Thread 82841286

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

nyaaturday!!

Hello
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

hii
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

>a first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>82841286 (OP)
yo cat
hru?

>bothering
yup, i have to study but i have headache. i studied a bit but i have to study more, i think I'm feeling better with my head rn but i feel like i cant really focus enough. i'll sleep for 4 hours or so to finish studying. hope i don't feel tired

i will reply to older replies from yesterday's thread later

>>82841597
allo
>hru?
pretty okay
I had to sorta work on a project today but didn't though
>have to study but i have headache
that sucks :<
maybe you could take a nap and leave studying for when ur feeling a little better?
>i'll sleep for 4 hours or so to finish studying. hope i don't feel tired
I feel you should sleep a little bit more because if you're tired studying won't go well
>will reply to older replies from yesterday's thread later
just know you don't have to if you don't have time because you gotta do other things now

FAGGOTTSSSS FAGGOTTTSSSS bpd is a faineant excuse to be a cheating attention-seeking whore, stop being a childish fuck, there is nothing wrong with your brain, youre just R E T A R D E D.
Respectfully.

Went out for brunch which I find to be the overrated meal in existence, but it's an excuse to have a burger in beers in the morning i guess. Buy first couple volumes of csm part 2 since near the store. Hesitate because feel weird buying manga with school girls on cover(didn't realize till at the shelf) at physical store but "fuck it" do it anyway. I think I have grossly exaggerated my feelings of people looking at me weird for many years now, just sort of clicked in my head toda

>>82841286 (OP)
heya cat! happy caturday! how's it going?
Have to reply to your post from yesterday because it was too interesting still!
>>82832714
>yep because at the time there emerged a belief that a god has to be good
It is interesting what you mentioned, since Greeks kinda had asshole gods, whereas Egyptians had more benevolent ones who cared about people. I think a lot of Greek philosophy, Plato and neo Platonists, came up with ideas of more good natured gods or a god, but Egyptian myths did influence a lot of those cults around the time of Christianity. Mysteries of Isis and cults like that
>I'm not religious at all but I like the history of it how the way people view gods changed
It is pretty interesting from a historical perspective. It's funny because the modern day image of a very human Jesus is also a bit later than all this. Early Christians believed he was fully human and God, but also that he was a bit distant in a way. Whereas the later middle ages with earyl humanism led to the more "human" like depictions of Jesus, whereas old one depict as almost otherworldly and above humans despite being one
I'm done rambling about old religion now! I'm done! I swear it lol

>>82841597
hey rm! Hope you're having a good weekend!
> but i have headache. i
take it easy and don't push too hard!
>sleep for 4 hours or so to finish studying.
that is't a lot of sleep. Know you're trying real hard to study, but rest and recovery is important too. Don't worry about replying to posts, just take care.

>>82833105
>at least own it.
to be fair, I think most Christians who aren't full of shit would in that instance (I read a lot of old works that talked about this topic) The gnostics were basically just Greek mystery cultists who encountered Christianity as it spread, and interpreted or hijacked it as part of their own system with no actual connection to the larger movement.
>i guess it's one of those episodes a lot of people would like you to forget happened at all.
I find the development really interesting, but I also like history. My favorite Christian writer got condemned as a heretic by the church unfortunately though, but to this day I think some are willing to admit this might have been a bit harsh and mostly because they interpreted him as teaching a sort of universalism(which is probably why I liked him so much)
Now I'm really done with relgion
>in that regard is probably wrong.
lot of MBA's who think having an important professor and going over 500 case studies will prepare them for anything
> comfort and convenience just beat everything else.
only problem is when the people complacent are the ones who are in theory in charge of steering the ship and then rush to throw everyone else off when they realized they didn't pay attention enough
>>82833311
>getting hit by surprise cosmic horror only works once
but man was it really trippy to find out the reason you kept randomly dying outside the cathedral this whole time
> fuck chalice dungeons
agreed whole heartedly
>dark souls is still the best game in regards to level design.
damn it, i'm starting to really want to play these again. Feel like no would be the perfect time on the PC. You might have convinced me. I might get the remaster of 1 on steam.

>>82833350
> always been fun and nice
I bought more today and swear I'm getting too carried away
>sounds pretty tasty and very healthy
had to have it healthy yesterday to balance out beer and the messy burger and fries

>>82834361
>game of thrones
I have heard game of thrones went bad quite early on most people just still liked it so sounds interesting to hear what he thinks

>>82841286 (OP)
hey cat

>>82841597
>study but i have headache
that's awful, studying already sucks doing it with a headache just sounds like hell hope you feel better soon

>>82841979
>brunch
i never even knew what bruch was always sounded like a weird thing

>>82842021
>swear I'm getting too carried away
well try not to get to carried away hehe
>beer and the messy burger and fries
fair hehe always smart to at least eat something healthy sometime

i cant sleep... i have to go for the quizzes after like 13 hour. i also cant study well now. and i cant fkn sleep.
hell.

