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i'm not dismissing you. i do "move on" but i can't help feeling demoralized and humiliated by failure. i get over it though and keep going.
but yeah i'm not an optimist anymore, i merely survive to see if things get better, not in any hope they do. and if i can score some wins along the way i'll take them. that's worth living.
it's not the life i wanted, it's the one i got, and it's better than a whole lot of lives.