Thread 83006431

i stay in my room all day, i barely eat, i cut myself everyday, im so fucking tired. i hate myself so much. all my suicide attempts have failed. ive lost all hope of getting better. my meds dont help me. this is so cringe im such a retard

Do you attend therapy, eat healthy, exercise, socialize, attend church, or read self help?

>>83006431 (OP)
50 bucks OP will transition within 6 months or have all ready began

>>83006431 (OP)
You need to sleep on a normal schedule (extremely important) and leave the house every day then you can build up to getting a job/going to school. You will need a healthy routine to keep you on track. If your mental health issues are mostly related to environmental (likely if meds dont work) this will be the thing to help you turn it around.

>>83006431 (OP)
>cut myself everyday
Post it with timestamp

>>83006464
Also make plans for the future the most cool out there you can think of. If you can save up like $10,000 you can go to a foreign country like japan for like 6 months and get the visa through a language school. Just make a plan like this for whatever would excite you and do that.

no i rot in my room all day the outside world is too scary

>>83006431 (OP)
Get a boyfriend. If you're a guy you'll have to transition. I'll be your bf. I will fix you.

>>83006442
ive been attending therapy since i was 13 it doesnt help

>>83006431 (OP)
im a girl and no

>>83006608
im a girl and no thanks ;_;

>>83006730
yeah because you lie and try not to get in trouble like a dumbass kid

take life seriously

>>83006843
i dont lie it just seriously hasnt helped me at all. im in the process of being transferred to a different psychiatrist

>>83006431 (OP)
i don't get it, what do you keep cutting yourself on? what's going on in your room

>>83006886
psychiatrists are not therapists

I see you dodged the other questions here >>83006442
Pro tip you gotta collect em all nigger

>>83006957

it feels nice and im addicted to it. i cant stop doing it

>>83007024
i'm not sure what you're talking about. if i cut myself on something i would take that thing out of the room, or i would learn to avoid it.

>>83006971
im retarded okay i messed them up. i dont do any of the others i rot in my room all day everyday.

>> 83007029

razors. whenever i want to quit i throw them out but i always get new ones because i cant stop doing it

>>83007029
razors. whenever i want to quit i throw them out but i always get new ones because i cant stop doing

>>83006431 (OP)
this but without meds or suicide attempts. im going to splatter myself at 21 if i cant get things figured out LOL!

>>83006837
Why cry? I'll be a very loving bf. I'll make you happy

>>83006470
not op but ill post because im an attention whore
>mostly just dried blood and superficial scratches, itll look less shitty once i wash my arm

>>83007919
>moid arm
Nice but I can't get off on that

>>83007926
>Nice but I can't get off on that
Jerk off to guys then faggot

>>83007931
Are you claiming to be female? I don't get it.

>>83007945
>Are you claiming to be female? I don't get it.
Im telling you to jerk off to men and men kissing. I am a big wonderful man and I want to see you kiss another man on the lips.

>>83007983
No thank you that sounds too gay for me

Why do people even cut themselves in the first place, just stop being depressed lol

>>83008002
>just stop being depressed lol
Kys normie faggot

>>83007919
looks so yummy i love ur cuts :3

>> 83007878
no i dont want a 4chan bf

am i the only one who finds it hard to take cutting addictions seriously? alongside porn addiction, like with drugs you atleast get some physical withdrawal, cutting/porn addictions are just a form of a weak will

>>83008089
Why not? What other kind of bf are you going to get?

>>83007919
I can't wait until I can get out of the house and cut myself wherever I want without getting threatened with the psych ward or some dumb bullshit

>>83008074
person who posted the cuts, i assume fetishizing this is probably a bad idea (not gonna stop me from cutting anyways!)

>>83008109
i dont want one :3 fictional characters are better than real human beings

>>83008126
I worry that my family or a coworker will see this shit. Soon i need to go out and buy more longsleeve shirts.

>>83008148
I'm basically a fictional character and we'll never meet!

>>83008152
yeah! i dont own any short sleeve shirts anymore because my arm is filled with cuts x3 summer is pretty rough tho! you can also cut on ur thighs or legs.

>>83008174
Ive considered cutting my thighs/legs, but i hate seeing myself below the waist. Its mostly more convenient to work on my arm than it is anywhere else especially because i typically wear jeans.

>>83008156
humans can never compare to fictional characters T_T

>>83008200
You've never met this human, you'd love me. You'd adore me. You'd wonder how you lived without me.

