Ever since I started to act more like others (in a more impulsive and sociopathic way. chasing carnal desires) I have become more successful in almost all aspects of life. Especially in receiving female attention. Is this really the best mode of being for a man? It's kinda depressing. It's unnatural for me too I can maybe keep this up for a couple weeks before I feel too alienated from myself. But it's just that everytime I feel slightly manic and have these "happy phases" where I don't give a fuck about others life seems to favor me. I don't like it.

there's a reason why sociopathic behavior is so popular. i've also been doing better once I stopped caring about others and began focusing on myself at others' expense.