Thread 82972474

I honestly think there is a solid argument that i am the most pathetic person here. Not the biggest failure by any means,not even close to that, just the biggest coward/wimp/pussy/pushover etc.
>5'3 50kg man
>white brit so already ingrained to apologise for everything no matter what and be a bitch
>clumsy and awkard as humanly possible fall over my own feet, pour beans on myself etc
>cant speak without stuttering and autist voice
>no friend group or anything really so barely talk other than to parents
>used to get bullied like properly, bloody noses pured boiling water etc.
>cant talk to people anymore without eyes watering
>started crying from someone laughing in public assuming theyre laughing at me
>cried in front of a teenage roadman then gave him money to go away
>only go outside now when its raining/dark out of fear
>then petrified of everyone and thing i see and the dark
>hide in my house and just sit here too scared to do anything on halloween as it is all horror
Like there has to be a point where i man up eventually, but at the moment i am absolutely failing.

>>82972474 (OP)
You're clearly mentally ill as fuck, go suck on them government titties for every penny you can robot.

>>82972474 (OP)
I'm guessing you had shitty parents? I did too

>>82972482
I have been told to do that before, but i didn't want to go see the goverment man because i heard they interogate you before hand and it might go wrong and then i am buggered.
>>82972485
Not really, they didnt pay much attention to me mainly preffered my older sister, but they never hit me or anything so i would say they were pretty good.

>>82972474 (OP)
>>5'3 50kg man
>>white brit so already ingrained to apologise for everything no matter what and be a bitch
That just sucks.
If was colored can pull out oppressed card.
But here? everyone is allowed to punch down on your.
Sad.

Where do you live, anon? Are you a virgin?

>>82972507
Yeah back then the indians and phillipinos would call me short whilst being the same height or only slightly taller, but then i would point it out they would call me racist and start shouting so i would start apologising and crying whilst they laughed, should have made me racist looking back.
>>82972508
england, yes, but i am not gay sorry anon.

>>82972542
Hypothetically, would you be open to your first time sharing a blonde female sub? (Zero male/male contact)

>>82972622
I am sorry i dont want to share i dont want to see anyone i am sorry i dont want to have sex i dont want to get a disease goodbye i am sorry for wasting your time.

>>82972474 (OP)
I know that feeling, it takes a toll on your mental health

I have no sympathy for white men, especially british white men. I got harassed by one long term all because I was a clingy orbiter to him. I shared my story here b4. People might recognize me.

Men always want to be the victim. I bet if a woman wanted you you would claim she's a stalker for flirting with you and turn her friends against her.

>>82972474 (OP)
The most pathetic people are the ones who can only live off of the misery of others. You know, parasites and sadists and whatnot. The kind of people who destroy good things out of their own narcissism.
Compared to them, youre alright.

>>82972646
You didn't waste my time, fren. I hope you get what you want.

same, except im an 6'1 american hapa who didnt necessarily get bullied, just never got socialized properly. its a lonely life fren.

>>82972496
>i didn't want to go see the goverment man because i heard they interogate you before hand and it might go wrong and then i am buggered
You will speak to professionals who are explicitly good at identifying mental disorders like yours, they'll expect you to spill your spaghetti. It's free money my guy go get it.

>>82972698
Im sorry i didnt mean to be rude i apologise
>>82972875
i get that but that is in itself scary theyll be able to know how i act who i am what if they laugh at me or hold me ransom or blackmail me or send me away or lock me up. you know

>>82972680
>>82972863
i am glad i am not the only one who sees it this way, but it does feel like that the majority of time everything is just not worth it it is too much risk constantly. too much danger.

>>82972926
>what if they laugh at me or hold me ransom or blackmail me or send me away or lock me up
The people who go into that kind of job tend to be extremely patient and understanding. Or at worst indifferent and just following procedure. Try talking to people on the internet who are similar to you and have undergone the process. FREE MONEY

>>82972474 (OP)
Im dumb ukrainian refugee with ocd and weak erection. Im also shy as fuck and dont think my future will be bright

>>82972474 (OP)
i am kind of like you op, i always cry and try to cower because im rather small and weak and i dont know how to do better for myself. i dont have much else to say besides im sorry lifes sucked so much for you and i hope it gets better.

>>82972975
okay i am sorry i will go i will see them. i dont really want to but i will. i do need money.

>>82972926
Hey mate, I'm going to the therapist lately sorting my shit out and you sound like you have massive generalised anxiety. You're getting caught up in a chain of what-ifs that isn't letting you live your life. Please get help so you can actually live without getting wrapped up in your own head, kay? You're gonna be alright, just be honest to the professionals. At worst they'll tell you they care when they don't. Unless you have people in your basement they won't lock you up or smth