>>83006431 (OP)
Oh wow, that's tough. Body count?

>>83008198
fair enough :3 i also cut on my stomach and shoulders since you cant ever seen them. its perfect for hiding

>>83008200
>humans can never compare to fictional characters T_T

Counterargument for the fun of it: A fictional character could never match the depth or wonder of a real human. A tree without roots, hollowed out and its leaves now plastic.

>>83008152
My family is psycho when it comes to self harm, they freak the fuck out so I barely try anywhere visible

>>83008211
shut up faggot stop being desperate:p

>>83008225
Ill have to consider what other parts of my body have available space. Thank you for the ideas.

>>83008229
You plan out better than i do. I really should stop cutting myself though haha!

>>83008237
My love and adoration for you makes me desperate. I feel like I'm not even alive if I'm not with you.

>>83008213

0 !!!! i never go outside and i have no friends

>>83008261
So ive heard. I need to properly disinfect the nicked out razorblade im using, but i try to clean my wounds with soap and warm water afterward. It seems to do the trick.

>>83008238
of course! be careful when cutting and make sure to clean them afterwards ^.^ infections are a pain in the ass .. seriously.. i would know ;_;

>>83008244
I don't want to stop or care to. Its not an addiction or cope for me though so maybe thats why. Masochistic kink or something like that, I like them on me and others

>>83008248
>0
NTA but I withdraw my offer to be your bf. All my love and adoration for you has been extinguished.

>>83008246
ur so retarded LOL

>>83008292
It's ogre, I lost all interest. I feel so empty now. Why have you done this to me?

>>83008284
Its mostly cope for me. I pray someone notices and saves me from my own mental pit but at the same time, i hope to God nobody except meaningless online strangers ever have to hear about my whining and moaning.

>>83008248
>0 !!!!
Uuuh...
What do you like to do in your spare time, nonny?

>>83008286
oh thank god for that !!

>>83008298
i rot in my room, cut, cry, read manga, scroll through reddit or 4chan, watch anime, play video games and talk to retards on discord :p

>>83008299
You were perfect right up until I learned the horrible truth. I thought you had a bodycount. I thought you were the one. There is no god, life is suffering, I am in hell. All my feelings, all my dedication and love, all lost in an instant. I am crying.

>>83008297
What does being saved look like? Realistically. Obviously being taken in by someone giving you free love and housing is the best outcome but it doesn't really work that way.

>>83008315
Do you have no job/ school? How do you afford shelter? If you live with your parents do they just not care?

>83008296
cut urself

>>83008326
I prefer to watch and help clean up, not do it myself

>>83008320
Good question.
My conceptualization of it is mostly just someone who sits down with me, maybe takes me into their arms and accepts the nightmare that i am while guiding me out of my own head. Someone who I can love and give to in reperation for taking me away and fixing me. Its a horribly selfish fantasy and i feel bad every time I really question it, but oh well.

>>83008315
Where do you live? I finally found someone with pair bonding.
Also, what's your favourite manga? I recently re-read Kazuichi Hanawa's Doing Time because the Japanese jail menu looks good. I recommend it, have in my collection since I was a teen.

>>83008315
drop out, ive always with my mum and shes trying to help me with my life. i recently just got back from the psych ward + im still a minor

>im still a minor
Oh, now I understand the body count.
You are getting banned soon probably, so enjoy the manga.

>>83008328
aw thats so romantic :3

>>83008365
You should get off this site anon

>>83008365
ehh i dont want to ^_^

>>83008365
guy who posted the pic of my arm all fucked up, i agree with the other anon, it seems super unhealthy to stay on this site lol!

>>83008365
I've been here since 11, I'm 26 now. Complete loser Incel. Leave before it's too late. They are right.

>>83008389
obviously its super unhealthy but i like it on here :p im already super fucked up and dont really care about anything anymore

>>83008401
Fair, but at the very least consider re-evaluating your ideas of romance. I dont think i could ever watch someone I love hurt themselves. Probably just because I am a wimp but whatever.

>>83008395
I like it here because i can relate to all the fucked up here, i dont feel as alone

>>83008413
i want my future partner to cut me

>>83008419
I post here because its easier to tell strangers im completely fucked and still hurting myself than it is to tell my friends.

