Thread 83029168

finally touched down here from my spaceship, im so tired of being alive but theres enough people that are gonna be sad if im gone. ive turned hikkikomori atp for the last 3 years and idk what to do anymore. should i kms or should i try to make a video game or what? context, im a 23 yr single female and i sometimes spend time with my roomate, but my other roomate hates me. i barely go outside. i exercise a little but my stupid autistic self makes it so i cant fucking talk to people.

>>83029168 (OP)
>roommate
>hikki
idk about that

>>83029168 (OP)
bend over and touch your bussy

>>83029168 (OP)
last time you showered?

>>83029168 (OP)
>or should i try to make a video game
What kind of game do you want to make?

real life isn't Welcome to the NHK, nobody will care about your video game.

go outside and get a job, or wallow in misery with us forever. some of us are in our 30s, you know.

like 4 days ago, i cant remember, i dont have windows in my room so time feels weird

>>83029202
>i dont have windows in my room
That's not up to code. Sue someone.

>>83029174
its possible. not op but my parents kicked me out for being hikki so now i do internet surveys and stuff to make money and live in an apartment with roommates. i have no savings though, i always scrape by. so its not exactly sustainable, but its doable

>>83029191
something like a vn or an rpgmaker game, imm okay at writing, and i know some artists online, and i guess if i try hard enough to reach out i can try to get them to work with me.

>>83029168 (OP)
watch welcome to the nhk

>>83029202
Pro tip: click on someone's post number to reply to them
Also I want to smell your stinky panties please tell me they have stains

>>83029214
If my parents kicked me out I would die. I can not function with roommates. It's impossible.
How do you make enough on surveys to pay rent?

>>83029174
i met them in highschool, and they agreed to move in with me before the hikki really set in. before that i was in college but i dropped out

>>83029202
Sue, or threat to, whoever is in charge, having no windows is illegal.

>>83029234
Where do you get money from? Why did you drop out? Do you know how to make a videogame?

>>83029220
someone online recommended it to me once, i still havent watched it, but it sounds interesting, the main character looks cool,,

>>83029196
>real life isn't Welcome to the NHK, nobody will care about your video game.

uh but nobody cared about their videogame in welcome to the nhk.... real life is welcome to the nhk???

>>83029240
my parents died when i was in highschool so i still have money left over from them. i know they wanted me to save it for like, a wedding or a house or a car when i grew up, but now i just use it for rent and buying anime merch sometimes

>>83029254
I'm sure they'd be fine with that. Why did you drop out and do you know how to make a video game?

>>83029238
its more like i used to have windows, but then i fought with the other roomate, and so i had to move to another area in the apartment thats more like a side storage area, and so i dont have a door, just a curtain i put up. thats why no windows.

>>83029233
its a combination of surveys, reddit r/slavelabour listings (only thing i use the site for), and other misc online work like clickworker and captioning. my share is only about 650 dollars, if i can just make that then im fine. i can usually scrape by eating random food that my roomates forget about like plain white rice here or a carrot there ect.

>>83029279
That sounds miserable anon

>>83029243
it'll hit you right in the guts, we've all been there, i am a neet right now though not a hikki, also avoid spoilers at all costs

>>83029258
i dropped out because after my parents died i didnt have anyone and i just didnt know how to live on and take care of myself all alone, i dont have any other family since my parents cut them off when i was young. ive spent enough time online to know how to run ren'py and game programs like that, as a hobby, i just never took the plunge because i thought whatever i made would be too dogshit.

>>83029279
wouldn't it be better just to be homeless at that point

>>83029279
thats pretty similar to me, roomate knows i barely eats and they work a chill job so they have enough to sometimes make food and give me a portion.

>>83029251
i mean there was feasibly a point where you could take a physical disc to Comiket and you COULD be the next Touhou. people going stall-to-stall might buy your game, same way people buy artwork, plushies, etc at conventions.

nowadays there's an endless glut of indie games on Steam. even if game development was OP's lifelong passion, she'd have more luck becoming a famous rockstar or one of the top OnlyFans earners.

>>83029271
Then you're paying rent for not even sleeping in a room, which is worse. Take a few pictures and videos of it and sue, you'll get something out of it at the very least

>>83029288
the most ive been spoiled is that theres a really cute otaku guy with glasses in the show, and im a sucker for creepy otaku glasses boys,,,

>>83029291
Being alone is really hard. You could try making a game and listing it on steam, you could get lucky there. You'd be better off trying to get a job if that's possible at all. Are you able to leave the house at all?

>>83029311
wont it still be my fault since i chose to stay in the room? i technically caused the argument that got me kicked from the room, and theres nothing saying i cant sleep in that room... it gets moldy since the ventilation is real bad, so i had to replace my futon, but its not too bad once i got a cheap humidifier

>>83029304
yeah its even harder now but I dont get why you brought up welcome to the nhk since the whole point in it was how he failed at selling his game or finding any glamorous way out and got a shity minimum wage manual labor job

>>83029325
OP are you a real person in a real situation? You seriously need someone to just tell you what to do because that's all ridiculous.

