I hurt my left wrist and it hurts a lot but I enjoy the pain, why am I like this why do I enjoy pain so much?

>>82199211 (OP)
Once I cut myself from shaving and was sort of attracted to the harsh pain I felt from it.

>>82199423
oh yeah sometimes I cut myself on purpose and man the pain is so good but it's kind of a pain in the ass to deal with all the blood, at least the pain lasts for like a week or two