Anxiety LIFE - /r9k/ (#82201331) [Archived: 115 hours ago]

Anonymous
8/16/2025, 2:27:26 PM No.82201331
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The only thing I enjoy in life is being alone at home or in the woods, coding. I want it to be dead silent and a bit cold. Everything else gives me anxiety, it's very hard to explain this, so I'll just walk you through how I experience my normal day.

>wake up in the morning, there's construction work nearby and the vibration irritates you
>some muffled speaking coming from next door apartment, pisses you off
>go to computer, put music on so you can regain control of your home
>you're forced to see Youtube recommendations that are some feminist bullshit, get angry again
>go outside, it's too hot and humid again
>oh fuck today's the Pride parade, avoid it like the plague, it gives you massive anxiety to realize there's an army of degenerates taking control of the town, showing their dicks to kids and turning women lesbians so you'd stay incel
>too much noise, too many people, too many colors everywhere, feeling overwhelmed
>go to the store, the line is too long, not enough cashiers, people standing too close to you, feel like pushing them
>some sick normie is coughing without a mask on, fucking irresponsible asshole forcing me to get sick
>you see a group of 12-year-old kids, one of the girls is wearing nothing but a literal bra and a miniskirt. they dress their kids like prostitutes and nobody says anything. your sense of reality collapses
>rush back home as fast as physically possible
>put headphones on and BLAST cyberpunk 2077 ost for hours while coding to calm down
>repeat next day

This may sound like some kind of joke to you but from my perspective I suffer like Guts just by existing and going out.
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Anonymous
8/16/2025, 2:29:53 PM No.82201350
I wish reality had some kind of saturation knob that I could turn down from 11 to maybe 2-3
Anonymous
8/16/2025, 2:30:54 PM No.82201360
>make thread on 4chan
>leave your thread immediately because you're scared of the responses
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Anonymous
8/16/2025, 3:22:28 PM No.82201694
>>82201360
i feel like i get your experience but i don't know if i have a name for it
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Anonymous
8/16/2025, 4:06:52 PM No.82201955
>>82201694
I dunno man I have two theorys
>total loss of resilience for stress
>sensory hypersensitivity
Anonymous
8/16/2025, 4:12:40 PM No.82201995
>>82201331 (OP)
Anxiety about having anxiety is holding you back from actually getting used to any non sterile environment
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Anonymous
8/16/2025, 4:13:42 PM No.82202009
>>82201995
Could b, but I dont see how I'll ever become a normie who will enjoy basking in noise, filth, bacteria, alcohol, fags, dog shit etc.