FTWNnmymMc4
Can you describe your situation a bit more?

>>82169436 (OP)
you're tired.
tired of Man
tired of his fabrications
tired of reality
hard to blame you when i am suffering from the same thing
i am
so
so
tired

>>82169493
well what exactly do you even want to know?

things taste good
things feel good

but past that I never get excited to do something, I don't dread doing something, I will work for hours on end and it's easy to do so

>>82169529
I kinda wanna know everything. I wish I could compare my experiences 1:1 to get a feel for what life like that is like. If nothing excites you or motivates you, why do you do things? why dont you commit crimes if you dont dread the consequences? do you even desire things? do you seek relationships, and if yes, why?

>>82169436 (OP)
You're just a femme fatale, it's okay.
H0HAPY (OP is a ho and is happy)

>>82169545
I've got a sense of right of wrong, I know what is wrong, I certainly don't see the point in ending somebody's life, since THEY can feel things

the closest feeling to desire I get is hunger or arousal, I do not feel a need for socializing either

>>82169565
Well I dont know. I cant diagnose you. But the majority opinion from what you say the psychologists say is that you are basically ASPD.

>>82169607
heard it before, not your fault though

>>82169436 (OP)
you can get a pretty accurate diagnosis if you tell your anecdotes to lilke chat gpt or deepseek and then ask it to tell you if you're a sociopath or something like that.

>>82169630
Yep, good luck
Also, send tits

>>82169643
it brought up a few things I hadn't heard before, however the symptoms did not match me, some included not being able to feel hunger, or temporary medicinal side effects

>>82169653
https://files.catbox.moe/wmn49r.jpg

>>82169675
Those are petty big, and did you self-harm your leg?

>>82169684
>did you self-harm your leg?
No, that's pointless, I do feel pain

>>82169675
>https://files.catbox.moe/wmn49r.jpg
Wtf you actually did it
Youre pretty cool femanon, ur bf was a retard

Passionate sex with OP

>>82169699
I don't blame him, he figured out I was faking my emotions and that's why he broke up with me

>>82169710
Howd he figure out? Honestly, if you cared enough to fake them, thats worth something.

>>82169716
using the wrong emotions
laughed at what I thought were meant to be jokes
and just generally spending time with me, he figured it out

>>82169731
I see. I guess you can only keep up the mask for so long. Sorry.

>>82169766
I do not feel lonely or sad that he broke up with me, he'll probably be happier with somebody else

>>82169675
holy fucking shit you're hot, your boyfriend is actually one of the stupidest people on this planet

>>82169772
Drop a discord and/or telegram account, you're really interesting to me

I don't really have much to add besides that I find people like this very interesting

Why would you want a boyfriend or significant other in the first place if not for emotional connection and support of one another?
Just because it's what's expected to look "normal"?

Why do you care about looking normal if that is the case

I find this alot with people who claim to be emotionless or have no feelings
they tend to still care about a lot of stuff just not the most expected most common things

Obviously it's impossible to argue with the fact that you didn't care about the people close to you dying, and that must stand for something

But obviously you do care about some things on some level to bother living a life at all or bothering to present in any certain ways or bother faking any emotions or etc in the first place

Again I have nothing to really add to "help" you but I find your situation interesting

Also a side note but im sure you can understand why a boyfriend or significant other would be "put off" by your uncaringness towards close family members
It implies that if he was ever in a harmful position, emotionally or physically wounded, etc, you just wouldn't care
And if you don't actually have any emotional ties or value towards him then in any "tough" or "rough" situation it would be implied you'd just replace him as there would be absolutely no reason for you not to

>>82169812
kanaotsuyuri0230_49806
>>82169818
I grew up knowing I wasn't normal, I ended up pretending to be normal, it's a habit that I simply don't drop
I did willingly enter a relationship however as if there was somebody close to me like that I felt as though it might've given me somebody I cared about, however seeing as I didn't feel anything when he did break up with me, I didn't bother finding another boyfriend

>>82169812
>>82169861
in case you hadn't noticed, which seems to be the case, what I posted was a discord username

>>82169922
>>82169861
Im sorry femanon, discord is giving me a lot of problems right now. Im trying to resolve them. If you have a telgram account you can msg me at @scznbt
As soon as I resolve this bs ill message you, sorry for the inconvenience

>>82169861
Did you have sex with your boyfriend? Were you in love with him?

