Stop ever believing you'll ever have sex. Never try. Never do anything to "improve" yourself. Keep not having a job and doing nothing forever. p-please

>>82182297 (OP)
feels like a trap anon

Demoralization/rumination is basically the voice of the devil in your ear, yeah. It's disturbing how many people out there that are malicious and will try to tear you down if they sense the slightest sign of weakness. They feed on your pain and suffering. They're empty shells, inhuman.

>>82182297 (OP)
Why should I "self-improve"?
because no one will love me the way I am unless I spend years doing shit I don't care about in an effort to seem interesting?
In that case other people can fuck off, I've been brutally taught by life plenty of times to not bust my ass for people that couldn't care less about me.
Besides, I've been bullied, excluded and ostracized ever since I started going to school, and the adults that were supposed to help me did fuck all or blamed the bullying on me.
what do I owe society exactly? do I owe them work and contribution for making my developing years hell? for making me have suicidal thoughts at 11? for making me resort to substance abuse because not a single fucking human being is capable of loving me?
hahahahaha fuck off, I'll keep doing as I please, I pride myself on being dead weight on society.

>>82182297 (OP)
I wasn't planning on any of that. You stole my idea, satan.