Thread 82898405

What would "complete" you, anon? What specific hole are you trying to fill? Will it all make sense when you finally have a gf? When you make a lot of money? When you are respected by your peers?

>>82898405 (OP)
The cessation of desire.

>>82898405 (OP)
I want to feel confident and capable enough to look after myself and feel comfortable talking to people

>>82898405 (OP)
>What would "complete" you, anon?
a (girl) companion, in real life (even if not immediately)
>What specific hole are you trying to fill?
loneliness, purpose
>Will it all make sense when you finally have a gf?
probably not, but even if it doesn't make sense, as long as things are fine, it doesn't matter

>When you make a lot of money?
money is a means to an end, it has no value until spent or reserved for it
>When you are respected by your peers?
i like to think everyone respects me to an extent
as for earning their admiration, well... i'm a ways off, and i feel like i always will be, and that's ok too

>>82898405 (OP)
>What would "complete" you, anon?
who knows? I can't say I lack anything in my life

>>82898405 (OP)
Health, money, privacy, and love. Money would lead to all of the others

>>82898405 (OP)
if i had my crush, or like, if i cant have him, a perfect boyfriend like him, id be complete

my life is nothing without someone to share it with

>>82898481
>my life is nothing without someone
atrocious lack of ego, not that it's really my problem

>>82898405 (OP)
>What specific hole are you trying to fill?
your moms lmao get owned kid
other than that huge unfillable gaping hole in the meme answer, i'd also just like to get more independant. i'm actively working on it but man is it a bitch of a goal to have, i'm close though.

>>82898405 (OP)
the hole of validation and care and all the other things and someone being excited about you and really making you feel as if you exist. its all that i am missing and its killing me the hardest. money, peers, nothing else matters when you miss that one piece.

>>82898494
i just dont want to do things alone, theres no point. but i dont want friends, dont desire them, i feel these things need to be with a man that i love, idk

>>82898405 (OP)
I just want her to put her head on my chest and to hold her close.
To cherish, love and support her always.
To have her understand me and want to marry me.
Spoil her and make sure she never is left wanting.
To travel where she wants to go and build memories we'll always have.
To have children with her and bring her breakfast in bed.
To marry her and never let her go.

>>82898405 (OP)
honestly a cute foid with messy hair big glasses sitting on my lap while browsing this shit hole that is wearing thight shorts rubbing her pussy on my cock

>>82898405 (OP)
I need a woman to fill my hole :3

>>82898405 (OP)
I want money so I can create a gundam irl, if I had that chance I could forget everything else

Maybe I'm not that empty to the point of feeling incomplete, though I'm slowly trying to fill the hole of loneliness. Another positive thing to do would be writing fiction more, that's the closest there is to a state of uncompletion on me. In the end I have to simply figure how to stay satisfied and good about myself, which is a hard task.
>Will it all make sense when you finally have a gf?
I don't think so. A girlfriend isn't some kind of goal that could justify everything I've been through after being achieved.
>When you make a lot of money?
My parents still pay everything for me, so I'm not concerned about money. In the future I want to have enough to have a good apartment and buy games, maybe travel once every two years, and nothing more. That is to say that I don't need luxury nor too many excesses to live happily.
>When you are respected by your peers?
Yes, it would be an important step.

>>82898405 (OP)
Having the money and skills to live for myself, my friends, my loved ones, and creating something I can leave behind for them to cherish

A supportive partner that gives me the hope and energy to be a better person. I'm a useless idiot who relies on external motivation so without it I am going to just decay slowly.

>>82898405 (OP)
>What specific hole are you trying to fill?
My anus.

I just don't want to be a disappointment to me mom anymore

>>82898405 (OP)
I just wish I had the guts to take control of my life, do something with it, turn it into a life worth living. I'm not saying my life is shit, I'm privileged as fuck, but I deserve none of it and it brings me shame. I just don't know what to do and even if I did I'd probably be too scared to do it. 28 years old, living with my parents, same entry level job for 3 years despite having an engineering degree, I can't cook for shit, I don't know how anything works, I'm socially awkward, etc etc

I don't want money, I don't want a girlfriend, I want to be able to respect myself but it seems so far fetched

>>82898616
also if I could take a hit of her bong and experience euphoria as we melt into each other and innevitably start fucking like wild rabbits that would be epic.

>>82898405 (OP)
>passion and satisfaction from completing a goal
this will provide me a natural goal to passively pursue. e.g carpentry as a passion -> make a bench -> make a table and on and on. hopefully this will make me happy
>a father figure growing up
>a time machine
any or all of the above
the first point is part of the reason i think i'm just a broken person doomed to being a background character.

>>82898723
this unfortunately, im only 23 but its gonna take years for me to figure out how to be a real person

>>82898405 (OP)
>When you make a lot of money?
Yes. My goals are specific yet reasonable.
>get a high paying career
>retirement before 50 or at 50

>>82898723
I'm you but 33, it doesn't get any better if you keep waiting to change unfortunately. Best of luck.

>>82898809
what did you do with your life ancient one?

