Thread 82420571

I'm not making this thread for attention, I have a billion scars and never once posted when I was creating them in the first place, but I just cut and have no one to tell (or that I want to tell)
The reason I feel extra bad about it is because I didn't do it in forever. The last 5 or 6 days have also been the perfect storm of bad things happening to me. Idk why I even did it, it wasn't relieving.
I know this place is usually the opposite of nice, but again, I don't want to tell anyone I know.

well no shame in starting over

>>82420578
It's less that I feel like I've relapsed. I never really get the urge to do it, idk why I even did it tonight.
So it's not like I feel like a failure because of cutting, I'm sure I won't do it again (I hope)

I made this post more just because I feel bad in general about all this, but I'm not going to be telling the 2 guys I know that I've cut myself.

The blade wasn't sterilised. It was a razor I'd used on my legs.
I hope I'm not at risk of getting infected?

It didn't look dirty or rusty.

>>82420614
You'll most likely be okay. Bodies are resilient things.
It sounds like your brain just kinda drove you to do it out of old habit, less so out of necessity. Probably quite shocking to you, but the shock is a good sign. If it wasn't relieving, that's also good, as it means you probably won't be doing it again. Try not to, at least.

>>82420571 (OP)
sometimes we just go back into an old habit, it was what ur body and mind are used to is all and youll learn it doesnt even really do anything anymore

>>82420571 (OP)

All bad, all bad, the fact that you haven't told someone you know ruins everything, only tell it to a professional or someone you know, but someone who really loves you, greetings and blessings.

>>82420571 (OP)
>I'm not making this thread for attention
You don't have to lie on here.