Thread 83037835

I can't take it anymore. I'm completely and utterly alone in the darkness. I feel like someone is always just out of sight, speaking to me. The voice changes but the message doesn't. The voice is unbearably loud. It's hard to concentrate. I find myself talking back to it, yelling at it. But it just keeps shouting. And shouting. And shouting. My heart pounds and I'm sweating, even though there's nothing there. I can't take it anymore. My anxiety is has become too painful and unendurable. I'm nearly broke and gonna be homeless and freeze to death soon.

I have about 2.5k left in my bank account I would like to divest myself of before I kill myself. Does anyone want it? I will redistribute it equally among whoever wants it, I do not care if you are male or female. My only wish is that I hope you can use it for something useful, I would like to give it to someone that genuinely needs it.

>>83037835 (OP)
anon please seek psychiatric care. go to your family if you can. im sorry you're hurting like this but life can change. you can live and get better. i love you. please.

>>83037835 (OP)
You do roblox giftcards?

>>83037835 (OP)
Yes do you have cashapp or what

>>83037858
>anon please seek psychiatric care. go to your family if you can. im sorry you're hurting like this but life can change. you can live and get better. i love you. please.
I saw my psychiatrist today. I can't even afford my anxiety meds. They told me to go back to the family doctor who referred me, I'm gonna be without it for another month at least. I have been to the psych ward like 4 times and I can tell you that they neither give a shit or really help people like me, its just temporary prison to stop me from killing myself. I bought some alcohol And you don't love me. I am pixels on a computer. I don't have a family who cares about me. They kicked me out when I was 17 and I am (literally) blocked by my mom and basically ignored by my dad. I am alone in the darkness.

Anyways, do you want the money or not. I really want out of this place.

I don't think this is a sad occasion. I think death for some people is like a form of catharsis or freedom.

>>83037835 (OP)
Why don't you just buy antipsychotics?

>>83037835 (OP)
i could use $25 for a new phone case, mine's busted up
amazon ig
you don't have to though
kfsawfish@yahoo.com
hope things get better but im not gonna pretend like they will, shits rough

>>83037885
I do not but I can install it.
>>83037876
You can redeem the money in whatever form you want. Whether its monero or cashapp or paypal, just get on the list and 2.5k/whatever number of people will be yours.

>>83037835 (OP)
No haha I definitely don't need 2.5k if you need some let me know

>>83037887
There are sites you can buy the meds cheaper online. Including antipsychotics which sounds like what you actually need, not anti anxiety.

>>83037835 (OP)
Do you give out crypto? I can give you my wallet I take sol, eth and bnb.

>>83037887
please just hold on. im really sorry, i know these things must be like a stone on your chest keeping you from breathing. is there anything i can do to help? i dont want the money, i just want you to be alright anon. i care for you. we're all brothers on this earth.

>>83037835 (OP)
can you buy me arma reforged on steam, anon?
or black souls? i wanna just farm hours on it

>>83037899
Whats your discord? ill send it there

moid i think you need a hug . . .

Do you do XMR or BTC, nonny?
How will you be catching the bus? Sodium Nitrite/Azide stop, Exit Bag stop?

>>83037932
shut up bitch, you know damn well you wouldn't be saying this shit if i was the one about to kill myself you fucking whore

>>83037835 (OP)
>picrel
What kind of a retard thinks that's a good idea. Anyways OP you sound like a faggot

>>83037890
I sent you $25. Can you confirm it to show the other anons I am not trolling. Enjoy your new phone case anon.
The answer to the security question is 'r9k' in case it wasn't obvious.

>>83037904
I don't know how to buy drugs online but I definitely know it isn't cheaper than legal meds, besides meds don't help anyways, if access to psychiatrist is the least of the reasons I am suicidal. I just want to die. Nobody will miss me. And I am already on Seroquil I just can't take it anymore. Every day is a nightmare. I need eternal sleep.

>>83037908
Hold onto what? There's nothing to hold onto. I'm gonna blink, and you're gonna be gone. Just noise drifting in the wind. You're just gonna block or ghost me like everyone else anyways. Why don't you just take the free money?

>>83037912
Post your steam I'll send you a giftcard

Can I get it OP, I could use that to repair my car. I need it to get to work pls

>>83037932
Too bad hugs don't go through cyberspace. I wish I had someone rather than no one. I really do. All there are kind yet empty words and broken promises.

>>83037965
>ghost
do you mean "ghost" as in not be there for you 24/7 or what?

>>83037965
>Post your steam I'll send you a giftcard
https://steamcommunity.com/id/_Squidman_/
honestly wish i had a card or something, emergnecy cash incase my family needs it would acutally be helpful since im a dirty neet and dont work and just leach off family and only got 2 dollars in my wallet

>>83037978
No like block me like the last one who spoke like you.

>>83037965
Just a free word of advice, if you're manic right now, I would think twice giving all your money away. It's not for sure you'll go through with it... At least spend them on yourself, and have a blast of a night or something.

>>83037993
I am not bipolar. I'm just tired of being alive. I have crippling anxiety and bad person disorder. I did buy myself some alcohol to self medicate earlier. I just want to be useful to some people before I die.

>>83037835 (OP)
man...
is there no way to convince you to keep trying, anon? the day is darkest just before dawn
i'd trade all the money in the world for your life and still think it was a bargain, our time and lives here are the most precious of resources

have you thought about using this money to go somewhere really far and getting into a mental ward there? would that even work? hmm...

>>83037835 (OP)
My cat needs surgery can you give it to me?

>>83037835 (OP)
First of all

I'm actually poor and living out of my car and idk how long I'm going to last (could make it through the winter but my car is making some horrid rattling sounds and it probably needs work and idk if I can afford it) so if you are dead set on giving money away, I genuinely need it

But honestly please don't kill yourself, things can get better and death really sucks and things will probably work out for me somehow maybe

>>83037965
>I sent you $25. Can you confirm it to show the other anons I am not trolling. Enjoy your new phone case anon.
>The answer to the security question is 'r9k' in case it wasn't obvious
Thanks anon, I'm not in Canada though. But you weren't lying. You can go ahead and cancel that transfer if you want; I can't use it here in the US.

>>83038001
Can anyone who is interested just add me on discord?
I don't know who is who. If the list keeps on growing then I will just split it equally among everyone interested.

echo_z7j6u

>>83037965
>I don't know how to buy drugs online but I definitely know it isn't cheaper than legal meds
It can be, unless you're well insured. Which you apparently aren't.
If you're really so intent on this and I can't stop you, then this should be a Monero/XMR address you can send whatever you like to.

89tBeXYYVFLH8pxAJw2Ciobd46ALci3EG3p6JwzmcjZPARaZrgECrRmNrfLdkch45i1ZZYhWcC2rD4vcRgF9sv4J9o66Gse

>>83038007
Certainly.
I gave 2k a few months ago to a girl who's dog got a disease. I think that would be really meaningful. How old is your cat?

