I don't feel like a man, I have never felt like a man. I never got a thrill out of competition or domination, and I have almost nothing in common with any man I have ever met. I don't feel like a woman either but I can't help but feel like my life would definitely be easier if I was one. I feel like some kind of blank entity inhabiting a body that I can't associate myself with. I am 30 years old, I have felt like this my entire life, I sometimes pretended to be a man but I never once truly felt like I was living the life I wanted. I don't know what kind of life I even want, I just know I don't want this one. I wish there were more possibilities in life, I feel like a thing that really shouldn't be here in this limited time and place. I'm just waiting to die. I barely even do anything to pass the time, I just work and browse the internet. I don't even know why I'm posting this because it won't change anything, it never does, I just don't have anything else to do.