Thread 82279749

>cheat in every game I play

I just can't cope with the stress, I'm scared of failing and being stuck on a level so I end up cheating all the time. This is a reflection of my real life, I'm too scared to failed so I never do anything and just hide in my room all day.

>>82279749 (OP)
You don't need to fear anything. Just acknowledge snorpu and you'll feel better! If you don't know snorpu, look here >>82276967

>>82279749 (OP)
what's wrong with failing? your "problem" is just that you have the wrong relationship towards failing and learning. probably trained and instilled into during childhood. were you ever punished/ridiculed/heavily critized for making honest attempts at something and failing? It's better if you start viewing yourself as a product of your environment. This way you can detach yourself from your established poor identity and grant yourself forgiveness and patience. Something you werent given before most likely. Go and try anon. And if you can't do it that's not a problem. Try as many times as you want. Without any shame.

>>82279749 (OP)
I gave up when playing portal 2 as a teen and used a guide at least a few times. Felt embarrassing as fuck when bringing it up irl to someone who said they didn't need any help at all. Nowadays the answers are all easy as fuck but I guess this autism had an impact on more of my mental development than I thought.

A few years later I tried doing a large mod ("Portal: Revolution"), but had to eventually give up in that as well and I felt horribly retarded. I think if I boot it up right now I'd still fail that specific puzzle.

>>82279822
My mom would beat me if I'd get a bad grade when I was little

>>82279855
That's terrible but I already sort of figured. I had a similar upbringing I remember locking myself away inside my closet for hours on end so my mom would think im not at home yet. Lots of yelling, physical abuse and humiliation. I hope you will able to look at yourself in a more nuanced manner and give yourself the time and space you need to reframe your identity into something more healthy