>be me, almost 30
>since 11, basically living in isolation
>endless internet scrolling, video games, porn, drugs, booze
>once OD'd shooting up heroin while drunk, almost died
>ICU for 3 days, rescued last minute
>suicide thoughts nonstop, self-hate and self-harm daily
>nightmares, breakdowns, can't sleep at night, zombie during the day
>never learned any skills
>been seeing therapists for years
>diagnosed with depression, panic disorder, social anxiety, ADHD, schizoid, bpd, autism, c-ptsd
>on psych meds most of life
>alcoholic dad neglected and abused me
>childhood friends bullied and beat me
>bullied by classmates, teachers humiliated me
>skipped school, barely finished with shit grades
>junk food addict, never exercised
>skinny-fat, gynecomastia, puffy nipples, feminine body shape
>acne face, arms and legs covered in self-harm scars
>never slept well, hygiene and cleaning a joke
>never learned to drive, never socialized
>panic attacks around people, avoid eye contact and touch
>no friends, no girlfriend, no romance
>never been kissed, hugged, touched, or had sex
>no studies, no job, no car, no money, >no place of my own
>still live with parents
>literally just rotting
>starting to realize I wasted my entire life
>regret hits like a freight train

>>82179262 (OP)
Stop taking drugs. They aren't helping. Go outside and take walks. Get a hobby that doesn't involve hurting yourself. Hopefully, you can enjoy the rest of your stay. It won't last that much longer, so make the most of it.

>>82179262 (OP)
That's really rough. I hope you can fix things.

>>82179262 (OP)
Stop wojakposting. I don't want to look at it.

honestly at that point just hedonistmaxx and do whatever it is you enjoy for the rest of your life. no point in being a contributing member of a society that has utterly failed you and rejected you

this could be you five years from now
>be me, mid-30s
>still remember my rough past, but it doesn't own me anymore
>started with tiny habits: 5 min walks, daily showers, one healthy meal swap
>lost the junk food addiction, still treat myself sometimes without guilt
>finally got acne under control, scars still there but okay with them
>quit hard drugs, drink rarely, no more near-death moments
>sleep schedule isn't perfect, but I can actually function during the day now
>learned to cook a handful of meals I actually like
>taught myself basic tech skills, enough to land a part-time remote job
>first paychecks felt unreal, bought my own laptop, paid some bills
>saved up and finally got a license, now drive myself places
>moved into a small rented room
>still anxious socially, but can hold conversations with cashiers and coworkers now
>made one close friend through a hobby group, we hang out every couple weeks
>joined an online community where I feel like I belong
>haven't dated yet, but no longer feel unworthy of trying
>therapy shifted from just survival to learning new coping tools
>still have bad days, but now I have ways to ride them out without self-harm
>body is stronger, I can jog without getting winded
>self-respect growing from actually doing things I said I'd do
>past regrets still whisper, but they no longer scream
>for the first time ever, I'm curious about the future instead of fearing it

>>82179451
did you start with therapy? not op but im in a computer addiction loop. just played 12 hours of tekken today.

>>82179792
Throw your router out the window

>>82179803
other people use it but i could cut my ethernet cable. i do have a laptop though but maybe it's less addictive than my desktop. i would still need something to study with. if i cut my cable i could end up buying another one shortly after.

>>82179821
Laptop is not less addictive, you just start doing less processor intensive stuff, trust me ive tried. Change your password on steam, write it down and delete steam. Just make it difficult to access the games

>>82179451
>>haven't dated yet
5 years later and still a virgin? damn

>>82179451
wow yeah super inspirational and all but you definitely used chatGPT to write this (clockable sentence structure)

>>82179451
based anti doomer

>>82180560
How? Can you explain it in a simple way?

>>82179262 (OP)
This choom is going cyberpsychosis. Maybe tske off that chrome?

>>82179792
Hey, wanna play Tekken?