Sometimes I peep at other people's phones on the subway to see what music they're listening to, so I can get an idea of how they're feeling at the moment, even though I know we don't always listen to music depending on our mood. People usually think I'm being rude, and I understand that. Sometimes they get angry or feel uncomfortable and look at me directly in my eye, or they are simply too tired to notice.

>>82174072 (OP)
>going outside
Go back to Myspace normie

>>82174072 (OP)
I just listened to alice in chains them bones

>>82174087
I have to go out as exposure therapy

>>82174088
you're cool

>>82174126
>I have to go out as exposure therapy
>trying to better yourself
Anon seriously, I'm not sure this is the best place for you. This is the misery pit.

>>82174150
I like talking to anons, I like reading all the different perspectives on life, even though this place can be really rude and most of the time is just porn

what would you do if you saw the guy sitting next to you browsing the chans

>>82174072 (OP)
It's been years since I've been on any sort of public transport
College was way *way* back

>>82174217
I would be quite surprised if he did that in public.

>>82174284
I'm doing that right now while waiting in a lobby

>>82174310
oh
aren't you afraid of the amount of porn?

>>82174072 (OP)
i can tell you're a female b/c you're interested in such trivialities in other people's lives.

>>82175066
I guess I like being alive

>>82175136
do you not feel alive if you don't learn gossip?

>>82175145
Well, I didn't consider this to be gossip. I just like to have connections with others. I don't try to talk about them or talk to them. Its just like mute interactions that will stay in my head.
I dont look at messages or stuff like that

>>82175182
and without these connections and mute interactions, do you not feel alive?
i'm still trying to figure out how >>82175136 makes sense as a reply to me

>>82175242
Yes. I tend to be an extremely shy person and that has cost me in not being able to establish relationships, however, I would really like to connect more with people.

>>82175284
ok. i think i understand your perspective now.

tfw no mute gf that just stares at me with neutral expression

>>82174072 (OP)
Why are you larping as a female?

>>82175874
Im not larping just sharing my thoughts. I used to do it a lot on /i/

>>82174072 (OP)
A guy peeped at my penis while I was using a urinal once. I glared at him and he winked at me.

>>82176227
I think that was a compliment, good for your penis!

>>82176248
It's small though I don't think it was a compliment I think he was just weird. I have like too much foreskin too. No way it was a compliment.

>>82176264
Is having a lot of foreskin bad?
Or is it just aesthetics? The whole size thing is also aesthetics, at least I think so. stimulation of woman is in the clitoris, not in the vaginal canal.
I have never understood this obsession with size. Maybe it's just more wild, animalistic thinking; a large penis is visually imposing, just like those animals that try to stand up on two legs to grow in size and look more intimidating.
The most important thing should be that your penis is healthy; that it gives you pleasure, that it works for pee and -if you wish- that you are able to reproduce.

>>82176454
>Is having a lot of foreskin bad?
It looks silly. I could probably fit two marbles in there. I know size is mostly aesthetics but people like to look good. It's about average when erect, but when soft it's small and has a bunch of extra foreskin which is just visually silly. It doesn't matter too much, I'm a wizard and lack any desire to change that. It doesn't bother me anyway, I just don't think anyone would compliment my soft penis is all.

>>82176488
Well soft is a good word. I like soft things.
I have always found the shape of penises very curious. They are always going to look sillys. If you take all eroticism out of sex, it's a funny and interesting act. It's impossible not to look silly. It's like if you see two monkeys having sex at the zoo, you point and laugh.
Good thing you don't mind, anyway. Just focus on being healthy.

>>82176636
It's very soft when not erect and the foreskin is even softer.
I find penises to be somewhat gross looking, even my own. I agree about sex being funny and interesting. I oscillate between having a sex drive and not having one, when I don't have one anything sexual just seems absurdist.
Yes, I mostly just focus on being healthy and enjoying myself.

>>82174072 (OP)
Sometimes I do that too and it always pisses me off cause it's literally without fail every time just trite black people music

>>82176673
Yeah me too.
Thats great anon :) youre nice. Keep healthy then!

>>82177057
You're nice too anon. Are you staying healthy as well? I hope everything is going well for you.

>>82177071
Well, not so much. But I am healthier than before. I used to be quite depressed and my hygiene was awful. I'm picking that up again. Although lately every time I get stressed I drink. I know it's wrong

>>82174072 (OP)
Did you draw that image?