>>83038010
I don't have much I could give you, 2.5k split over god knows how many people isn't exactly enough to turn a life around but I could give you whatever I can spare. I'm just tired of being alive. I think my life is a form a spiritual prison.

>>83038019
Why don't you make a cashapp account of whatever? Also I didn't realize this would doxx me, well whatever. Who cares.

>>83038038
do you want me to draw something in ur honor anon?

>>83038047
What would you draw?

>>83037944
i dont even know you anon, i dont even know OP. you're just getting mad over nothing.

>>83038059
idk im not sure what ur like or how you plan to kys
maybe just a man whos at peace eventho hes being screamed at by voices

>>83037835 (OP)
You need help OP, please stop sending your money to these people. They don't care about you, this is so heartbreaking

don't give these cock suckers any money OP. save up and try to get out of your rut. reach out to someone who knows you.

>>83037835 (OP)
It's hard, anon. It sucks. And I know you feel like there is no way out.
But there is. There always is a way out. Maybe not today or tomorrow. But there is joy to be had in your life.
Pain, sadness, sorrow, are all part of life. Maybe it feels like it's all there is, but I promise there is also joy, pleasure, beauty.
Use that money to take care of yourself. Please anon. There is good for you out there.

>>83038071
Nobody cares about me. You don't care about me either. They care about me because I have something I want. If I didn't have something they want I would be no one. I'm tired of being no one. I don't want the money anyways. If I didn't have money, they wouldn't talk to me at all. No one cares about me.

>>83038038
Nobody's gonna fuck with you with your name don't worry about that. Have you tried antipsychotics before. Does seem odd you never did.

>>83038090
I do care about you. Please don't do this. Are you at University of Waterloo?

>>83038065
if you want a suggestion, then draw a OP being screamed at by the voices, but add in a bunch of green anons in suits beating the shit out of those voices, shooing them away from OP

>>83038090
don't be too sure about that, anon
some of us here care very easily and for no good reason, just because you think we don't doesn't mean we truly don't
just give us the benefit of the doubt

>>83038091
I have been on lithium and high doses of seroquil both despite not having schizophrenia just as mood stabilizers, it doesn't help with my crippling anxiety and lack of human connection however.

>>83037835 (OP)
buy $2500 worth of drugs and/or booze and go on a heroic one last bender before the ender

>>83038110
>don't be too sure about that, anon
>some of us here care very easily and for no good reason, just because you think we don't doesn't mean we truly don't
>just give us the benefit of the doubt
The last person I talked to said the same thing until she was in a bad mood and split on me and told me to kill myself. I am now blocked on all accounts. I am tired of living for illusions, but my discord is there. I don't have much to discuss. Its not like I'm in a good spot anyways, if I keep my money I'll be homeless and freeze to death soon anyways.

>>83038117
Oh I missed that sorry. It's possible a different med would work better for you but I understand hallucinations from anxiety.

>>83037934
Anyways, if you do XMR, this is my address.

82e39tZMfEMMmZmNC1zMduAvcYyyveEmo1iCy2rY6d6zMww7u7mqZCjPSjHLS62fx14uFBy5NAWLT4Fkcny8ofa4UjQGvnd

>>83038135
OP, do you live with your family or roommates right now?

>>83038135
>I am tired of living for illusions
then again, what reason do we have to lie to you anyway? we're just fellow anons who sympathize for each other
we may whine a lot but we don't really like seeing each other an hero

i'm sorry you went through bad experiences, i really am
i don't really have much to discuss either but if you talk, i'll hear you out
how about an email? write and i'll reply as soon as i'm able, deadbatteries598 at proton dot me

>I'll be homeless and freeze to death soon anyways.
for a man with nothing to lose, can't you seek shelter in a warmer state? like i said, keep the money, go on a trip somewhere, try to find a shelter for homeless people or a mental ward and check in, would that work?

>>83037934
I'm not doing anything crazy like that. I am going to jump from a very large height onto concrete. I am not a physicist but I don't think I have any chance of survival.

>>83038142
I'm honestly not that proficient with this though I will take a look at this thread after to see everyone who applied for my money. I would prefer if you're serious that you install cashapp or whatever, though I will go through the trouble of converting some money to XMR or whatever if enough people post their addresses.

>>83037835 (OP)
>I feel like someone is always just out of sight, speaking to me.
>The voice changes but the message doesn't.
>The voice is unbearably loud.
>It's hard to concentrate.
>I find myself talking back to it, yelling at it.
>But it just keeps shouting. And shouting. And shouting
that was my guardian angel when i was doing really bad things anon, he/she (still unsure of gender) was very mad at me and wanted (still does) me to succeed
somehow the voices got through to me
i listened instead of yelling/arguing/fighting back as i had been doing
then i completely changed for the better and my life is so different than before
and i used to think about suicide daily, for years

>>83038001
you still can but not if you end it all
im sure you have some wonderful (maybe misunderstood?) god given gifts

>>83038178
I don't think you want to lie to me. I just think you're gonna hurt me anyways because that's how it always ends with people on this site. You are all chasing fantasy, but I don't mind indulging you if you want.

>>83038038
Hes around 6 years old, but I think its too late, everywhere is closed, I dont have money, and he is being horrifically quiet, I think im just going to hold him the entire night, good night yall

>>83038200
Nobody wants my gifts. They just want money. This thread is a perfect example. I've been here for over a decade. Nobody even knew I was here. Offer money, and they come like birds flocking to bread. It's intoxicating being wanted, even if its not for who I am. But that's the best I can get before I die.

>>83038201
nah, if a little company will do you any good, i'm happy to provide
some awful memes, some shower thoughts, if you ever feel like it, i'll reply always
i absolutely fucking hate leaving people on read so ghosting anyone is out of the question, though if you want me to, i'll also check in with you from time to time

people sure can be awful though, i get that. i don't blame you.
i'm not sure which fantasy you think i'm chasing, but i will try my best to befriend you if you'd like, if you think it'd help

>>83037835 (OP)
>edgy pic
maybe you should go through with it

>>83038256
So do you want my money or not?

>>83038060
STFU BITCH I HOPE YOU FUCKING DIE

>>83038182
>I would prefer if you're serious that you install cashapp or whatever,
I'll try to get PayPal going, CashApp isn't available in my third world shithole.

>>83038182
If you want to send Monero you should be able to just buy it for the given addresses, but most places require id verification. If that's a pain in the ass you might be able to use something on kycnot.me or localcoinswap.

>>83038225
i bet you have a kind and beautiful heart anon, normally the broken and hurt ones do (thats a gift)
and i see half the anons here trying to talk you out of it too, we dont care about your money
being broken, and autistic myself has been a very challenging journey and I almost did it countless times in various ways
i'm alone, very alone, but i have peace, and God, and anonymous (20+ years here off and on, since world of warcraft was released)
no one knows me either, and thats alright with me..and yeah, (you)'s can be addictive
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wZv1fTFYGSQ

>>83038333
I am emotional sensitive for sure. That's why the world is so agonizing along with a variety of different personal reasons. I'm glad you were able to escape. I am not.