>>83008436
i get u .. never tell ur friends desu ;_;

>>83008436
you post here because you want validation on how much of a fuck up you are without realising your partaking in the exact stuff that is fucking up your life, staying inside and being a loser isnt fucking up your life, loads of people recover from that and live a normal life, seeking validation on how much of a fuck up you are is what is ruining it, nona. you will learn this the hard way when your grown up if you do not catch on now

desu* ignore my retarded ass

>>83008482
i dont want to live and grow up x33 ive tried to kms plenty of times but always end up living. one day itll work .. T_T

>>83008482
the validation is what keeps you in this cycle too isnt it nona? seeking attention online from your issues makes you feel they are real and to be taken seriously
im sorry your parents dont give you any form of validation, you deserve people who care about you but i will say this now. if nobody else cares about you in the moment now, you should be the one to care, even if you see no point now, you will not be a depressed teenager alone in your room forever and nobody will appear from the shadows to fix your life, life isnt like that.

>>83008482
Already grown up! Ive fucked up hard and I cant bear to look my coworkers into the eyes because I can feel they know how pathetic i am.

>>83008513
you can wrap yourself in layers of "ill just kill myself!" but we both know you wont kill yourself, you will reach the ages you say you will kill yourself at and watch them go by. its always the same, so listen to my advice and actually think about it nona because it will save you a hard life in the future.

>>83008513
ill be dead in like a year who cares

>>83008538
this makes me want to kill myself even more thank you for the inspiration ^_^

>>83008542
I plan on killing myself after my next birthday if I cant lock down and figure something out. Ive started running out of excuses to keep living, and even with all the stupid bullshit i buy i feel more empty.

>>83008554
i get you life sucks man, i also tried killing myself on my birthday last year ;_;

>>83008590
Any specific reason for doing so, or was it mostly a vague amalgamation.

i just wanted to kill myself on my birthday but it didnt really work i just ended up passing out for a few hours so thats cringe T_T

>>83008678
Fair i suppose. I figure if i get a good enough tool I can open up my wrists enough to bleed out. I considered using a rifle to kill myself but it feels too vulgar and messy. I feel fucked up romanticizing the idea of killing myself.

>>83008694
i also want to get a gun and shoot myself but i have no way of getting one. im planning of jumping itll be quick. i also dont recommend overdose its too fucking painful when you fail T_T

>>83008720
I already own three rifles. Maybe if it gets bad enough ill use them to kill myself. Closest I got to killing myself was driving out an hour to a bridge. I got cold feet at the last minute and instead cried in my car.

can you guys at least try not to sound so pretentious, its like you idolize wanting to kill yourself instead of actually being suicidal, half ass attempts are hardly able to be called attempts at all. Do you even attempt to help yourself even a little bit? It just sounds like you're using every excuse in the book to stay mentally ill which is ridiculous

three?! ahh.. so jealous x3 i also have a spot in mind for a place i want to jump from. its a high building. if my meds dont start working im gonna do it finally.. one last chance !!! :3 are u taking any meds?

>>83008552
we both know you wont nona, the validation online will not fill that void of real affection inside of you

people who genuinely want to kill themselves dont broadcast it for the outside world for validation on how fucked up in the head they are because they already know what they are, they dont need other people to validate their issues. you will adapt when you get older whether you want it or not, i wish u a good life nona and u will be better even if you are so hellbent on seeing yourself as scum

>>83008840
this is my coping mechanism:p i dont care about validation i cope with joking about my shitty life. i really dont care about what u think ^_^

>>83008829
^^^, it makes my blood boil because theres people who actually suffer through life and nobody will hear about it until you see the orbituary

and you've got retards like this who are merely a product of the internet and parental neglect fucking their own lives over because they romanticise the idea of being a le quirky 4chan loser girl and the idea of responsibility is too much for a le heckin chungus like them

>>83008858
We all know you clearly do. You sound so pretentious about wanting to suffer its disgusting

>>83008858
if you dont care why are you here then telling us all about how fucked in the head you are? why are you whining online about how you have no friends and how you wanna kill yourself? your not joking at all, thats just a cop out for not being able to rebuttal anything im saying because deep down you know I am right nona

>>83008879
im gonna cut myself for u <3 thank you for caring about me so much :p

>>83008887
do it , it makes no difference to me i cant stop you being a fuck up, i can just merely warn you then watch the car crash into the wall

>>83008913
make sure to go vertically across your vein if you want the results you oh so crave aswell nona

>>83009819
oh youre so sweet thank you for the advice.. :3 <33

people always wanna talk about "oh im gonna kill myself" but they never do
OP you'll continue to tell yourself you'll kill yourself; you never will
enjoy living!