>>82841892
>okay
nice!
>didn't though
i hope that doesn't bring any problem to you pal, when will you work on it?

>sleep a little bit more
i cant really, there is not enough time
thats disgusting

>you don't have to if you don't have time
<3 (:


>>82841979
yo mate
>good weekend
it's the last day of it here, hope you're having a nice weekend too!
>don't push too hard
idk man im stuck
>rest and recovery is important too
sadly i can't rest, i wish i could sleep for 20 hours to cure this.

>>82842202
>doing it with a headache just sounds like hell hope you feel better
exactly man, thanks :)

>>82842402
>cant sleep
hm I recommend maybe going to bed and watching something chill on your phone like a map exploration
https://youtu.be/aEaD17FO_44?si=UiFWIdNn8iWTRHku
and make the screen dark and the volume low and just lay down and listen and you'll probably get sleepy :>
Gonna reply to the rest of ur post later I'm doin something now

>>82841286 (OP)
>in the other total war games i could atleast somewhat gauge on what was going on/what to do.
never played total war games. Some of them seems interesting. But I think when it came to strategy, I never preferred ones that were war only. Only played a handful of those including an old star wars one, the halo rts, and that absurd tom clancy game with the voice commands
>i'd be the next patton or some shit.
Just don't try to restart the war after the war was already over and piss off everyone else like what happened to him

>>82842202
hey gator!
>always sounded like a weird thing
kinda is. It's really basically a morning time mini party for a lot of people. Women tend to like it more then men I feel. Sweet foods and fruity cocktails, some people dress up. I don't care for it much, but I like some of the dishes that are popular at these

>>82842402
> i also cant study well now. and i cant fkn sleep.
hell.
just try to go lay down and calm your a mind a bit best you can. If you need to sleep i think avoiding looking at screens is probably a good idea as well. I know I can't get into the right mindset to sleep if i'm on my phone computer too much before trying. need to detox and just do nothing
>idk man im stuck
just feel like you need to cram? If so, do what you got to. But make sure you're eating well enough and keeping up with everything else so you have energy for it. Can force youself through crazy times if need be
>wish i could sleep for 20 hours to cure this.
maybe when it's all done. I've slept absurd amounts of time after pulling through days of no sleep.

>>82842596
was trying to reply to
>>82833342
but selected the wrong post

>>82842402
>also cant study well now. and i cant fkn sleep. hell.
that really sounds awful best of luck with the quizzes <3

>>82842596
>morning time mini party for a lot of people
oh yeah that does sound pretty strange
>Sweet foods and fruity cocktails
that does sound a bit nice and enjoyable i guess

>>82841286 (OP)
hello cat
>>How are you doing today?
very sick and tired
>>Any plans for today?
painted a roof. and I'm back to distro hopping my windows emulator half worked, so I'm going to try it again in a fresh environment with preinstalled winetricks.
>>82841597
hi rem
>i have to study but i have headache
it's okay, I'm sure there's still more time to study.
>>82841979
hi officeanon
> I think I have grossly exaggerated my feelings of people looking at me weird for many years now, just sort of clicked in my head toda
probably. but also, what does it even matter what people say about you.
>>82842202
hi gator
>I have heard game of thrones went bad quite early on most people just still liked it so sounds interesting to hear what he thinks
The road to season 8 was paved with writers giving up and not handing it off to someone else.
There are a lot of small changes that add up overtime from the first few seasons, but it could've been worked around.

i surrendered and studied. still need to study a bit more but atleast i feel a bit better now.
i eventually had old strange feelings and remembered bad things, then relapsed and hurt myself :/
but it didn't fix anything


>>82842592
i think it might work with me but i need to be tired enough, i think i just have to spend time until i eventually sleep

>>82842596
>avoiding looking at screens
yup that's indeed a good idea, screens can cause headache too sometimes

>need to detox and just do nothing
i think its good to do nothing before sleeping overall

>eating well enough and keeping up with everything else so you have energy
thanks!

>absurd amounts of time
very expected, i wish i slept when i could , lol

>>82842767
>best of luck with the quizzes
thanks mate!

cynic!
>>82842911
>more time
i hope so

>>82841286 (OP)
>nyaaturday
nyay!!! \o/

>>82841979
>it's an excuse to have a burger in beers in the morning i guess.
never understood why some stuff is acceptable to eat in the morning and some isn't. well, i get the beer, but if you want a burger, go for it.

