>>33256867
My Wife who has emotional regulation issues has accused me of being unfaithful because I was subscribed to a
Channel of someone(female) who I was friends with years ago. I haven’t communicated with this person, don’t communicate directly with any females at all actually because early in our marriage I did have instagram and had female friends(literally didn’t have any romantic affiliation or connection to them) on there which created a deep seated sense of jealousy and mistrust in my wife. She feels like I violated her trust with this, literally spent more than an hour looking my entire viewing history on YouTube, scrutinizing everything even songs that she finds triggering. We have two small children and I don’t want for them to experience divorce, I love my wife, I love my family and want to do anything I can to save my family. My wife as I stated has emotional regulation issues and will routinely get overwhelmed by our kids and go for drives for hours or lock herself in the bedroom for extended periods of time, often when I have something big the following day like work, exams, ect. As a result I handle a lot of the childcare when I get home from work, I basically have no down time, friends or time for my hobbies, which I don’t mind because I love spending time with my children. She knows that I spend time on the Chans so it’s not like I am hiding my activity here
from here, it’s not like I go on the smut boards.

I don’t know what to do, I don’t want my kids to suffer and I also don’t want to get divorce raped.

I should note, I have high functioning autism, she was diagnosed with disthymia, but possibly has a cluster B disorder as a result of childhood trauma.

Any insight would be appreciated.