>>82445765 (OP)
I want a shy, nerdy, lonely, cute girl that I can be co-dependent with. I want to hug her, to hold her, to feel her heartbeat through her chest. I want to know what it is to love, I want her to fix me. I want her to help me walk through life, to understand it all, to finally find something to do, to finally work for something. I want her to be my purpose, I want to feel loved, I want to understand what it's like to have someone to depend on. I want to grow old with her, to talk to her everyday, to sleep with her. I want her to comfort me through the worst, and enjoy life with me through the best. I want to feel happy again, I want to feel less lonely since my last freind killed himself three years ago. I want all of this to have been for something. I want God to bless me, to show me that life truly is worth living after all this suffering. But women don't want that, women want a father figure in their life. They want some strong, fearless, emotionless, stoic, and successful man who'll roll down the carpet for her, to treat her better than she deserves.
>>82446806
>I dont know, I can only conceive of loving someone, but never being loved back
Truth nuke, even with my old friend who I used to be codependent with, I was the one who initiated everything.