>Hesitate because feel weird buying manga with school girls on cover(didn't realize till at the shelf) at physical store but "fuck it" do it anyway
the ultimate power as an adult is to recognize you're and adult and can do whatever the fuck you want.

>just sort of clicked in my head toda
new skill unlocked! :D

>>82842021
>I think most Christians who aren't full of shit would in that instance
i suppose. not sure how to discuss religion in non-antagonizing way though, so i guess it's better if i don't.

>interpreted or hijacked it as part of their own system with no actual connection to the larger movement.
it's interesting how a lot of religions are copying each others homework. guess making one from scratch is kinda hard and it's more successful if you take concepts people are already familiar with and just dress them a little differently.

>My favorite Christian writer got condemned as a heretic by the church
bummer. not sure why that's concerning to you, though. not like the church has a good track record when it comes to that stuff. what writer are you talking about. though?

>universalism
what's it about?

>I'm really done with relgion
all good, you can always talk to me about it, i just have a hard time talking about religious myth in a way that doesn't show that i treat them with the same reverence as any other fantasy story with a very peculiar fanbase. btw, ever heard about the albigensian crusade? if not, you might have a good time reading about it.

>>82842021
>having an important professor and going over 500 case studies will prepare them for anything
had a good laugh when i found out that some researchers tried a medieval medical practitioners recipe (with stuff like the gallbladder of an ox, some other animals eyes, garlic and so on) for fun and found out that it actually kills multi-resistant germs. we're missing out on a lot of good ideas just because we put to much emphasis on authority instead of results.

>the people complacent are the ones who are in theory in charge of steering the ship and then rush to throw everyone else off when they realized they didn't pay attention enough
that's the tragedy in all of this. being in charge needs to be reconnected with taking responsibility when shit hits the fan. as much as people give nintendo shit, when something doesn't go as planned, it's the top who bears the brunt of the consequences. a least they did in the past. who knows how it is these days

>it really trippy to find out the reason you kept randomly dying outside the cathedral this whole time
the reveals were great. my favorite were the little aliens in the woods and the hospital. also that the moon in the hunters dream is *in front* of the clouds or the finger of the doll in the real workshop twitching. it's this attention to detail that really made me a fan of fromsofts worlds.

>agreed whole heartedly
i think they would have implemented a similar system in elden ring if these had worked out better, but they didn't so they opted for the small handcrafted dungeons instead.

>Feel like no would be the perfect time on the PC. You might have convinced me. I might get the remaster of 1 on steam.
these games really shine on later playthroughs where you can actually appreciate all the work they put in instead of just panicking every time you see an enemy. i should wishlist them and pick them up on sale, too. especially sekiro. might be fun when i can actually play a video game instead of a dia show.

>>82842202
heyo!

>sounds interesting to hear what he thinks
the name of the guy i'm talking about is mauler. you can find his stuff on youtube. he's made quite a lot of vids on got and the rant i was talking about was in one of his latest bloodborne streams, but i don't know in which.

>>82842911
hey cynic!

>>82842767
>sound pretty strange
I don't like going with lots of people since it's usually a lot of women who hate each other but still get together and pretend they like each other while acting increasingly passive aggressive as the morning goes on
>that does sound a bit nice and enjoyable i guess
so many breakfast foods are basically desserts, which i am okay with

>>82842911
hey cynic!
>very sick and tired
take it easy. Sounds like you did quite a lot today. More than probably should if you're not feeling great.
>what does it even matter what people say about you.
I know it shouldn't but still struggle with a bit. More than I should this point and time. At least feel it's a little progress in the sense I'm not thinking about it as much as I used to.

>>82842916
> still need to study a bit more but atleast i feel a bit better now.
hope it makes it easier to get a little sleep now. Should be your focus, but doing something till you're sleepy enough isn't bad
>then relapsed and hurt myself
take care of yourself. Nothing to be ashamed of, but make sure you cleanup and all that. Hopes it's past now
>screens can cause headache too sometimes
i get them so bad since it's work and a lot of my free time at a computer. Try to get a day I don't do as much, but hard to find that day. Feel like I always have something, but sleep is usually fine unless I'm too high strung

>>82842953
hey yuanon! how are you today?
>never understood why some stuff is acceptable to eat in the morning and some isn't
it's really interesting you look at different cultures too. Like Vietnam where eating hot noodle soup in the morning is fairly normal
> can do whatever the fuck you want.
for sure. but still don't want to buy anything too weird. I'll draw the line it gets to half naked chicks like the one volume had