>>83037835 (OP)
i am a turd worlder latin american i make 100 dollars a month working 12 hours and i would feel disgusted at myself if i asked you for money anon
i hope you get help man dont kill yourself

>>83038225
The money thing makes it seem more serious that you are going to commit to the suicide.
So people flock here to stop you.
There are also some that want money. I was also thinking that I wanted some, but I have decided I don't need it and it would be pathetic and immoral to try and get some.

Find a personal use for that money, anon.
Buy something luxurious. Travel somewhere. Buy drugs. Buy a gun. Gamble it away. Have fun.
If you're really committed to death that is.
If not, you maybe throwing away your life line.

How are you living right now? Are you neeting on these 2.5K funds?
Have you shut yourself inside of your house?

>>83038351
I am dead serious.
I have no idea why anyone cares. These people never cared about me in life, why would they care if it ends? I am happy that people want my money, it makes me feel a bit useful, I don't really want the money anyways.

>>83038347
it took time, and not killing myself
listen to that song, illenium is for people like us

have you ever prayed to the universe and asked for help?
or asked those voices, the presences you sense, why and listened?

>>83038398
>have you ever prayed to the universe and asked for help?
>or asked those voices, the presences you sense, why and listened?
I did countless times. I cry out to the heavens, asking for help. Today I prayed that someone would give me a hug or god would send me a sign. There is no answer as usual. Just noise. If a creator exists, then he is certainly completely ambivalent of my existence.

>>83038415
You live in America? What state if you do?

>>83038433
I live in Canada, as my dox itt shows

>>83038380
>>83038351
>How are you living right now? Are you neeting on these 2.5K funds?
>Have you shut yourself inside of your house?
tell me some details, anon.

>I am dead serious.
but you might regret it.
>I don't really want the money anyways.
Why won't you use it? Why won't you try something new?
Why won't you do something?
At least buy a gun to make the suicide painless.

>>83038451
>but you might regret it.
I won't. There won't be a "me" to great or want or wish anything. I did have NDEs before during my seizures/dissociative episodes where I screamed inside that I didn't wanna die but that's just my monkey brain clinging to life and suffering without even knowing why.

>Why won't you use it? Why won't you try something new?
>Why won't you do something?
Try what? Do what? 2.5k isn't exactly alot of money.

>At least buy a gun to make the suicide painless.
I cannot because 1. I'm not in the USA 2. I am on a watchlist and most certaintly cannot buy guns due to my repeated institutionalizations

I wouldn't take $10000 from a suicidal person. It's not right.

>>83038415
while i cant give you a physical hug, i wish i could
i am calling to you, this is your sign...rarely do i visit r9k
keep praying anon, dont give up
you can hear those voices, you can sense those presences, you're so close
its an incredible gift that you cannot even tell people about because it sounds crazy
i dont think its crazy at all, you're part of the chosen

>>83038107
>I do care about you. Please don't do this. Are you at University of Waterloo?
How could you possible care about 'you'? Do you just get attached to everyone like this? Some morbid and twisted sense of duty and belonging? If so I get it, but I fear it will be better spent on whatever real family or friends you have instead of faceless ghosts on the internet. You are attached to a fantasy. You don't even know who I am.

>>83038038
>I don't have much I could give you, 2.5k split over god knows how many people isn't exactly enough to turn a life around but I could give you whatever I can spare.
I get it. Literally anything at all would be appreciated. My cash app is nomdepraec
>I'm just tired of being alive. I think my life is a form a spiritual prison.
Sometimes I've felt that way but it can get better. I'm not going to feed you bullshit, it doesn't aways get better, but it's not impossible

Also looking further down the thread here, just saying but you don't need to give me anything if you don't want, and you (like all people) deserve to be wanted for the person you are rather than just money. I'm posting this anyway because I'm legit homeless but seriously, feel free to judge me and not give me anything and maybe spend it on something nice for yourself instead idk

>>83038504
I don't really have any friends or family. Faceless people on the internet are who I care about and connect with

>>83038505
>My cash app is
You're a piece of shit, faggot. He is obviously engaging in self harm. Why the fuck would you basically enable the cutting of the tendons of a mentally ill person?
Should've fucking deleted your retard drivel and hollow words.

>>83038507
Yes, you do have family idiot. They may not be the family you want, they are family though.
Do you even know how much I was abused when I was a kid, not just verbally?
Stop engaging in your self harm fantasy because you're going to wake the fuck up out of your attention seeking and realize your self harm and pity session got you nowhere other than an emptier and deeper hole.

>>83038490
>its an incredible gift that you cannot even tell people about because it sounds crazy
>i dont think its crazy at all, you're part of the chosen
It's just noise sadly. Faint echoes, disembodied voices without beginning or destination. There is no meaning or message in it besides whatever delusions I assign.
I don't like what the voices are telling me to do anyways. I'd rather die then succumb to that.

>>83038505
You're gross, why would you accept money from a suicidal kid

I will never know you nor see you. But from one in darkness to another: I will pray that whatever is to happen hope will win and with hope, life. We were called out of nothingness and we were called by name and for me it seems that from eternity I was brought to this very moment and all I can think of saying is: I love you. You are my brother and a stranger. An unknown yet a companion in the dark. And for being here and enduring your share, I love you. Pray without ceasing, Anon. I love you.

>>83038507
I forgot the pic related.
>>83038514
Why are you so mad? I made this thread exactly for people like them. I like being wanted, I think its a meaningful form of self-harm anyways. Why do you care anyways? It's my life to throw away, and I don't want it.

>>83038526
>Stop engaging in your self harm fantasy because you're going to wake the fuck up out of your attention seeking and realize your self harm and pity session got you nowhere other than an emptier and deeper hole.
I think you should take your own advice OP. I'm sorry your family did that to you, you didn't deserve that. Give yourself a chance at a better life, for the younger you, even if the current you doesn't want to keep doing it, do it for him.

>>83038542
I thought you were OP, apologies. That was directed towards him.
>>83038540
>It's my life to throw away, and I don't want it.
Then fucking throw it away instead of pushing your obvious self harm onto others who are mentally ill and forcing them to grapple with that.

>>83038531
I'm struggling and could use any help I can get, and I doubt anything I could say would actually convince him to not hurt himself. And if I don't accept it, someone else probably will?

I'm not sure what's going on in this thread anymore, it appears some people are arguing with what they mistook as me. I'm gonna see how many more people post here and see all the different people when it archives, i will get back to you though I might only be able to provide like $100 though since there is a high number of people.

You can add me on discord @echo_z7j6u in case you want it to be sure. I have to filter out the samefags there or whatever so that would make it easier to keep track of the people who want.

>>83038465
>Try what? Do what?
what are your fantasies?

>>83038555
>Then fucking throw it away instead of pushing your obvious self harm onto others who are mentally ill and forcing them to grapple with that.
What is there to grapple with? There's not really a moral dilemma here, no one is forced to take any money all of it is offer at my free will. I don't want it anymore. Think of it like a garbage sale.

