>>82818071 (OP)
I feel like there is some reason you couldn't sleep, and some other reason you were crying.
Why couldn't you sleep for a few days? What made the first night of insomnia different from the night you were able to sleep before?
>>82818192
I cried because hearing those kind words from the woman in the video, hearing her breathe as she slept.... it was nice.
As for not being able to sleep... I don't know. It happens sometimes. I've been struggling with this for two weeks now, even with melatonin.
I have the same issue currently, but instead of bf/gf ASMR, I put on old vids of the love of my life hiking and talking. He had unlisted them recently. You seem incredibly lonely and unhappy with your current position in life and this is a form of escapism. We have to actively work on changing things anon
>>82818071 (OP)
wish I could rope. Hate living with my mother. I just want a job
many faggots on here dont even want to work. I want to live on my own again. I hate women
TFW so incel and unlovable that I could never believe GF ASMR, let alone get off to it. It's just too fake and unrealistic to me. Same thing with porn too. I cannot even jerk off and make myself cum. It takes whores ten minutes jerking me off with lube to even extract a cumshot from me. My self-hatred is off the scale. FML.