>>82842953
> so i guess it's better if i don't.
no worries. It's one of those topics people avoid for good reason. I was more so into the historical perspectives being quite interesting and couldn't stop. I'm sort of far removed from most modern interpretations since I have a bad track record with religious people. Even I tried to be into in the past I always got doubted because I wasn't enthusiastic enough or something ridiculous.
>copying each others homework
Even more interesting is how they perceive the copying. Like adopting stories like they discovered things they hadn't know (Romans with the Greek myths) and uncovering secret knowledge like the cults I mentioned.
> what writer are you talking about. though?
>what's it about?
Church scholar from about the year 200 or so named Origen. Wrote a bunch of stuff, but touched on concepts that got interpreted as preaching universal salvation. There's the more modern versions which I don't know much about, but the thing that got the writer I mentioned somewhere talked about redemption of all souls even after those sent to hell being a possibility and he believed the devil had the ability to be redeemed. Of course, this didn't sit well with a lot of people
>ever heard about the albigensian crusade?
not under that specific name, but looking it up have read about these events. All the random side wars that got labeled as crusades. I'm still baffled by people who defend this shit. Still can't go over how the Fourth Crusade had such a strange trajectory and almost doesn't sound real.
>>82843130
>found out that it actually kills multi-resistant germs
People underestimate past ideas too much. I think it's foolish to idolize and say everything was great, but as foolish to dismiss everything as well, since there are some things that just worked and had merit.
> we put to much emphasis on authority instead of results.
common in every field and profession

>>82842911
>very sick and tired
oh being sick is the worst
>painted a roof
that's awesome
>giving up and not handing it off to someone else.
yea i heard that was a massive problem with the show just slowly got more and more problems
>but it could've been worked around.
yea could have if they cared enough too, sadly seems they didn't

>>82842916
good job on studying sorry to hear you felt bad and hurt yourself tho <3

>>82843171
>mauler
okay thanks I'll definitely check him out sounds like a really cool guy !
>latest bloodborne streams, but i don't know in which
well I'll try to find it

>>82843535
>lot of women who hate each other
sounds like the worst kinds of people to deal with
>breakfast foods are basically desserts, which i am okay with
very true, basically just as much sugar and just as unhealthy

>>82843130
> being in charge needs to be reconnected with taking responsibility when shit hits the fan
sure the people in charge of strategy aren't at fault. It's just those pesky workers aren't working hard enough to add shareholder value. :<
> my favorite were the little aliens in the woods and the hospital.
now i'm also wishing i still had a playstation lying around since they ain't ever giving us this on the pc
> i should wishlist them and pick them up on sale, too
so tempted to just get dark souls remaster since I don't know when next sale is gonna go but i can wait a little at least

sorry for taking my time

>>82841979
Hello
>Went out for brunch
that's nice :]
>but "fuck it" do it anyway
good, you work hard and deserve some relaxing time reading manga even of it has schoolgirl on the cover
>how's it going?
more or less okay
I didn't work on the project today, it's starting to feel pointless
>Platonists, came up with ideas of more good
yep from what i saw plato said that the myth should just be scrapped and rewritten
>almost otherworldly and above humans despite being one
interesting because from what i saw earlier bible stories show him as very human and which each retelling of that story in the bible his powers grow
at first he has to touch someone to do a miracle and later he just has to walk next to someone's house or be in the same city to cure someone
>rambling about old religion
that's okay
I also remember hearing about a religion where people believed john the baptist whs the true messiah because he also preached his own things and he baptized jesus and so hes higher in the hierarchy
And the religion lasted for a long while I think

>>82842202
Heyo
how ya doin?

>>82842402
Best of luck on your quiz thingie
>doesn't bring any problem
it might but I'm not sure I care
uni starting to seem pointless to me
>when will you work on it?
tomorrow probably
>not enough time
:<
><3 (:
ur welcome ^^

>>82842911
Hello
>very sick and tired
noo :c
I feel bad for you, hope you get better very soon
What are you sick with?
>painted a roof.
woa
sounds like a lot of work

>>82842916
>>82842916
>eventually had old strange feelings and remembered bad things, then relapse
it's understandable you have a lot of things to worry about and I'm sure it's stressful :<
>think i just have to spend time until i eventually sleep
okay hopefully it works

>>82842953
hey yuanon waddup?

>>82843535
>how are you today?
i'm good. spent time with some friends today, which was nice. friend also installed some mods and add ons for my wow-client and so far i absolutely hate it. need to get accustomed to it and change everything to my liking. will take a while.

>Like Vietnam where eating hot noodle soup in the morning is fairly normal
as it should be. most breakfast items are just cake with extra steps anyway.

