Im a disappointment to my parents and am nearing 30 without any long term relationship history
I have no one to blame but myself but it hurts so much
Ive wasted my youth and am fortunate enough that I wont be on the streets but I will be a mediocre man living a mediocre life till the day I die and thats the most sobering thought Ive experienced in a long time

Im not good Im not bad Im just alive and will live and die without accomplishing anything of meaning and the world will simply move on
Do not waste your life as I have anons
Push yourself while you still have time