>I discard here the last of the doubt and vacillation
>I discard here my love
>I discard here the last of my hope

>>83038527
Joshua is quite the biblical name that means "God Saves" if you werent aware
praying for you anon, that you are able to get through it

>>83038576
at the expense of a soul?
if you want to be damned/cursed for life over $100, thats the way to do it
dont forget to put in your application at the church of satan

>>83038598
I want to be loved and desired. That's really the only thing I ever cared about it. In some way this is a fulfillment of this fantasy. I don't want to be a burden. I just want to be useful, expend all my life energy and turn to dust.

op please take the 25$ i was going to ask for and do some heroin instead inject that shit

>>83038613
I'm aware, though my dad named me after the rock song.

>>83038613
>at the expense of a soul?
>if you want to be damned/cursed for life over $100, thats the way to do it
>dont forget to put in your application at the church of satan
Do you really think he's gonna go to hell for receiving free money? If anything I would be the one damning myself according to the bible, I'm throwing away my 'gift'. I don't want it though. There's too many people here on this planet, literally. Next time tell god to create a world where everything isn't trying to eat each other by design.

How could anyone refuse free money?

>>83038647
hell? i'm talking about his(their) waking life, the soul/universe keeps a record
the bible is a beginners guidebook to life, not the end all be all
those who accept money from someone who's wanting to kill themselves are complicit in a suicide, therefore, they're murderers since they helped you reach the bottom
the universe will keep score, and they will not forget the $$ they took as its cursed and soaked in blood
i refuse and reject your money, whole heartedly

>>83038595
I can't add, if you can use the first XMR wallet in the thread I posted then sure, if it's too complex that's ok. It would help me but whatever I feel doomed in this world too. I do have more hope and wish I knew what to say.

>>83038612
>There's not really a moral dilemma here
Yeah, there is. Your attention seeking self harm to enable your suicide and finish it off.
You're retarded. Why act like a retard and force a bunch of other depressed mentally ill people to deal with the fact that you metaphorically cut your wrist in front of an audience and to perform the emotional labor so you don't fucking kill yourself?
That's what you're doing now. There's nothing so bad in your life, other than loneliness. It sucks. I've been lonelier far longer than you. Doesn't give me the right to force others to deal with my mental illness.
You go outside and go to school, you certainly have a psych as you said. Imagine complaining about loneliness less than three years after high school.
If you're in Canada just MAID yourself, since it's "your life to throw away" as you said. But that's obviously too easy, you aren't going to stop being such an annoying faggot and pushing your shit onto others.

>>83038742
>I do have more hope and wish I knew what to say.
you could tell him to keep his money, and to live, anon
obviously his plan is to get rid of his $$ and do the deed, you're only helping accelerate that timeline
and you will have blood on your hands

>>83037835 (OP)
Dude, wtf is that image

>>83038766
That's his choice to make. I won't belabor it too much and couldn't if I wanted to. I probably won't get a dime of it so oh well.

>>83038769
A dead or almost dying animal, he's obviously super nice on the inside for posting that and needs his emotional labor of coping taken care of.

>>83038804
heartless

>>83038754
>You're retarded. Why act like a retard and force a bunch of other depressed mentally ill people to deal with the fact that you metaphorically cut your wrist in front of an audience and to perform the emotional labor so you don't fucking kill yourself?
>That's what you're doing now. There's nothing so bad in your life, other than loneliness. It sucks. I've been lonelier far longer than you. Doesn't give me the right to force others to deal with my mental illness.
>You go outside and go to school, you certainly have a psych as you said. Imagine complaining about loneliness less than three years after high school.
I don't have any family on this side of the pacific I am not estranged from. Also loneliness is one of many different problems, its also my crippling anxiety and debilitating health problems that keep getting worse like my seizures and also the fact I'm gonna be homeless soon anyways. If you check my identity all of it is a show. I can barely show up to class and pay my rent.

Anyways, suffering isn't a contest, who knows, maybe your life sucks way more than mine. If I was in your situation I would definitely kill myself. If you want to persist in this doomed world, go ahead. Again, its my life to live or die. I think after everything...I deserve this one selfish choice. And they sadly do not offer MAID for mental illness I did ask though. Why would I need permission to kill myself though?

>>83038766
I already decided. I'm not that weak-willed. Stop trying to take away my agency. No one is hurting or killing me except me.

bro, take your money and buy some THC gummies and go for a walk/camp in nature. have an epic stoned goonsesh. play some games while blitzed. actually try to have some fun first.

Hey anon. I do not know you but please do not kill yourself man. You can just vent here but please do not try to die

>>83038814
>>83038754
I'm not forcing anyone to do anything. The people who are trying to 'talk me out' of it are just indulging their own saviour complexes. Why is the idea of genuine suicidality so inconceivable to you? People kill themselves all the time. I just don't see any reason in holding on to my belongings so I'm offering it to people who want them. How is this immoral besides whatever BS people react to it?

>>83038894
Honestly weed was a pretty good cope for about a year but now it just gives me panic attacks/seizures.

>>83038846
Be honest with us, and be honest with yourself; what can any of us actually do to stop him? Unless you literally live right next to him and can go there and talk to him and hug him and save him then thank you. But if you aren't that than I don't believe you or any of our pithy words can save him.

And it is a shame. If he's actually as young as he is than we can all give him the cliche of "so much to live for". And to be honest there probably is a truth in that. But we don't know. I don't believe that he would truly be unsalvageable. But it seems like his mind was made up long ago, and the actual solution to saving him was years ago when he was broken but not hopeless, and maybe then someone could have just sat and listened. But I get that everything we do now is useless words

>>83038894
I agree with this guy, at least for OP

Dude, life changes. Remember when you were a kid and didn't get some tiny thing that you wanted, and it seemed like there is nothing more important in the world?
It all will pass. It can get better.

>>83037835 (OP)
I could use it. I'm going back to college in a month, but because of a car accident my mom caused, I had to get a new one for both of us. So I won't have any money for shoes or dog food for a month. I get it if this threads closed, but it would make my life a lot easier.

I hope you live anon, but if you have made up your mind, I hope it's quick and peaceful.

>>83038851
>its also my crippling anxiety
So anxious, you go outside and talk to a psychiatrist. Try getting the shit beat out of you so hard that your blood vessels burst in both eyes, having a lisp and a stutter you had to work on multiple years that still comes through.
>I'm selfish but so unselfish! My self harm isn't selfish at all!
You're a faggot, dude.
>>83038913
>Why is the idea of genuine suicidality so inconceivable to you?
Then just fucking end it. The reason you haven't is because it's a matter of attention seeking. Instead you make others perform your emotional labor for you. It's manipulative. You are manipulative.