>still don't want to buy anything too weird. I'll draw the line it gets to half naked chicks like the one volume had
you don't need to, but it's not like you're the only one buying it. if they're judging you on what you buy, maybe they shouldn't sell it in tbe first place.

>>82843581
>It's one of those topics people avoid for good reason.
turns out when we stop arguing about made up stuff we actually get along pretty well.

>Even I tried to be into in the past I always got doubted because I wasn't enthusiastic enough or something ridiculous.
guess they were right, but it's also a self-fulfilling prophecy

>Like adopting stories like they discovered things they hadn't know (Romans with the Greek myths)
also the romans styling themselves as the mythical decendants of troy, if i remember correctly.

>uncovering secret knowledge like the cults I mentioned.
always nice to be in the know. ^^

>this didn't sit well with a lot of people
never heard about him, but man, that would piss me off, too. imagine just going through all the hard work of making this shit up to scare people into obedience and then that fucker comes along.

>I'm still baffled by people who defend this shit.
i think it's more about the idea than the execution in this case. ^^' also just typical culture war stuff.

>I think it's foolish to idolize and say everything was great, but as foolish to dismiss everything as well
yeah, but then you have to look at and reevaluate everything on its own and that takes time and is a lot of work...

>common in every field and profession
word.

>>82843632
>>82843632
>sounds like a really cool guy !
i like him and his troupe a lot, but they can be a bit exhausting

>>82843649
>It's just those pesky workers aren't working hard enough to add shareholder value. :<
how could we. i really should get back inti the postal mines to mine some more letters and parcels.

>wishing i still had a playstation lying around since they ain't ever giving us this on the pc
can't you just emulate it?

>so tempted to just get dark souls remaster since I don't know when next sale is gonna go but i can wait a little at least
go for it if you really want to. still worth the money imo. only weird thing about the remaster is that the shield are glistening for some reason.

>>82844118
don't worry. i'm slow today as well.

>>82844129
>waddup?
not much. hung out with some friend, finished the minis i was building and now i'm setting up my wow ui with all the add ons a friend installed. shit doesn't make any sense to me yet, but i'll get there. at least i hope so. how was your day?

>>82844232
>i'm slow today as well.
that's okay, you did a lot today but I haven't and still can't find time for anything
>>82844232
>hung out with some friend, finished the minis i was building
woa :o
wanan share a pic?
>doesn't make any sense to me yet, but i'll get there.
you'll figure it out I'm sure \o/
>how was your day?
okay I didn't work on that project and unis starting to feel pointless
and idk what I did really today but at least I'm in bed now

bump
goodnight everynyan

>>82844401
>you did a lot today
eh. not really. just met with friend and went to a store. nothing crazy.

>I haven't and still can't find time for anything
that's ok. i'm sure you'll manage tomorrow.

>woa :o wanan share a pic?
i'll take one before i put on some primer tomorrow.

>you'll figure it out I'm sure
i'm not sure i want to. i tinkered with it for more than an hour and so far i absolutely hate it. i think i need to play without it.

>I didn't work on that project and unis starting to feel pointless
i think it's this weird dread your brain hits you with to keep you from trying. maybe the feeling will go away if you give it a go? so far what you showed looked promising to me.

>idk what I did really today but at least I'm in bed now
sending you a hug. (>^-^)><(^-^<) i hope the world looks a bit brighter for you tomorrow.

>>82844118
>how ya doin?
could be better honestly, when i woke up i was extremely idk sad from thoughts. how about you?

>>82844232
>his troupe
he does seem like he has a very interesting troupe

>>82845387
>when i woke up i was extremely idk sad from thoughts
seems like a lot of us are having a hard time rn. sorry you have to deal with intrusive thoughts, fren. what got you sad?

>he does seem like he has a very interesting troupe
he's gathered a lot of characters and there's some really deep lore on all the weird memes that came from his streams. ^^ like he has a second channel called mooler where he uploads most of his live stream vods and the pic for that is a skull on some sort of racing cart. that came to be because some other streamer called him "the guy with the skull on wheels as a profile pic" (it's just a guy in gas mask) and he found that so funny that he made it the pic for his second channel, but that was years ago and who knows that at this point.

i'm off to bed. good night, everyone! see you tomorrow.

a bump before i get back and reply to everything

honestly, i don't feel like explaining much of what i've done this past few days. the only thing i can say is that i've had the worst streak of bad luck in my life. everything that could go wrong, did. i'm exhausted. i just want this all to end. i hate this existence and every single fucking thing it's throwing right at my face. i'm not religious at all, but at this point it feels like the only thing i can do to hope to make it any better is a desperate prayer.