Thread 82557374

What are some mean things that you heard others say about you?

>>82557374 (OP)
A girl I liked in college said I was weird. Most people don't even notice me.

me mum called me a nerd, i know its not a very mean insult but it really hurt coming from her

>>82557374 (OP)
My mom told me in the middle of one of her manic episodes I was cursed once and told me that everything bad that happened her sisters death and her grandfathers death which happened when I was 7 was all my fault, she threw plates at me and told me she wishes she aborted me, I kinda internalized it and developed bad person disorder as a result

>>82557374 (OP)
Most people are friendly with me but sometimes I get guys who will treat me like both a buddy and a punching bag, had a coworker who constantly wanted to talk to me but would also call me a bitch and give me the finger

>>82557404
*My grandather's death
anyways yeah it all coincided with alot of things like my early childhood she had a really rough time because of me, also im pretty sure my dad was a sex addict and she had to quit her job as a teacher where she was respected and shit because she got preggo with me, i was a literal mistake lol and she was usually nice but in her manic episodes after not sleeping for weeks it all came out, i was a mistake, she told me she should have aborted me one time she did this and threw plates at me i couldn't take it anymore and I slapped her HARD across the face, she screamed like i was gonna kill her and told me I was gonna kill my wife one day, the worst part is that it felt really really good. she finally learned to shut the fuck up after that incident.

>>82557404
aw anon im really sorry to hear that, i hope you feel better one day, if you have to say something mean to me i give you full permission

>talking to anon is like talking to A FUCKING CHILD
hahah, yeah...

>>82557427
>aw anon im really sorry to hear that, i hope you feel better one day, if you have to say something mean to me i give you full permission
What could I say to you? I;m not really sure what to say anyways thanks for your kindness but its all my fault, I don't even live with my mom anymore and she's not a bad person i just choose to replay this memory again and again and again until i turn into a skeleton and my bones fall off, I'm not helpless, I chose sadness and destruction, remember I chose to be like this. It's no one's fault but mine. I choose to be a dramatic whiny bitch on 4chan.

...but thanks, I like kindness I prefer pain to be honest, but I always...respect people who prefer to give me kindness when I ask for pain

But I'm not really sure how to handle it, enemies are simple, you outmanuever them put bullet in their brains before they can react, kill them before they can kill you...what am I suppose to with people who might or migth not hate me?

>>82557374 (OP)
Dad called me a lot of things, the most recurrent being killjoy and grump (apparently the fact that I can't really feel pleasure or joy is a personal insult against him).
Mom called me a lazy bum who always takes the easy way out when everything I did up to my mid-20s was to make her happy and when I'm actually one of the hardest workers everywhere I go (pretty much the only thing I have going for me).
I was nominated the ugliest guy in the class in 6th grade.
Got called weird more times than I can count.
I bet I could remember a lot more if I thought about it but I think I shouldn't go down that road.

>>82557374 (OP)
>must have a small penis and be gay since he doesnt wanna fuck me
And from men
>he must be autistic

So ive decided to use deception and manipulation to try and start fights against these people and their boyfriends since im way higher iq. Always came easy to me.

>>82557508
The only people who do that shit are complete faggots next question.

>>82557374 (OP)
Grow up being universally hated. This thread op is every day life, I don't think about it any more.

>>82557467
Bro what kind of dark autism anime arc are you on? Life is not a cartoon with background music and a greater lesson to be learned.

>>82557537
The borderline personality disorder arc
Yeah I know its retarded but this is unironically life for us BPDemon imagine living when the voice inside your head never shuts up and it wants to kill you. I am told it doesn't really get better unless I try really hard for 5+ years

>>82557467
>people who domt like you and shit
They get something out of making your life worse its not that complicated theyre mentally ill and spiritually gay.

>>82557467
I think your choices are a perfectly logical reaction to what you went through, and I find it interesting that you chose the word dramatic to describe yourself, because that to me sounds like you think your reaction is unnecessary or over the top, but you were dealt a really rough hand. I'm not sure what to do with people who might or might not hate you, but I can tell you right now I don't, and I'm really glad your mom didn't have an abortion

>>82557551
Im pretty sure its ok to feel happy and sad and shit. Youre only making yourself feel worse and worse playing into it like the doctors say. Doctors are pieces of useless shit who are actually autistic and would rather conduct malpractice than lose their job. Any sane person would want to be expedited through medical school by studying on their own time. Malpractice is under reported since they tried or whatever apparantly but are incompetent.

>>82557557
>and I'm really glad your mom didn't have an abortion
why? its not really like you feel anything for me, this could just be AI designed to demoralize you or a weird larp for attention...and at least I wouldn't be in pain, neither would have her or you, you feel bad because i feel bad, im not really sure why you want me to live, why everyone tells me not to kill myself. I don;t even like myself, how could you like me, why don't you just let me win and let me die?

after being called ugly my whole life, being told that im "not the cutest in the whole world" made me want to kill myself. i dunno why it was so much worse

>>82557586
Probably a bunch of dumb queers who actually think youre pretty who want you to fuck their son or cousin or something so they make your life shit until way cool jr comes rolling around. This is the problem with telling people deception and evil is cool they make it look gay.

>>82557578
if its a larp or ai its very convincing, im willing to take the chance that you are telling the truth. Trust me I know how it feels to live with that pain, but you killing yourself isn't winning, its letting the voices win, and those guys are fags

>>82557578
>I don;t even like myself, how could you like me
I really hate this expression, its from people who are blaming you for others not liking you, I don't subscribe to it, I like you because you remind me of myself and I believe you can like yourself one day

I don't enjoy cumming anymore

>>82557374 (OP)
my mom says im sociopathic and shes known something was wrong with me from the day i was born.