I've been talking to a man on discord. He appears in almost every single one of my dreams. I'm afraid I'm starting to fall for him, simply because I see him so often at night. By day, he's weird but kind to me, and despite not talking much, I'm very unused to kindness, so it leaves an impact on me. I wonder if he ever sees me, too

Dreaming while in isolation is strange. I never give my brain new material to work for with, so every little change in my routine changes my dreams drastically. is any other hiki like this?

>>82196665 (OP)
Are you gonna get married with him?

>>82196698
Probably not, but it'd be nice to dream about it tonight

>>82196665 (OP)
I'm hikki for 15 years. My dreams are always varied. Always nightmares. Horrible things, being chased, murdered, raped, tortured. The worst ones I don't know in the dream that it's a dream. They're usually banal until something malevolent shows up and they always end just before it does anything. So much worse to see a head turn and a gaze fix than to be torn apart by unseen adversaries.

>>82196735
>The worst ones I don't know in the dream that it's a dream.
My worst nightmares have been the ones where I knew I was dreaming but I couldn't wake up. In one dream I thought I had woken up, but I was still dreaming. It leaves a sour feeling of hopelessness afterwards
How come yours are always nightmares? Do you have a stressful life?

>>82196766
I've had nightmares for as long as I can remember. My early childhood was traumatic in the most boring possible way and I think it led to my brain just being stupid about things. My life isn't generally stressful. I'm hikki neet and need to get a job which is probably stressing me somewhat, but even when I didn't need a job I was still getting nightmares. 30+ years of nightmares have really desensitized me to it all though. I only get really affected by a few of them, probably less than 10 a year.

>>82196725
>Probably not
Why not?

>>82196665 (OP)
No girl will ever dream about me :'(

>>82196735
i've only been a NEET for about 4 months 14 years ago, but i have very similar experience with dreams since i was 18. i'm now 33. well, never raped, but chased, murdered, tortured, et al very commonly. highly unfortunate, and i've gone through precious little trauma.

get so fucking jealous of people that dream detailed narrative good-dreams. all i get is garbled fucking torture and murder! wtf is this shit!

>>82196802
I guess you must not enjoy sleeping as much as I do. It's a shame your breaks from consciousness got muddled like that
>>82197067
We barely know each other, and I don't think he likes me that much. I'm ugly and weird
>>82197078
Maybe a girl is dreaming about you right now

>>82197093
You should honestly try medication, it can help

>>82197093
I'd love to have a good dream every now and then. For a long time I didn't even know what I was having were nightmares, I thought that was just how dreams were. I don't know, maybe it's not the trauma and instead just some weird quirk of the brain that does it. Do you have a lot of anxiety? I used to have an anxiety disorder so my next guess would be that predisposing me towards nightmares.

>>82197105
>I guess you must not enjoy sleeping as much as I do. It's a shame your breaks from consciousness got muddled like that
Oh no, I love sleeping. I'm very used to nightmares, they don't even feel that bad for the most part. I watch a lot of horror movies so I just kind of contextualize the nightmares as being movies.

I guess that type of thing has been going around, it is similar to my current circumstance. I did not expect something like this in my life.

>>82197132
That's strange, but I'm glad it works out for you. I think I'd be afraid of going to sleep
>>82197141
What's your current circumstance, anon?

>>82196665 (OP)
>is any other hiki like this?
Used to have dreams or late night thoughts about girls I had a crush on and/or were nice/friendly/kind to me, even once. I got over it as I grew up and as the isolation took hold and numbed me to lonliness. It gets better with time. Now I haven't had those feelings anymore even when a girl is extra nice to me (in texts).

>>82197217
Just talking to a girl on discord has basically consumed all my thoughts. It has been intense and there are some other extenuating factors. I read posts on here and wonder if it's her, which it isn't unless you have changed details of the story.

>>82197267
Life is duller without those kinds of feelings
>>82197289
It's probably not me, but that's really sweet. What do you like about her?

>>82197354
>Life is duller without those kinds of feelings
Life is less painful without those feeling and illusions, too.