Thread 83054721

>What was the main reason
>What did stop you?

>>83054721 (OP)
>How many times you considered sucide?
Damn, honestly don't know, a lot, every day for a few years now i think
>What was the main reason
Hard to pinpoint one main reason, my life was pretty bad to the point i'm in constant emotional agony most days, but never having had friends and not having a girlfriend to share burdens with and build a life together is probably the worst right now i'd say
>What did stop you?
I still have problems to solve and expectations to meet so i can't allow myself to die yet

I considered suicide because my life is beyond terrible, my family is dysfunctional, never got a job in life and I'm already 30 and being a neet without neetbux is too fucking terrible of a life to one survive, but what stopped is that despite my family being dysfunctional, my mom still love me and I'm still too young (yes, 30 is young at least for me) for me to die, I will always hate the job market for being extremely difficult and words can't describe how much I hate being ghosted in countless interviews, but I have to keep surviving, not just for my mom, but also for myself as well

>>83054721 (OP)
i consider it pretty often, but i always come to the conclusion that i really dont care enough about life to end it. life lacks the consequence that would make suicide desirable, in other words, taking your own life voluntarily is an assertion that life *would* be desirable if you could simply overcome your suffering

>>83054750
>I still have problems to solve
So aftre that you might stop thinking of ending it?
>>83054766
If you can work then work
Ain't nothing gonna stop you.
Work, gamble, trade crypto take your chances in life bro

>>83054721 (OP)
every day since around 10 years old
there are people i don't want to make sad, namely
>mom
>dad
>brother
>grandma

>>83054788
>So after that you might stop thinking of ending it?
I don't know, maybe? While it'd certainly be nice to be financially stable, retire my mom and a whole other stuff. I've always dreamed of being a dad, having a loving wife i met in a romance straight from fantasies who's only ever been with me, kids i love deeply and all that, but i'm not really sure if i'll be able to accomplish that in the want it, if i don't i'll probably end up doing volunteer work on a warzone i'm likely to get shot first week in since i'm against suicide

>>83054835
Why you people always talk about muh romance?
It isn't that hard to fuck a girl in the first world
I had a loser leaf frinde who was ugly and told him to go to Bosnia as it's a white shithole.
Girls piled up on his dick because he promised them to take them to Canada.
If your foids are hard you always have some white shitholes so stop torturing yourself

>>83054788
>If you can work then work
>Ain't nothing gonna stop you.
>Work, gamble, trade crypto take your chances in life bro

That's the point, that's the problem, I can work, but getting ghosted and rejected in countless interviews stopped me from working, so it's not really my fault
Still, I'm gonna keep surviving no matter how much I hate my life and my mom still love me

>>83054890
I don't want to have sex anon, i want a fulfilling marriage, not everyone is a braindead sex monkey like you

>>83054891
You can work as free lancer
Go sell some shit on the street, go work a minimum pay job and eventually try your luck.

>>83054906
He married one and brought her to Canada
Mf was a lonely leaf and he left the game (we met on MMO game) once he had a childe.
It's not about sex, it's about marriage.
You fucking pigskins forgot the Idea that there is whtie shitholes with whtie foids who look just like your next door girl.
And you forgot that foids put comfort living in a civilized place over look land personality

>>83054803
>Since 10
No way

Used to contemplate it every day, now I live out of sheer spite. The longer I live means more tax money is spent on me, and the longer I go on like this makes people seething mad. My mere existence pisses people off. I can live with that.

>>83054963
You say this like it's easy, don't you listen to what I said?
I got ghosted in countless interviews, I can't get a job even if my life depends on it because I keep getting ghosted
Regardless
I'm gonna keep surviving and I'm doing this both for my mom and myself

>>83054721 (OP)
>what was the main reason
Psychosis
>What stopped you
Lack of alcohol

>>83054721 (OP)
>How many times you considered suicide?
idk, a lot of the time I will consider it but not mean it. I've only really considered it maybe 2 or 3 times
>What was the main reason
loneliness
>What did stop you?
I'm not sure. The closest I got was when I was really drunk I pointed a loaded gun at my head but I didn't want to pull the trigger. That was the last time I considered it, and I've been better since.

>>83054721 (OP)
how many times did I drink ginger ale

>>83054721 (OP)
>What was the main reason
Drug addiction, keep chasing the dragon, loneliness.
>What did stop you?
My parents, im his only child, i dont want them to find my hanging body.

>>83054721 (OP)
>How many times you considered sucide?
Don't know, 8 million times or so...
>What was the main reason
I was a teen.
>What did stop you?
I'm not really insane.

>>83054803
Why the fuck would anybody want to die when they have a loving family
The only reason i want to die is because i've never felt welcomed in this world as my parents didn't love me
I'd be invincible if i had their affection and support