Thread 82779883

Do you ever feel as if you just aren't MEANT to have kids or a wife? Some people they don't have to try and they're always in relationships. We are perpetually single even if we try and "just go for it".

>>82779883 (OP)
my question is why, why was i put here, to live such a meaningless life

>>82779883 (OP)
That thing on the other side looks freaky though. I wanna let it out.

>>82779883 (OP)
Nope, I conciously chose NOT to have a wife and kids
I've been offered an arranged marriage, anon, and I'm a man
>inb4 jeet
Nope, where I'm from we're like a blend of modernity and tradition
I personally know folks in civil unions and folks who married for mutual benefits

oh yeah absolutely. im slightly autistic but was lucky to have one relationship in my life, she broke up things of course. but i didnt want to do anything during the weekends, or go out friday night. she was already talking about marriage, and all i could picture was her inviting her 20 friends, and me having literally one one to invite because im friendless loser lol. poor girl she was lucky to break up with me.

i could easily find a 4/10 girl because i'm tall but there's no future for either of us. i was doomed from the start, its just the way i am. and believe me i've tried to change

>>82779920
Thats what we have to figure out.

>>82779930
I think it's best we don't find out.

>>82779940
Probably because you haven't found anyone attractive that you like or you're young.

>>82779946
Yeah that's the thing it's like for us autists we don't have any friends and the vast majority of women have large social networks so it's like if there is any events where we have to invite our group we are lucky to even have 1-2 other guys to invite. We aren't equally yolked with most women so it's just never going to work.

Like for me, it was just my birthday recently but I didn't have anyone to hang out with so just stayed in. Only people that wished me a happy birthday were my family and like one friend from college (I don't have facebook)

>>82779997
>Thats what we have to figure out.
I've asked God but have been given no answers.

>>82779997
>I think it's best we don't find out.
mfw no subterrain, eldritch horror gf

>>82779946
>she was already talking about marriage, and all i could picture was her inviting her 20 friends, and me having literally one one to invite because im friendless loser lol.
Same lol. I'd wanna go for a small wedding but that might just put a bigger emphasis on the difference.

I am annoyed that romance isn't really an option for me these days, but it is what it is. I have other things to do. Perhaps things will change one day, though there is no way to know for sure.

>>82779883 (OP)
It's easier to make peace with the lack of something when you genuinely never wanted it anyway

>>82779883 (OP)
I feel like God's practical joke, because I have incredible stats and life privelige that would likely make /r9k/ tear their hair out with envy, but I'm so debilitatingly autistic and schizoid I have been unable to use or capitalize on any of it my whole life. Like God made a fairly decent specimen then pulled a 90's tier "psyche" and lobotomized me before sending me to the womb.
An egg eternally waiting to hatch, if you will.

>>82779883 (OP)
>Do you ever feel as if you just aren't MEANT to have kids or a wife?
Frankly, I don't think I was given a destiny or fate at all.
I tried with all my effort not to end up a NEET, I was so close to actually progressing in highschool until my immune system decided to self-destruct.
I've been a hikiNEET for god knows how many years now, I didn't know how long an eternity actually lasts, do you know how long eternity lasts? I found out.
It has no end, I'm stuck in limbo with short-term memory issues and an active addiction that makes me semi-content with my situation, I'm a junkie and failure on all accounts, but I tried, I know I did, and I failed, there was nothing meant for me, and all I can do is wait for it all to be over and for me to fade back into the "nothing" I was meant for.
Getting bullied in school and having none of the adults protect you really fucks you up.

>>82779883 (OP)
Willfully bringing another human being into this world is selfish.

>>82779997
>you haven't found anyone attractive that you like
Sort of, I genuinely don't look at physical attractiveness though in a way it does subconciously affect me in the sense of it gives me an idea of what she's like

I've had 4/10s hit on me, I've had 8/10s hit on me
I'm a flat 5 genuinely, but something about my "energy" just attracts folks to me
>You're young.
I'm 27, man
I know folks my age who are married with 2-3 kids already

I don't believe all humans are meant to reproduce, like some other animal species. I never wanted kids, but helped out a lot raising my niece so still contributed to the survival of shared DNA without overburdening the clan with excessive offspring or competing for a mate.

>>82780002
Just keep asking. For me, I have a really good career and will make a ton of money soon but I'm still pretty friendless with a dry phone and no hoes. I'm also in my early 30s but still have to keep pressing on

>>82780027
I would just tell them we have to elope or get a small wedding because desu I don't htink I could invite a bunch of people to my wedding lol. I didn't really make friends in school so it would just be us.

>>82780089
The thing with men is that we have so many things that can be dealbreakers for us so a lot of us just aren't going to have anyone. Even the guys that find someone half will end up divorced or in sexless marriages.

>>82780143
I honestly don't care about money. I will keep asking though, and I hope you get friends a hoe.

>>82780199
thank you so much. I've been trying but maybe one day it will happen for me...

if i ever get a wife i just KNOW i will end up in a sexless marriage. i dont have a high sex drive or anything, im fucking normal but i can already see that happening to me

ive seen how young girls act during sex, they're passionate, active and loud. they're enthusiastic and willing to try anything

can you imagine putting your pajamas, brushing your teeth, going to bed, trying to start things, and she rejects you again because she doesnt feel like it

its literally a fate worse than being an incel . you cant even masturbate in your own home, thats the tragic irony

>>82779883 (OP)
>Do you ever feel as if you just aren't MEANT to have kids or a wife?
Actually yes. I can barely even keep myself fed and I'm planning on just letting myself starve to death in the coming months. Bringing a kid into this world would be unspeakably cruel to that child, even moreso than my parents were to me, and even if a girl just magically wanted to marry me, I don't even see marriage as a possibility.

>>82779920
so others can feed off of you for their ego. your parents only had you because they wanted to have the illusion that they "made it" (assuming you weren't just an accident). society needs you to exist so people can boost their egos and feel better about themselves.

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>>82779946
If none of you have yet realized you should do something with your life, despite having wasted a lot of it, well. That is a fate worse than virginity, worse than death, continuing to do nothing forever. You need to do something, and you can start today. It's literally that simple.
If you feel hesitant, get addicted to drugs and alcohol for 1-10 years and by the end of that your mind and body will be begging you for some purpose. You may simply lie to yourself and think you have some sort of detached-nihilism. You don't, despite your mental illnesses you still want to do something in life, however seemingly mundane it is. Spoiler: it's not mundane because it's your life and you are the sole responsibility to bring meaning to it.

>>82780307
You've accepted defeat before you've even tried. I have been offered sex and clumsily it. We both have the same mental illness, but you have the lower self esteem. Have an ounce of faith in yourself, bro. You're on r9k, you clearly have a sex drive, however warped it may be. Spoiler: everyone is fucked up in their own says.

>>82781013
>do something in life
And what would that be? A hobby, a wife, children?

>>82779883 (OP)
I'm a naturally reclusive person and i'm find on my own, but i'll still encourage other white people to marry and have kids because i don't want to live in a future full of brown people

>>82779883 (OP)
my uncle is like this
i think i'm destined to become him