I think you said you're Canadian, before you blow your brains out go to mmjdirect or another site and buy some shrooms for yourself. Take 4 grams and see if you still wanna die after.
I'm broke and stranded in Mexico rn but I don't want to die, I found salvation through Christ and so could you. Life's a bitch, my wife and I have been through hell despite being born in first world countries yet happier here in poverty than in luxury, because of a shift in perspective.
Life always throws opportunity at us, we just have to be able to see them anon.

>>83038863
you can also change your mind
dont doubt for a second the universe will keep score with those who are willingly accepting suicide money
a soul for a a couple of steam games on sale, or some groceries?
yeah....that will fester

>>83038931
>So anxious, you go outside and talk to a psychiatrist. Try getting the shit beat out of you so hard that your blood vessels burst in both eyes, having a lisp and a stutter you had to work on multiple years that still comes through.
I did get beaten quite alot as a child and even recently I almost got pummeled to death by a 6'3 jamacian schizo who was roided out and randomly called me the Antichrist. Nothing permanent however, sorry to hear it but I really don't see how your life being miserable has anything to do with me or anything in this thread.

>You're a faggot, dude
I'll be a dead faggot soon enough.

>Then just fucking end it. The reason you haven't is because it's a matter of attention seeking. Instead you make others perform your emotional labor for you. It's manipulative. You are manipulative.
Is that really so evil? I just want to feed the birds once before I die. I made my intentions extremely clear. How is something so transparent manipulation? I also think you overestimate the value of 'emotional labour'. Anyways, I don't know why you're so mad, I'm gonna be broke and rotting on the ground soon. Are you perhaps jealous that I get to leave this shitty existence and you need to suffer?

>>83038894
Yeah try something out OP

>>83038926
all truly suicidal people have a final plan, and often a day/date and even a time planned out
and his plan is to give away his money THEN do it
dont take his money and ruin the plan
cant say for sure, but it seems that giving away his money has a 2x effect
the first is the "see im out of money now i have to do it" and "see no one cares enough and they just want my money" which he even said in an earlier post
he's a hurt, broken, and sensitive person and taking what little he has left just further tells him what he needs to know to do the deed

these posts are more powerful than you think, especially in this situation

>>83038967
>Is that really so evil?
Yeah, it is.
>How is something so transparent manipulation?
Because good people actually believe your words and want to help. There's a reason why you can't have the phone when you're committed. Mental illness spreading everywhere.
The problem in your case is that you're not a good or unselfish person, you're slitting your wrists in front of an audience.
>Are you perhaps jealous
I was going to tell you that maybe you aren't so bad and should look on the bright side, but I'm not going to engage further in your retarded attention seeking.
You shouldn't kill yourself. If you were going to, you would have. I'm hoping you get to suffer like me, especially being a piece of shit who posts dead animals. You deserve it far more than me. You're going to continue breathing because you need to attention seek rather than a genuine need to help others.

>>83039025
>Because good people actually believe your words and want to help. There's a reason why you can't have the phone when you're committed. Mental illness spreading everywhere.
I didn't ask for help, or even hope. I'm just indulging them. Do I really seem like someone with an evil master plan?
>The problem in your case is that you're not a good or unselfish person, you're slitting your wrists in front of an audience.
I don't slit my wrists anymore, never did in front of an audience.
I'm not a woman. If I ever attempt, I'll get the job done.
>You deserve it far more than me. You're going to continue breathing because you need to attention seek rather than a genuine need to help others.
No one can hold me in the prison. I hope I finally have the courage to hurl myself off. I'm gonna die anyways, why not take the path of least resistance?

Do you just want some money like everyone else? Will that make you feel better?

>>83039060
>I don't slit my wrists anymore, never did in front of an audience.
You're doing it right now, you fucking retard. This is your self harm.
>I'm not a woman. If I ever attempt, I'll get the job done.
So you post dead animals and hate women?
>I hope I finally have the courage to hurl myself off.
You'll still be breathing next week, and you deserve it. Get therapy since you can go outside and do the bare minimum to not be a disgusting piece of shit like you are right now.
You aren't altruistic. Don't ask me to cut your tendons for you, make someone else do it or stop being such a pussy and do it yourself. Maybe glorify some more dead animals who did nothing to deserve their fate. Faggot.

>>83037835 (OP)
sadge, why don't you do something nice with that money and get yourself a plane ticket and fly here? I could host you for a while, we could visit cool museums in sheeit together.. it seems like a waste to let someone who could become a friend simply kill themselves.

>>83039086
I'm not planning on killing myself next week, it will likely be a few months before I get everything in order. Sorry I posted that image, but that's the only one that resonated with how I feel all the time. Abandoned and alone. I have been in therapy my whole life including psychotherapy I pay $100/month for but its not really doing much for me, and I can't really afford it long-term anyways. Nothing is free. You don't need to cut my tendons or hurl me off a bridge, I will do that myself regardless of you. I'm just offering some money before I die.

I wonder, why are you so illogically mad? If you hate me, shouldn't you be happy I'm suffering and plan to kill myself?

>>83039167
>why are you so illogically mad
It's been stated multiple times in the thread, get it through your thick skull. You make others here feel like shit to satisfy your need for attention.
>a few months
You'll still be breathing then, too.
Stop being a piece of degenerate piece of shit and wasting opportunities. Scream into a pillow and fuck off instead of forcing others to deal with your cowardice. You've shown what person you are by even saving it and implying that because you're not a woman, you certainly would never" attention seek" and actually would finish the job.
Well, here you are faggot. Attention seeking instead of finishing the job. Pretending you're altruistic.

>>83039211
I have no delusions I'm altruistic. Or moral. That being said I don't know how my actions are immoral as well. I'm just here to give out money to satisfy my on emptiness and make myself feel desired. And I'm sure there's lots of women who kill themselves properly, but you know what I mean.

Anyways you might be right, it might take me a long time to get myself together and get the job done. But I will. Anyways you have my name now, keep an eye on it you might be pleasantly surprised.

>>83039272
>no delusions I'm altruistic. Or moral.
This thread is filled with them.
>but you know what I mean.
Go get therapy faggot. You're not a coward because you can't suicide in leafistan, all packed together in planned ultra-dense suburbs with paper thin walls, you're a coward because you waste opportunities in your first world shithole and whine about it despite your access to resources.

>>83039311
>you're a coward because you waste opportunities in your first world shithole and whine about it despite your access to resources.
I basically live off disability and can't even leave my house because of severe anxiety. I am aware it would be far worse in a third world country. That's why you should be happy I;m ending myself? Do you realize the world economy is connected? The global north is built on the exploitation of the global south. Anyways, I'm not gonna explain but once I take myself out the system, there will be more breathing room for you. I feel bad for wasting opportunities sure, but I'm not even well enough to function in society. I think you overestimate how compassionate my society is anyways, do you realize we have tens of thousands of homeless retards freezing to death yearly?

It's so fake when people say they give a fuck about suicide. They relentlessly push people to this point and are such horrible people to "losers" and then they act like they give a damn when we finally can't take it anymore and want to die. Fuck off, no one believes any of it. If you really cared you would change how you act to people BEFORE they start to kill themselves.

