I'm lost. I wake up every day and sit here for 16 hours until bed time. I know nothing is gonna change becaue i have to make change happen, but i can't move, like i'm stuck. I can't go out into the real world and seek real help, and i also can't kill myself and end this for good. I've been ignoring it this whole time, coping with mindless entertainment but i can't do this anymore. I HATE my miserable fucking existence and i'm going insane.

i'm a newfag, i'm sorry if this is too much text, i really just need someone else's opinions other than my own for once, tired of talking to myself.