>>82177141
I'm not really the epitome of healthy either to be honest, but compared to the past I'm doing very well. I used to be a lot worse with the depression, hygiene, and drinking too actually. I don't drink anymore but I used to really drink a lot. Is anything in particular stressing you out? For me it was always kind of vague, just being alive is stressful I suppose.

>>82177179
Yep!
>>82177185
Well, my job. But I can't change it. I'm also stressed by the thought of the expectations my family may have of me. Sometimes I just want to save up and escape as far away as possible, where no one knows me. I know its kinda corny and dumb but I dont care about doing a lot of money I just wanna be happy doing art and learning stuff

>>82177247
It's a very nice drawing! Wish you were my friend so you could draw me.

>>82177247
When I worked I was always very miserable. Is your family hard on you? I don't know your situation but I think a lot of people make the expectations a lot more extreme in their head than they are in reality. I get fantasies of leaving a lot too. I don't think it's corny it's just escapism. There's an allure to being somewhere where no one knows you. I think I would be happiest like that, just reading or watching movies all day. If I were rich I don't think my life would really be much different in that regard.

>>82177285
:D wow thank you! Its just a doodle! I do draw more complex stuff I promise

>>82177298
Oh my family is very kind you know, they expect the best from me because they want the best for me. I know that I am too hard on myself sometimes but I don't fit in with their expectations at all.
Sometimes I think about how my life would be solved if I were rich, but at the same time, I wouldn't be who I am, I wouldn't be what I love and what I do, because all of that influences your identity.
Anon, do you have a dream?

>>82177409
Good that your family is kind. It can be hard to balance trying to live up to expectations and also being yourself. I don't know if I have anything that could really be called a dream. I'd like to just have a small space for myself, all I really need is a place to sleep and a place to cook. I'm fairly simple I think. As long as I can mess around on the internet, cook, exercise, and watch movies I could be happy anywhere. Sometimes I think I'd want a partner, but I don't know if I'm capable of it. Being a normal member of society never really appealed to me I guess, I've always been kind of odd. What about you?

>>82177409
Peoples ability to draw well sometimes show the best in just doodles. It's really nice!

>>82174072 (OP)
I will back soon. Dont let this die please. Im drinking. Wait fornme.

>>82178542
Don't drink too much OP. You don't drink at the computer?

>hours have passed and OP has not returned
>we are forced to conclude the worst
RIP in peace

>>82179243
No im fine im just drunk
Hello hi im still alive like that funny song.
How everyones doing? I work tomorrow!

>>82179557
Welcome back I hope your drunkenness is very pleasant. What kind of work do you do anon?

>>82174072 (OP)
You should try to look down girls shirts to see their nipple. Its easy when they are sitting down, especially if they dont have massive boobs because most women are kinda poor and dont have bras that fit, so you can see their cute tits

>>82179573
Hospital! Im really drunk rn! I should be sleeping! lol
>>82179600
Even if I find breasts very attractive, I don't usually look at them. I love big breasts anyway. There are women who actually manage to have really big breasts, it amazes me! Mine are small, although I understand that pregnancy makes them bigger, I'm hopeful!

>>82179711
>Hospital!
That's neat. Are you on the medical side, admin, or something else? Don't stay up too late, working while tired is miserable.

>>82179736
Medical! Kind of.
Thank you for your concern. I know it's hard to work like this, but I really needed to relax, you know? That lifestyle can cause you to explodeeee!

cute thread, cute drawing :>

>>82179711
You should just lay on the train tracks and get a double kill on the scoreboard

>>82179766
Medical is cool. Do you enjoy it? I know earlier you said it stressed you out. And yeah I know what you mean, I crumple at the slightest pressure, I can't imagine working in a hospital it must be a lot to deal with.

>>82179769
Thank you :D!

>>82179772
I will not kill myself soon! But someday!

>>82179781
People can be really mean! And Im shy so I have a lot of troubles talking to people. I dont enjoy it at all. I wish I could have another job.

>>82179801
>People can be really mean!
Yes that's very true. You seem fine talking here, I know it's different on an anonymous forum but all the same. Why can't you have another job?

>>82179801
Why not, you arent pretty. Youll be riding a hitachi wand. Just drink a lot of bleach and cut your wrists. They cant bring you back from that.

>>82179817
It's hard to have a job, I had a hard time getting the one I have now!!! Id like to work on internet. I should have studied something like programming, but I'm really bad at it! I don't understand much about technology, I have the soul of an old woman lol

>>82179830
Oh I know I'm not pretty! I've always known that. But I want to experience more, I want to listen to music, watch movies and read more books. I still don't have enough. But someday I will, I promise anon!

