heart and mind is hurting but taking it easy either way. how are you all?

>>82179437 (OP)
Digits or 69s and you commit sudoku.

>>82179437 (OP)
Why are you in such pain anooni?

>>82179500
Because I got rejected again.

By the way, I'm Chickn.

>>82179504
You sure have a tumultuous life Chickn

>>82179495
all three
>>82179500
I spilled my heart on many things and was called unhinged. I wished them a goodnight and they asked to not speak again. I thought I was getting better, instead it seems I fell backwards. I know who I am, yet I let others dictate who they think I am.

>>82179504
oh? sorry chickn, im the OP. whatever you are doing, still creepy.
>>82179510
they're always a bit all over

>>82179437 (OP)
Everything can be perfect in every way but a single thing missing can override the rest. A 'happiness' only she can provide, but it's more than a provision or something that could be replicated in some other way. It's her. Who she is.

So when I'm asked how I am, I find it very difficult to answer. Do I talk about all the good without acknowledgment of that space that I physically see and internally feel where she is missing that hurts?

I dislike dishonesty. I prefer not to be dishonest and say something like I'm fine. It'd be nice to not have to think or talk about this ever again and just live in the good. Once she is home things will change and I can just have fun. I look forward to that

>>82179519
thanks for sharing. I know you're a bit of a lolcow on here, but at least you gave me a distraction