>>83039342
>hates women
>posts dead animals
>rambles about the "global south" as if anything is owed, probably to him
Class act.
>That's why you should be happy I;m ending myself?
I'll be happy when you go to therapy and stop being such a retarded manipulator.
Stop asking others to force you into suicide. You're not even 25. Nut the fuck up, retard.
You go outside, probably go to school, and visit your psych. Now go outside and visit your therapist. Stop wasting opportunities, stop hating women, stop saving pictures of dead animals, be a better person.
>I think you overestimate how compassionate my society is anyways
Hey that's another way you can be a retarded loser like me who threw away so many opportunities. Go get hooked on heroin and camp outside.
You don't know shit, kid. Stop acting like it's over a few years after high school. I can smell it on you.

>>83039160
ok, nvm, you're probably low IQ sorry

>>83039390
>Class act.
Sorry. It's not exactly my finest hour.

>I'll be happy when you go to therapy and stop being such a retarded manipulator.
>Stop asking others to force you into suicide. You're not even 25. Nut the fuck up, retard.
>You go outside, probably go to school, and visit your psych. Now go outside and visit your therapist. Stop wasting opportunities, stop hating women, stop saving pictures of dead animals, be a better person.
I appreciate this is supposed to be a form of tough love, I get you want me to take a different path but my situation is really fucked especially the mounting health issues I cannot pay for.

Anyways sadly your tale of being homeless (I was briefly homeless at 17 when my parents first kicked me out) really doesn't make me want to experience 'real pain'. Getting my shit beaten in so my eyeballs pop out, freezing to death in a tent with heroin, I truly admire that you were able to survive such adversity but is it really crazy I'd rather take the easy way out instead of that sort of existence?

Judgment cannot come so soon enough!

>>83039489
just stop bitching and do it you fucking misanthropic neurodivergent beaner, stop attention whoring. you are worthless and you ensured you spread misery even on your way out. This is why racism is so based, its because of beaners like you

Hello anon, I am sincerely sorry that life did not work out the way you planned my cashapp is $napmyneck, I need groceries to help feed myself and my animals I also have to pay off my phone bill and computer repairs since my computer is still in the shop so all together that is going to total at 500 dollars. I hope you do not kill yourself and end up just regretting giving your money to strangers

I wipe my ass with 2.5k. OP, stay alive, stack more paper and do not give these parasites in this thread a cent.

>>83039489
>I'd rather take the easy way out instead of that sort of existence?
You can just go to school and stop the self harm. Talk to a therapist.
>especially the mounting health issues I cannot pay for.
Go to the doctor you fucking retard. What isn't covered by leafistan. Prescriptions and teeth? Quit being a manipulative retard. Go to therapy and realize what you're doing right now.
>>83039533
Kill yourself.

>>83039550
Therapy isn't free. I pay $100/session for one biweekly wasted so much money on that didn't get better. I have been in therapy all my life, and I can't afford it anymore. Getting well isn't free.

Also I think you're severely overestimating how good my healthcare system is. It's certainly better than burgerland for sure, but I still pay $200-$300/month for meds of of pocket. I simply can't afford that, that's after my insurance from my school which I can't afford anymore. I think you're under the confusion that Canada is a socialist country, I can barely afford rent because of the housing crisis and job market.

Even if I got it together it still doesn't change the fact I have nothing to live for.

>>83039550
I said hope anon does not kill themself :eyeroll: most people do not actually even kill themselves after telling someone they are committing suicide

>>83039000
i miss when you were good

>>83039604
Yeah I've been there for work. It's a shithole of packed together rats, artificially constrained by planning and importing immigrants. There's nothing in your life that is actually bad except loneliness.
I endured almost a decade of nothing but loneliness with a few years of drug addiction, growing mushrooms, then rotting after dropping out. I've seen someone who was addicted braindead and turned off. I blame myself for my dad dying.
Finish school. Quit being a faggot. You're throwing away attempts at formal learning I never got because of my own stupidity. Stop manipulating others and stop being a piece of shit telling others that you need them to help kill yourself through some self-flagellating faux-altruistic delusion.

>>83039669
Do you want my money?
Its not too late to go to college, I told you I have 2.5k CAD but I have perfect credit score and 5.5k worth of credit cards I haven't spent yet. It wouldn't be too hard for me to send that money to you, and my debt will be cleared once I die so someone who actually wants a shot at higher education can receive it.

I understand I have a ticket to something good...but I simply do not want it. I just want to give someone else a chance since I don't want it anyways. I am dead serious, I think it would be pretty meaningful, I gave my friend 2k earlier last month because she couldn't afford tuition anways.

>>83039695
Expand on this. What female friend. Does she know you're going to kill yourself?

>>83037835 (OP)
I would let you live in my house if it would help you.

>>83039718
what we just found out is that he's a simp and actually should khs, cant believe we wasted 139 posts to figure out it was all a waste of time for all except the 3 guys who got $25 steam gift cards

>>83039723
I swear to god if this guy gave 2k to some random internet whore.

>>83039718
>Expand on this. What female friend. Does she know you're going to kill yourself?
No. I met her at the psych ward so she knows I'm suicidal. She's very sensitive so I feel bad that I might be killing myself but she will get over it. She basically ghosted me anyways, I am properly as per usual greatly overestimating how much people care about me. No I will not tell her I am planning to kill myself, I would rather no cause her the mental fatigue.

>>83039719
Honestly tempting, but probably impossible to arrange. Also I'm not a girl. I am not gay either.

>>83039743
Even if you don't kill yourself a retarded simp like you will be separated from his money very very quickly. A random cunt in a psych ward lmao fucking pathetic

>>83039753
If he had sent this to a male instead, would you feel differently?

>>83039758
He wouldn't have because he's a simp retard sublimating his own simp impulses as charity.

>>83039723
I'm not simping for anyone in particular. I just want to be useful to someone before I die. That's why fantasy, it always has been and it always will. I don't really care about myself. You can get some money too if you want, again, I don't care if you're male or female though most people have been humble about how much they want, though one girl mentioned she needs 2k to help her sisters move out from an abusive situation and another anon said they wanted 500. I have 2.5k to blow + some income coming in from my part time job + 5.5k credit debt i will cash advance when I actually decide to die.

>>83039767
Ah okay, it sounds like you are envious of women then and wish it were you instead. Seek help instead of dunking on an already mentally ill, suicidal kid.

>>83039695
>>Do you want my money?
You're assuming that because I'm a dropout that I do not have money. I have money. I have a comfortable job to keep me busy, despite being a rotting NEET for years. I bought crypto ASICS when the hash rate was low around the time I dropped out, so I also have a substantial savings and retirement match from my job in addition to stock grants. I don't need your money, retard. I'm telling you not to waste the opportunities given to you when they come. Obviously for you, that's school, #1.
Finish school and quit being a retard. Find momentum. Always habit, turn yourself into a robot. If therapy doesn't work, lift heavy things. Quit manipulating others.