>>82179832
I studied programming and can't find a job at all so you didn't miss out there. Jobs are very hard to get in general right now though. Or at least that's what I tell myself as I continue to be NEET. Are there any online type things your skillset can do? I seem to remember seeing a lot of medical coding jobs that were work from home. I almost applied but they wanted certs that I didn't have.

>>82179841
Do it soon. Nobody wants to see you. If guys dont approach you for sex then you arent ever going to be loved.

>>82179852
You know at this point I'm resigned to drawing furrys lmao they pay well! Working in the medical field is a waste of your time. I mean, if that's your vocation you're going to love it, if you do it for the money, better choose something else!
I think I just want to work in something like a coffee shop and that's it. I don't want to use my brain. I just want stability so I can try to have a second life as an artist.
I'm getting sleepy, anon... aren't you sleepy?
Oh, I used to be a neet, I was one for... two years? Something like that

>>82179861
I dont want sex! And if Im horny I can masturbate. Thank you anon!

>>82179887
All the girls around you have lots of big penises in their mouth and bum. You dont get to do that stuff because no guy wants to settle with an ugly whore.

>>82179887
If you can make money drawing then go for it, got to be better than dragging yourself to work. A coffee shop could be comfy if it's not too busy I think. I mostly just don't want a job where I have to interact with people. I used to work retail and I'm just done with it.
I am sleepy it's very late here.
For what it's worth, you're quite nice. I disagree with the other anon. Stick around, not enough nice people in the world.

>>82179900
Dude youre talking to a really gross looking fembot. Shes like a 2 out of 10. Calm down, you would never even look at her at the mart.

>>82179909
Are you having a bad day or is this normal for you?

>>82179921
Ugly girls are offensive no matter how bad my day was. They look like rad ghouls and we should be burning them.

>>82179900
I have had to work in customer service and it is hell. I don't know how to treat people. I wish for something completely far from them!
Ah, we should sleep then.
Don't worry about the other anon. I know this place. I know there are a lot of anons who use it as an emotional dumping ground and take it out on whoever they can! I still think it's funny. They get creative with their insults, Iol!

>>82179935
Very very far from them. People are just exhausting.
Yes I suppose so. Good luck at work tomorrow anon, I hope you have a good day. It was nice talking to you. Maybe we'll run into each other again.
And yeah, I guess so but all the same.

>>82179935
Sleeping wont get you a cool boyfriend. Just wear spandex pants to show off your fat flabby ass, jfl its over for you. You probably cant even wipe your ass easily because you are bearing a wide load.

>>82179957
Lol that was like the worst post ive ever read. You think you have an internet pal. Hopefully your life gets better dude this is depressing to watch. Like I genuinely feel so bad that you are alive and experiencing this type of pain and torment.

>>82180004
You remember that greentext where the guy does the helium exit bag and his dad comes in before it ends him and he takes off the mask and says "you'll never understand my pain" in the squeaky voice? It's funny if you hunt it down and read it I can't do it justice.

>>82180010
Im not reading that ghoul. Dont ever fucking reply to me again you piece of dirt

>>82180017
*replies to you*
teehee

>>8218002
Can this incel just hurry up and do a mass shooting

>>8218004
I'm fairly happy and enjoy my life but thank you for worrying about me

>>82180053
Thats very brave to walk this road alone. Taking the solo path to heaven. I wish you well on your journey through celibacy. Its cool that you dont need a partner, I find it very empowering to watch you go to work and come home every day, for the next 55 years.

>>82180071
I'm a NEET anon did you not read my posts?

>>82180081
How are you going to get a wife and a house? You have to work if you want a woman.

>>82180103
I don't particularly want a wife. I'm generally happier alone. I mean, never say never, but it's not a major drive for me.

>>82180115
Damn, how big is your penis? Can you post a picture of it next to a normal guys penis? Im assuming its under 6 inches. All the small dicked guys talk about how they dont need a wife, but suddenly change their words halfway through to well maybe if one actually wanted me.

>>82180125
Oh it's not a matter of one wanting me. I have been wanted before but relationships feel like sinking into tar to me. I can't handle that trapped feeling at all. It's something I need to work on really, it gets in the way of things like employment.

>>82180139
Just admit you have a tiny cock. Everything youre saying comes from small dick energy.

>>82180152
If it makes you happy anon then I have the smallest cock on earth. It's practically a vagina in fact.

>>82180158
Yeah dude, im sorry about that. If your penis is under 6 inches, it actually makes you more beta as a person. Your entire personality is of a beta male. Everyone can tell when you speak, you actually sound gay almost.