>>82170001
Yes, we did have sex, it felt good, but it stopped there for me, he however felt as though he was one with me, and was very affectionate during sex, I did not shy away from kisses or holding hands during sex though

I can't say what love would feel like for me, but I am positive I never felt any towards him

>>82169436 (OP)
It's called apathy.

>>82170035
apathy is a general lack of empathy and being indifferent, and reduced emotions, whatever is with me clearly is part apathy, but it is not the sole problem

Thanks for answering my questions femanon, have a good one

>>82169436 (OP)
it is called 'don't vent your useless life experiences in here', hope it helps

>>82170139
what possibly could make you think I was venting?

I have the same thing when it comes to death, I just don't care. In fact when my dad died, I didn't cry or feel anything. Same with grandma, same with my cat recently. I just don't attach to things. I thought I was alexithymic, but no I can identify feelings fine. Not autistic or have any personality disorder, but am diagnosed schizoaffective. Haven't had any episode for years and am working. It's ok to not care about things, infact all these busybodies running around caring about each other's business is a fate much worse than ours.

I'm the same way, had some family and some close friends die (tragically in one case) and felt no sadness. Some things just don't feel as close as others, some things you just don't care about as much. The worse thing would be to be an emotional wreck about every little thing, your ex is retarded, having a less emotionally controlled woman would be a blessing.

sounds like clinical anhedonia and apathy. I had something like this too because of abusive family. Mine got better when I removed shit people from my life and I found people I genuinely enjoyed being around. Finally being able to talk to people genuinely made me realize just how much I was masking 24/7 and carrying my family emotionally.

>>82170687
I'll say it again, I don't blame him

why would you want to marry a woman who doesn't love you?

>>82169436 (OP)
Are we going to find out around the end of this thread that you went through very dramatic situation as a kid and that forced you shut down all fellings and the only things that makes you feel good is killing something also have you tried to do a brain scan maybe you got some wires lose

>>82170733
I had a very peaceful childhood except for my best friend's head being crushed under a truck's wheel, but I didn't feel anything before then

>>82169436 (OP)
You're not gonna get good answer by pretending to be a girl, anon. The psychopathic homosexual is completely different from the cold, unfeeling woman. You should read up about people like Dahmer.
And in your defense you've done a good job not actually lying about being a woman, and just letting people make incorrect assumptions.

>>82170794
You misunderstand.

I am a woman, I even posted my body earlier.

>>82169455
if professionals cant diagnose you with anything what makes you think r9k will? also posting your ugly tits in a thread asking for useless input on your personal issues, kek why are women like this

>>82170827
Because I'm asking for insights that I might not have heard before, and I have read a few new thoughts

this is a post with text

>>82169675
10/10 tits

if you don't feel emotions do you not masturbate?

>>82171090
I feel physical pleasure, so I do masturbate.

youre hot and scary desu

>>82171134
hot and scary? elaborate.

>>82169861
don't add her

she isn't interested in anybody who adds her

>>82169675
Holy fuck my cock rose

>>82169675
>https://files.catbox.moe/wmn49r.jpg
Grok is this real

>>82169675
And the bush ughhhh

>>82171181
>hot
well obviously physically the hips, hair and booba are peak fertility

>scary
I can't relate to you at all you feel very Other which is both fascinating/attractive and a bit nerve racking/spooky

>>82171188
Goddamn you are fucking stupid

>>82170744
It is possible that you have a trama from a age you don't remember and I don't believe you are a psychopath or autistic both of them can show pretty strong emotions but in certain cases but non in others i still believe you have the chemicals for emotions and the receptors but something is not moving in between i highly recommend a brain scan if you have not done that or try getting medicine to makes you feel a specific whay for example i take Ritalin and it makes me happy angry depressed horny all day maybe that will brute force to the solution also I appreciate the tits i don't remember the last time I Saw One here and you are right you can't blame your boyfriend but if it was me I would try at least to help before breaking up

>>82170827
Kys jealous bitch you are either a fuking faggot or a actual woman who is too much of a pussy to Post tits

>>82171361
kek ive posted my tits before they arent ugly. sorry, not insecure nor a femcel nor a pussy idc that much

>>82171354
No I have had a peaceful childhood

Maybe it's schizoid personality disorder. I am similar, didn't feel anything much when my uncle and my grandma died. But I do feel emotions.

>>82169436 (OP)
Does anything make you feel? What caused the strongest emotion you have felt before? What is it that you want in life right now?