Thread 82404580

Anon why haven't you started looking for a wife/husband yet?

>>82404580 (OP)
Marriage is a trap and I refuse to fall for it

My wife must get high as fuck and smoke hella weed. I have unlimited amount of bud

>>82404580 (OP)
over 200 online rejections so far does that count

>>82404590
Do you grow it yourself?

>>82404596
Try in person

>>82404580 (OP)
ive been looking for "the one" since 14 and i only date with the intention to marry. unfortunately ive been cheated on every time, fortunately these were online relationships so whatever

>i've never been approached or considered for a relationship
>no interest has been reciprocated, and no woman has ever even considered me in a terms of a relationship
>30+ khhv wizard
>i assume that means I must have nothing to offer
>everyone I know has gotten married and has kids now
>has made me feel increasingly inadequate - sapping my already non-existent self-confidence
>no idea why i seemingly don't have value - know it's not an appearance thing (i'm average or somewhat more attractive than many I know who have gotten married)
>no friends after isolating out of a sense of shame and inability to relate.
>feel financially unable to start a family despite high paying career
>career in technical field with few to no women (heavy STEM)
>cannot afford a home in this area on my own without liquidating most assets just to get a foot in the door
>not wasting my time trying to date online - especially if I've never been wanted or desired
>no point trying to market worthless goods
>increasing depression and avoidance as I get older - leading to further isolation. feedback loop
>realize that I would be detrimental to anyone else
>don't want to ruin someone else's life by being a parasite on them
>realize that if i let anyone close they'd realize how terrible I am regardless

So mostly - I don't believe I have value. I base that lack of value on the fact that over 30+ years of lived experience, I've never been approached once. I base that on the collapse of my friendships. That's a large enough sample size to override any onus that I be the one approaching (as a guy) and rules out the bias of a small data set. I don't trust my inner negative critic, so I rely on that outside evidence to approach objectivity. As I get older, my opportunities for meeting any women have dried up. There's no point trying if you aren't wanted. My desire for a family are superceded by my own lack of value and my likely inability to provide for them economically despite my career.

>>82404580 (OP)
>>82404588
FPBP
Divorce-rape never appealed to me.
I've been incel for decades anyway.