>Be me
>Randomly message best friends failed talking stage one night replying to Instagram story
>Get a convo going
>Jokes n the lot
>She asks how I found her
>Explain she's my best friends failed talking stage
>"Out of respect anon I think we should stop speaking because I did air your friend, he was boring and pushy but that's messy."
>One issue, I don't want to, she's really hot
>Get the rush of speaking to this crazy girl behind my friends back, keep doing it as it gives me some kind of emotion in my shitty emotionally devoid of empathy and happiness brain
>She's crazy with diagnosed BPD, proven stabbing her ex and 'jokes' about me abusing her
>This is like emotional crack to me
>Know I'm being played and fucking over friend but can't stop
>Go into detail about friend together, how he was boring, was still on tinder during their talking stage and how she aired him because rejecting was too awkward
>Get even more secrets on him and we act like lil children
>Keep feeding into her need for attention as I'm loving it too, the rush is still too good.
>Gets even more crazy, asks if I'm not here to suck her toes then why am I here.
>I say for a price, maybe free of charge out of sheer infatuation and need to feel alive and have some sort of ownership
>Talks about family members being in high places and prison
>Exciting, very.
>Just the perfect emotional nuclear bomb to cure my boredom, and possibly my entire life.

Anons, I know I'm being fucked over and possibly used for emotional needs, but this level of betrayal makes me feel alive.

rather than alive you might be better off if you feel dead

>>82216491 (OP)
You can do whatever you want anon but every guy who got into a similar situation felt the same way. With the incredible highs eventually come incredible lows and you have to face the reality that it absolutely wasn't worth it. The friend will be gone and you'll be just one more guy in a long string of guys that she used up and tossed.

Sadly though, that's the best case scenario when it comes to BPD hoes. You could end up in jail, in prison, or dead.

4chan post about me? So hot

>>82216491 (OP)
>tfw no out of control bpd gf that obsesses over me so hard it hurts