>>82216847 (OP)With a condom I don't feel much (no not mutilated at birth). Even without a condom I find it incredibly hard to cum. Probably because my sex has been hookups with years in between and my dick is used to hand stimulation, which is a lot more intense than pussy. It's mostly in my head because for some reason I'm thinking too much like "wtf I'm actually having sex? Should I go faster or slower? Hope she thinks my dick is big enough. My arms are kinda getting tired. I don't feel much.. oh god I probably won't be able to cum again and she'll get mad".
The idea of sex is amazing, until you're actually doing it and realize it's super underwhelming and you're kinda bored. It's probably different with a steady partner you love.