Anon.. if you're serious, I work 6 days a week landscaping but I have a grandmother that I take care of, her medical bills consume a great deal of my pay and not only that, I provide her food, take her to her appointments, pay for her medicine, amongst other things... And I myself have me and my cat to look after and about 2 months ago I had to take him to the vet for an ear infection that ended up costing an upwards of $600 dollars after his antibiotics and ear drops and the visit itself. Things have been pretty rough, and even though I work 6 days a week landscaping I've picked up moving gigs and cooking gigs some nights here and there and on Sundays to try and get by. If you could send me something, it would genuinely, really help us out. I know it might not mean much, but I'd be seriously so grateful. My email is nimbussanctuary@gmail.com ...thank you, anon..

Sad thread, eh. Who knows, maybe I'll do the same before offing myself.

>>83039778
Wake up early...have a 5 year plan...CEO mindset...have you considered that I just don't want to play the game?
I don't care about money as strange as it might seem to most people. So of course I was going to part with my money fast, I have something I don't care about that something everyone hungers and kills for, in a world where everything wants to eat each other. I simply don't want it. And I realized the thing I actually want and have always wanted is probably out of reach. Anyways, even if it doesn't have value to me (or you) I know others who do want it, so I'm just giving it to the people who want it before I die. I won't need money when I'm dead after all. Anyways, it seems like there's no short supply of people who want money. That isn't surprising, it makes me happy I can help some people and make their day.

>>83039800
You should, if you're offing yourself then you don't need money anyways, make sure to max out your credit cards to fuck over the corpos as much as possible before you die.
It's nice being desired even if its just for something like money.

>>83039805
No, faggot. I'm not telling you to be a psychopath drinking from your blood boys to keep your youth. You have no idea what the fuck you are talking about or what changes you can go through, I've been there, 100x worse than you.
The only thing that got me out of it was habit and the barbell. I did the thing where I explained what I am and how I did it, now do the thing where you either take my advice or fuck off.
You're going to be breathing in six months. Finish school. Shut the fuck up and stop asking people to take your money so you can kill yourself.

I suggest you rethink it anon, you can still find value and love. However if you have made up your mind I won't disrespect your final decision.

Here is my Monero address. Anything would mean a lot to me:
45tLdgUUQ3wXDgSE9HrTFhWrgCWNNVg38LdMevGqzq5ASbPqoZuLS364dT6ceMCxE5ZUGb9AfDgvATRTYPE2mna2D3vaKqZ

>>83039838
I just think we have very different values anon. I don't really care that I have no money, I have 15k at the start of this year actually but I gave it all away to various people and would do it again. I just wish I made more money not because the pursuit of money itself is fulfilling, just because I like helping others with it.

Anyways, I don't really see the point of 'manning up' and stopping being a fag. You sound just like my dad, I despised him quite a lot because he beat me for being a emotional fag or whatever and not wanting what he wanted. Anyways I'm not sure what so wrong, I'm not asking to hard for people to make money, look around this thread everywhere people are swarming to me with wishes and money. I'm offering, it makes me feel good, so I will do it. Me wanting to kill myself is just a different issue altogether, this is just wrapping up the little bits.

I have been pretending to have a job for over a year now. ive actually bombed every single interview ive landed because im fucking retarded. credit score is in the 400s and its going to be fucked for 7 years lol. i need a total of 710 dollars to submit my n400 form and apply for citizenship. going to join the military because i need someone to tell me what to do

>>83039853
>I have 15k at the start of this year actually but I gave it all away to various people and would do it again. I just wish I made more money not because the pursuit of money itself is fulfilling, just because I like helping others with it.
You believe you're being altruistic but this is your self harm. The idea of finishing school is finding something you find fulfilling, not the pursuit of vast amounts of money. I don't give a shit about my HW wallet, it's in my fire safe, that's about the extent that I give a shit about it.
You either withheld your self harm from your therapist or they're a shitty therapist. I'm betting on the withholding part.
If you won't take my advice, then just fuck off and kill yourself. Don't tell others to help you kill yourself.

Go do something fun

>>83039798
WAIT ANON! I'm sorry! It's nimbussanctuary777@gmail.com
I feel so dumb, I forgot the numbers! I hope you didn't send it to the wrong email..

>>83037972
You need to post something for me to send to. Anyways I will probably go to sleep, I will NOT make another thread so you better add me or add your request in the catalog. I will start processing it tomorrow/next week.

>>83039889
>83039798
Anon.. if you're serious, I work 6 days a week landscaping but I have a grandmother that I take care of, her medical bills consume a great deal of my pay and not only that, I provide her food, take her to her appointments, pay for her medicine, amongst other things... And I myself have me and my cat to look after and about 2 months ago I had to take him to the vet for an ear infection that ended up costing an upwards of $600 dollars after his antibiotics and ear drops and the visit itself. Things have been pretty rough, and even though I work 6 days a week landscaping I've picked up moving gigs and cooking gigs some nights here and there and on Sundays to try and get by. If you could send me something, it would genuinely, really help us out. I know it might not mean much, but I'd be seriously so grateful. My email is nimbussanctuary777@gmail.com ...thank you, anon..


fixed !

>>83037835 (OP)
OP, I'll ask you to find another way, though if you've made your mind up, at least make your last days a good time. If not, struggle onwards for another sunrise. Maybe make another thread tomorrow and rethink this all out.
For other anons in this thread, let this be a warning:
Therapy is for normalfaggots with normalfaggot problems. I had a few therapists, was in therapy for years. They only ever lied to me. Ran me around in circles for months on end, just to keep an eye on me, horrified they were. Never saw me as a patient, but as a threat. Of course it never helped. I've done more to strengthen my mental health looking down the barrel of a .38 than all my time spent with a fuckin shrink. If they're not a jew they're working for one, and not to be trusted, ever.
I imagine OP was ran around the ringer being told just enough to think he might've been getting help, when all he was doing was lining the pockets of a disgusting machine that feeds off of robots, cyborgs, and the many failed normalfaggots of the world. It's terrible they destroyed a man already so in hard strife and down on his luck, and they get away with it every day. If you recieve any money from OP don't spend it on a fucking shrink.

OP, may the gods watch over you, and I'll see you in the next thread/life.

>>83039898
>>83039889
I haven't sent anything yet. I'm just waiting for the thread to die.
Again, I am not making another thread. There's already like 20 takers already, at this rate everyone will get like $100 each.

>>83039540
>I wipe my ass with 2.5k.
What do you do for a job anon?

>>83039907
I mean, to be fair that's not just shrinks, that's everyone. Everyone is just living to exploit each other unless they are friends or family or some other value like sex like if you're looking for a woman to buy in your 30s.

What is money except energy, unlimited potential? Obviously everyone wants it, this entire world is based on transaction and consumption, not compassion. That's partly why I knew everyone would take my money, everything else is empty platitudes sure I suppose there are excepts, greeks in the age of romans but 90% of anons would probably press a button to kill me if they didn't see it and they got $1000, and pretty much every response should prove you right.

