>>82421858 (OP)
It's pretty hard to trust foids and your first gf was a bpdemon, your mom is emotionally unavailable and self-centered and 90% of older men tell you marriage is just some hag bothering you to do chores every time you try to relax for the rest of your life
What I'm saying is, I get it. At this point I think people mostly get what they deserve though. If you are capable of true love yourself, realize that you are in the minority among women and have faith that there is a similar minority among men. If you are a typical self-centered manipulative female, accept that you're just seeing the response that your behavior incentivizes