I honestly just need to get this fuckass avpd bullshit out of the way, my loneliness is self inflicted and my anima is suffocated by my self hatred, I'm the only thing fettering myself to this condition of stasis and it pisses me off lowkey

>What would "complete" you, anon?
Idk I just need to fuck off of myself or something

>>82898827
Nothing, and that's the problem

>>82898574
>idk
indeed, you silly worm

>>82898809
Thanks. I tell myself that if I go live on my own, eventually I'll learn how to be an actual person, but I can't afford to do that for now. A logical step would be to get a higher paying job so I can afford a place. But even then that doesn't guarantee a fix for all the things I mentioned (and didn't mention)

>>82898405 (OP)
A feminist leftist woman who is willing to accept me for who I am and date me. Especially if she doesn't require sex (she can get that from other people, I'm not possessive). I want someone who will take me to museums and explain stuff to me, and read with me before we go to bed, and pet cats together, and go on exploring adventures together, and be emotionally supportive and loving together and grow together as people and care about the same causes and just have a nice thing together

But that's never going to happen

>>82898689
>I just don't want to be a disappointment to me mom anymore
Realest shit in the whole thread. Forgive me mama.

>>82898405 (OP)
>What would "complete" you, anon?
Super mentally fucked up slave fembot that I slowly reform into a useful human being

nothing, there is no hole and there is no me

>>82898924
This never works out tho, destiny did the same thing and his wife pair bonded with some zoomer retard. No matter how sigma you are, you're going to get cucked

>>82898960
>But that's never going to happen
>bro, did you know this never works out?
you just wanted to talk about e-celebs, right?

>>82898405 (OP)
When I can do what I want, when I want. Complete independence and freedom. This requires lots of money, there is no way around it. Money makes the world go round.

>>82898977
no i wanted to talk to you but now i feel bad for even trying. Fuck yourself

>>82898995
>Fuck yourself
hehe, how did you know I was about to jack off?

>>82898874
Yeah, I feel like improving the professional and material situation only comes after working on the mental blocks that got us into this situation in the first place. Even assuming I miraculously got a nice job and lived independently with no other changes; I'd still have all the other shit hanging over my brain and probably wouldn't respect myself anymore than I do. And realistic if I did want to improve my material situation I'd probably have to fix that shit first anyway; get some drive, get some willingness to take risk, etc.
It's an appealing step to take because it's logical and concrete, but unfortunately I think the stuff that's harder to fix is the stuff doing more harm. Sadly I still haven't found the answer for that.

>>82899023
Very well put, thanks for sharing. I wish the steps we needed to take were logical and concrete, some end-all, be-all formula that would get us out of this rut, but yeah mental health and personal growth aren't supposed to be easy I guess - at least not in the same way for everyone

>>82898960
>This never works out tho, destiny
Destiny is some freakish gremlin constantly getting involved in dumb toxic internet shit. He's not really proof of anything other than "why people should stop getting their politics from fucking streamers and why ecelebs are stupid and should be ignored"

Eceleb streamers could find a way to fuck up breathing air, doesn't mean people should stop trying to breath air

>>82898405 (OP)
unconditional love , someday?
i know its real because i feel it , but its s hard to find in other people

>>82898405 (OP)
all i need now is money, retard. i have a girlfriend i ejaculate inside of raw regularly, and they are fucking gnarly orgasms too

>>82898723
These are prime years for that sort of growth anon. I'm 28 too and I can almost feel my frontal lobe maturing again.


I would recommend you to start journalling about your desires, values, goals.

>>82899441
ugly incel, just relax with the reddit spacing

>>82898405 (OP)
>What would "complete" you
a childhood free from pedos and abuse
>What specific hole are you trying to fill
that one
>gf
>money
>respected by peers
a gf doesn't solve anything, money is nice but doesn't really address the issue, and I need to earn respect for myself rather than seek it in other people

>>82898405 (OP)
>What would "complete" you, anon?
to be quite honest i dont know because i dont even know whats wrong with me
im some trainwreck combination of loneliness, misogany, hate and yearning for love

my default answer is some kind of robot girl who acts like pic related and would spoil me with whatever fantasies i want. but to be quite honest? i dont know what i want or need

>What specific hole are you trying to fill?
again, i dont know. i just know its not good to be a virgin at 35 and that im missing out on something. i dont know what it is

>Will it all make sense when you finally have a gf?
im inclined to think it would make more sense

>When you make a lot of money?
i doubt it

>When you are respected by your peers?
i dont even want that

>>82899477
lmfao, incel cope. when's the last time you had your penis inside some vagina that wasn't your moms when you were born?

>>82898405 (OP)
Testing to see if I'm still IP Banned origigig

>>82899533
In June I think

>>82898405 (OP)
I need to be the best. At something, whatever it is.

>>82899779
Sorry to rain on your parade but if you are on 4chan you aren't going to be the best at anything, maybe being yourself. Best stop coming if you want to achieve greatness

>>82898405 (OP)
>fix my teeth
>move out comfortably
pretty sure i shake the house when i jerk off so ppl here just put up with it. i just want my own space but im so fucked up.

Hell if I know. In retrospect that probably could have worked.

>>82899790
I'm going to be the best at baitposting and farming (You)s on /r9k/, this is my niche of excellence

>>82898415
THIS!!! god so many theologies have gone over this. PEOPLE WILL NEVER STOP WANTING AND DESIRING

>>82899851
but I want big boobies in my mouth