Perhaps it is eugenics?
Maybe your misery in this world has a natural clause? You say that you are lonely but maybe that's not actually a problem that needs to be solved but the default for genetic dead ends. Why would you go through all of that trouble to get a gf when it isn't meant to be? Internalize the signs that life has given you. Are you over 20 and a virgin? Do almost no one like you? Do you think that these are signs that you should keep trying? You need to focus on how to live by yourself because nature has decided that you aren't worthy enough to be loved and that's not personal or calculated. You just lack the faculties that makes a person loveable.