>>83029316
i can on rare occasion as long as i have my roomate with me, mostly to do things like pick up groceries once a month or maybe get fast food at 1 am since they work night shifts. i think i might try making the game, since i have a few ideas, maybe try itchio since its chiller for indie devs

>>83029312
well i dunno if he's cute but i ain't a girl either so. whatever just watch it and enjoy it

>>83029340
itchio is a great plan. Even if it doesn't sell, it'll be nice to make a game. You should try leaving the house more to get used to it, getting an in-person job might be necessary for you at some point.

>>83029334
i was raised super sheltered, so its hard for me to have opinions sometimes, im trying to get better, but i was mostly just taught to do what my parents say so i didnt get yelled at. anyways, i plan on moving soon, so things will hopefully get better about the living situation soon.

>>83029325
It doesn't matter, you're pretty much sleeping in a storage room

>there's nothing saying i can't sleep in that room

Did you know you have rights? Constitution says you do!

>>83029356
Where and how are you moving? Do you want someone to help you out with advice?

>>83029360
>Did you know you have rights? Constitution says you do!

i don't think OP has that level of agency/capacity. she seems dependent at best, considerably...slow at worst.

>>83029334
I'm in a similar situation to OP, saved only by the fact that I have a sibling I'm leeching off of.
It's entirely possible. I have some weird as fuck anxiety about opening my email accounts even, which should make no sense as it's not like I have a real spam problem or anyone trying to contact me.

My diet consists of bread, eggs, tuna, rice, beans, milk. Rarely pb+j or whatever meat or other items are on sale / about to be thrown away. It's not too bad I think, but everyone I tell my life to looks at me with pity.

>>83029340
If it's NSFW itch won't list it publicly and you'll have to market it yourself.
I don't really play non NSFW games so can't help you out besides that.

>>83029360
You don't really understand their position / mindset. Avoiding the drama / confrontation takes higher precedence over sleeping arrangements.

>>83029363
i have some other friends from highschool that i still talk to that are willing to let me live with them to get out of the bad situation im in with the current roomate, so hopefully she wont be mad at me anymore if im not bothering her by living in the same space as her. i moved once before for college a few years ago so i mostly know how to do it

>>83029373
That's good. I meant life advice, not just on moving. You seem to be having a hard time with everything.

>>83029368
oh yeah i have autism, its high functioning enough that i was really good at school as a teen, but once i had to be on my own i didnt know how to take care of myself. i know im stupid but hey, at least im self aware lol

>>83029373
>so hopefully she wont be mad at me anymore if im not bothering her by living in the same space as her.
I'm not the roommate obviously, but in my experiences, the anger is due to a specific thing done, and moving out only solidifies it.
They're not upset at you for existing in their space, but at actions X or Y, and moving out with addressing those actions will lend them to settle their mind on "wow, so they would rather move out and leave rather than repair this issue between us, I see how it is".
It's not like you're some autist who can't resist clapping their hands and belly laughing while watching magical girl anime at 3am.

>>83029376
well i mean yeah, life fucking sucks and i wanna die all the time, i went to the hospital for it once and had to stay in a ward but after i got out things didnt really get better

>>83029370
>You don't really understand their position

Well i dunno maybe she could get one of her friends to help her with it or something, I'm saying it because she could easily win and get some money out of it

>>83029395
Do you have people you can talk to about that?

>>83029393
*moving out WITHOUT addressing those actions / issues
hell of a typo lol

>>83029404
i tried to work it out but she said she just wants me to leave her alone and stop trying to talk to her. so i did, since i didnt wanna disrespect her more

>>83029398
From what it sounds like, even if they have a contract with the landlord, they're basically ditching the room of their own volition to avoid the uncomfy feels of the roommate situation. Which is not covered at all under any legal sense. If the roommate was forcing her away from the room, that would be one thing, but "I don't want to deal with this awkwardness / situation, I'll sleep on the couch" == nothing to do.
I don't know the whole situation either of course, but it sounds more so like she's running from her own mind's conclusions, rather than an issue that exists in the external world.

>>83029416
Yeah, sure, but "leaving her alone" doesn't mean "abandon your rightful living space".
If you were to take it a step further you would be holing yourself up, afraid to step out to use the bathroom, for fear of offending her eyes with your lowly presence.
While you're half of the problem here, she's the other half. Go back to your room, and pull the curtain up there instead. Sometimes its for the best that people enforce their boundaries, e.g. a bully gets his shit slapped is better for the bully than having everyone bow down to him. I'm obviously not saying to be hostile or slap her, just enforce what's rightfully yours (living space).
Especially because your taking up some spot in the living room is depriving living room space to everyone else (or wherever it is if not the living room).

>>83029370
first one i make would probably sfw, but i think making nsfw games could be fun too, i like eroge as much as the next otaku lol

>>83029168 (OP)
You are an autistic 23 yo female.
You could have an army of men that would want you to be their wife and provide for you. You could be stay at home if you want to stay hikki.