Anyways, whatever, I don't care anymore. I don't want this money/energy anyways. I just want to be eaten. I'm tired of struggling and floundering, competing and fighting and working.

>>83037835 (OP)
Have you *even* TRIED BBC DOMINATION therapy?! It will blow your BPD mind. Pic-related could be you very soon... just give it a chance, honey.

>>83039969
Blaine please...I although I imagine you're trying to kill my thread but no one asked.
For some reason this is a white person fetish, no black person I have ever talked to were into the idea of being fetishized as an animal for their cocks, all of them have been weebs and general nerds its only ever strange white people who had this fetish.

I don't mind giving you some money though, you can spend it on another cage or whatever. I'm not being picky, that would defeat the point. I do want to pretend like I have control over this last pointless expense, even if its just an illusion.

>>83039933
wrps are going to visit you in the morning based on the email I just sent, just fyi
maybe being committed again will do you some good

>>83039983
Blaine sounds like a real hoot. You should listen to him if he's also telling you to take the BBCpill.

>>83039994
I count 8 people in this so far and the ones who added me on discord

>>83039994
Did you really? You know the last time I was there, some random retards threatened to kill me. I will just pick the right dialogue options they will just drop in for a wellness check at most or 72 hour hold. I can just kill myself after I get discharged, still a cunt thing to do.

Again, you don't even care about me. Why is it that no one you care about me when I'm alive, but performatively care when I want out of this shitty system?

>>83039994
Also, the police don't read emails, moron. If you want me committed you should call the cops and say I'm a schizo threatening to kill a baby. That's the only thing they care about. Do you realize that Waterloo is full of schizos and homeless drug addicts.

Yeah, I could use some money. I'm broke.

>>83040020
>still a cunt thing to do
maybe don't shit up the board with attention whoring and trying to kill yourself (which you won't do)
if you give me another hour since you dox'd yourself i will get someone at uwaterloo to file a form 2 and let them know you are emptying your bank accounts like a moron which means inability to care for self

>>83040054
I am estranged from my parents, they literally can't get a sub for me. Why are you so mad?
>Hey btw I know your life sucks
>So we're gonna throw you in solitary confinement and glorified prison with a bunch of schizos to make you feel better
If you're just mad I made this thread, why don't you just hide the thread? And you have no idea what those terms even mean, its not illegal to give away money that I earned.

>>83040066
The guy threatening that shit cares more about you than any of the faggots ITT giving you their emails so they can get 50 dollars to spend on their trans discord gf.

>>83040092
Not really. He is just a performer like everyone else in this world. How is locking me up in a glass box with violent addicts a solution to anything? Also I already know everyone at Grand River Hospital, I literally saw my psychologist there today LOL do people realize that psych wards are just limbo for schizos and borderlines nah he just is pretending to care.

>>83040107
I'm not saying he cares a great deal but him doing that is worth a hell of a lot more than any faggots asking you for money that you barely have.

2.5k and you people are acting like he's the bank of america, you should be fucking ashamed of yourselves.

>>83040117
It's not a small amount of money, most people here are NEET and have no money anyways.
Yeah, I'm acutely aware no one here really knows or cares about me outside wanting money for some strange fantasy but at least the trans edater or whatever aren't threatening to send hostile armed men at me because I was shitting up their catalog.

>>83040066
try me
your parents do not need to be the sdm
emptying bank accounts is a behavioral change
>If you're just mad I made this thread
if you insist

>>83040132
its a tiny amount of money if you truly have no one else in your life and are mentally ill. that will barely keep you alive for another 3 months unless you get your shit together. and you live in Canada so cut the acting like the cops are going to come blow your head off shit.

>>83040133
Brother I am calling your bluff 1000%
Also I have no idea what your ultimatum even is, what do you want from me stop being suicidal? Delete the thread?
And no, emptying your bank account definitely is not a crime, when I had 3k and took out 2k to give to my friend they asked me if I was doing this out of my free will at the bank nobody can stop me because its literally my money lol.

They can only commit me if I am an immediate danger to myself to others which I am neither at the moment I'm just divesting myself of some income.

>>83040020
probably becasue you are doing a performance now on this board, you are signaling, screaming out to any anon with sensibilities and value for human life in general to say or do something. If you didn't want the song and dance, you shouldn't have done your own and kept this between you and god. You see how many anons immediately JUMP for you near on command, late on a thursday night? I'm thinkging to myself, a fucking LEAF wants to kill himself and I'm so goddamn tired of losing robros to talk to on this increasingly shitty normalfagged and feminized board, so you goddamn right I'm gonna say my piece here.
You are scared of dying, imagining your final moment and what lies beyond. You don't know and deep down you do still care about knowing what happens next in that vidya series or weeb interest or whatever the fuck it is your do. You care about what happens next to you in general and the thought of there not being a next is too terrifying for you to follow through. These people getting your money? You know they are the exact sick, fucked up awful kinds of folk that have made your whole life a living hell. You are feeding that for other people by giving them ANY sustenance. Fuck you for even considering sullying your soul that way, and I love you for trying so hard at the end to go out of your way to make a thread and actually find people that might see through the bs and say
HEY ANON
I CARE
I ACTUALLY CARE
YOU MIGHT BE IN ANOTHER COUNTRY, A REALLY SHITTY ONE AT THAT, AND A TOTAL WORTHLESS ANXIOUS COWARD BUT I EMPATHIZE WITH YOUR STRUGGLES BEACUSE SO AM I.
I CARE
KEEP ON KEEPING ON MAN
PUT ON SOME MUSIC, CHILL OUT, AND LIVE ANOTHER DAY.

LIVE

>>83040142
>its a tiny amount of money if you truly have no one else in your life and are mentally ill. that will barely keep you alive for another 3 months unless you get your shit together
that is most unfortunate.

>and you live in Canada so cut the acting like the cops are going to come blow your head off shit.
I just hate dealing with cops I have severe trauma from them from my dad calling them on me and lying that i was schizophrenic a billion times, have you ever been in handcuffs with angry old men yelling at you, those hurt. And they always come out tasers first as if a 5'6 guy like me could do anything to like 3 6'5 guys. Anyways whatever, do whatever you want, I had a feeling even here at my lowest there was gonna someone trying to fuck with me. Do your worst, I genuinely don't care anymore.

>>83037835 (OP)
Monsieur, je ne mange pas six jours. Geben Sie mir bitte etwas Kopek fuer ein Stueck Brot. Give something to an ex-member of the Duma."
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>>83040154
I don't know man. I really don't think we are alike. I haven't played vidya or watched anime in years. I am just tired of it all. Tired of resentment. Tired of struggle. Tired of endless anger. I just want to give up, is that really evil..? Why do I need to struggle in an unsympathetic and pitiless system for eternity...? Besides, some of these people really need the money, not all of them are worthless NEETs.

Anyways, I'm done with the thread. I will check the thread tomorrow, it will probably be dead I imagine.